Help me , Mister

I'm Drowning , Help Me

"Hello there , little wife."

Those were the first words he uttered after being gone for two days . I was really worried. I thought something happened to him , but here he is smiling as if there is nothing wrong .

"Aren't you going to give your husband a warm welcome ?" , he says looking directly in my big hazel eyes .

"Where have you been ?" , my voice whispers in the now lit room .

"Do you really want know ?" , he says while smirking . I wanted to shout no but my voice was caught in my throat. The pain I felt only increased and I felt like wailing but I would not give him the satisfaction of seeing me break .

"Well , I am tired so I will go and take a long hot shower . Wanna join me , little wife ?", He says while looking at me with his usual smirk .

" N-no ! " , Came my stutter and I mentally curse myself for it .

"Your loss then . I mean who wouldn't want this ?" , He says while flexing his arms and turning away from me going to our room .

The minute he is out , my body starts to relax and I am able to breathe again . The last time he came home he was a raging bull . He was angry at me for the smallest things and what is more hurtful is that he chose to talk about the things I am most insecure about .

I have never felt so low as that day in all my life. That day I actually broke down infront of him but that was the last time . I promised myself that I will stay strong for the both of us and fix our marriage. That is why I am dishing up for him right now because he might be hungry .

After finishing dishing up I take the food to our room. The door is ajar and I can hear the shower running . I quickly take off my pyjamas from the wardrobe and wear them as fast as I could without him seeing me . Finishing up , I take a deep breath because I heard the shower close .

I quickly straighten my back and get ready for him . There he was clad in a white towel that looks like it will fall any minute . He has a great body , i will not lie .

"You look like you want to devour me ." , He says looking smug and wearing his usual smirk . I quickly look away to hide my blushing cheeks from his view .

"Awww ! Are you blushing , baby ?" , He coos as I hear his footsteps and I know he is approaching . I stand still as I smell his aftershave . He places his slender finger on my chin making me look up at him .

My breath hitches as I see the love I saw in his eyes at the alter . The day we were made one . His rough thumb caresses my bottom lip as he stares at my lips . I want him to kiss , really bad . That is why I found myself leaning slowly to attach my lips to his . It has been a while since I tasted them and I need them . I need to feel their taste again .

I guess nothing goes well for me because his phone started ringing really loud breaking the moment we had . The moment was ruined because he ripped himself away from me as if I burnt him . I have got to admit that hurt so bad . I feel like screaming at him .

His warmth is gone , I feel so cold now .

I can hear him talking but I cannot hear a word he saying . I turn to look at him and see his mouth moving . I wish he would just come back and take me in his arms and kiss my pain away . I am crying inside , I am hurting really bad .

I see him putting his phone down and he moves to the wardrobe . He rummages insides and finds his t-shirt and jeans . I know he is going to leave me now . I am not ready for him to leave me again. He was only here for less than two hours and he already wants to leave .

"I'm going out ." , that is all he says as he takes his jacket and car keys .

"Please ." , I whimper out and I see his hand freezing at the door . He slowly turns his head and looks at me .

"Not again . Do not leave me again , please ." , my voice is barely a whisper and I know he heard me because I see his emotionless face start to soften . I start hoping he will hug me and say how much he loves me but that is just my imagination . My heart becomes shattered as he opens his mouth to utter these words .

" I have places to be . I don't have time for this" , that is all he says before opening the door and leaving me with my bleeding heart . I hear his footsteps and the front door close and that is when I breakdown .

I fall on my knees and stay on the cold floor . I cannot breathe . My lungs need air and I am not getting any . I am drowning in my own sorrow and no one can save . I cry and cry for all the pain I have ever felt during this marriage.

"Lord , please help me overcome this obstacle. Mom and Dad , I know you are watching over me and I'm sorry I let you down . Please forgive me ." , those were my last thoughts as I welcome the darkness . Peace is all i felt .