The Alpha's Mate (GxG)

chapter four

Arya’s P. O . V

“What the hell is this Arya! You said the girl was here being guarded but that’s not what am witnessing. How can you be so incompetent that you can’t even do such a simple thing? I can’t believe this is what will lead my pack …an incompetent imbecile!” Alpha Alex was grumbling on and on about the empty room and how they was no one I side so we let a little girl escape. Honestly ouch his words low key kind of hurt …they stung somewhere but I chose not to pay him any mind. “come on you idiots what are you still standing there for ? Are you just dumb or plan stupid ? Why are you still here you dummies go look for the rouge! “ my father’s voice was ridden with pure rage as he growled at the two guard’s that were positioned at my mates door. I scanned the whole room…all the tubes that she were connected to her were scattered all over the empty bed.

A high screech squeal left my lips as my back harshly hit the hospital wall. My heat rate pulsating at an alarming rate as my heart rate continuously rang through my ears. Scratching and clawing at his hand as I tried to shake out of his hold. My feet dangling just desperate to get back to the ground. Pitiful…that is how I felt in that exact moment as I gave up struggling and welcomed my fate. I had been in this position far too often than I care to admit . My father had me pressed up against the wall as he help me up with my neck , chocking all the air out of my system. “Now listen here you little girl …I do not have the time to clean up after you. Your incompetence will not be tolerated any longer. Get that filthy rogues under control. You do not just let a rogue roam free in my pack ,that shall not be tolerated,” at this point I couldn’t even hear a word he was saying…the ringing in my ears was too loud and I could barely breathe. He could see me struggling and threw me down the floor with pure disgust covering his face. The amount of malice that filled my father’s eyes was not a new thing nor a surprise but I couldn’t help but still fell the pain of it all as if it was the first time seeing the hatred he had for me . I grabbed my neck just trying to grasp as much oxygen as I possibly can whilst watching him walk out the room with a disappointed look on his stone hard, emotionless face.

I focused on getting my breathing under control as I picked myself up off the floor like I had done so many times before. My father was not always like that…he used to be kind and gentle but everything changed seven years ago when my mother was killed by rogues but that’s a story for another day. My wolf and I were on the same but indecisive page. I couldn’t help but feel a bit hurt that she was trying to escape my pack and leave me alone . I wanted her with me all the time…I know that it hasn’t been long since we me. Honestly we didn’t even meet just Crossed paths but that was more than enough for her to live rent free in my mind. The idea of her escaping was like a double edged sword in my mind…no matter what happens I would still lose. If we find her and she stays than my father could hurt her or worse kill her . If he does her no harm and she stays than what? It’s not like I can just announce her as my mate and live happily ever after…I’d have no choice but to ignore whatever the hell I am feeling for her.

Deep down I really hoped she escaped just for her own sake…she deserved better. Even without us being of the same gender they are many other factors to be considered and I am honestly not a good choice for her or anyone else. I am too ruined …damaged goods . I could tell that my wolf agreed with me on hoping for her escape but we both knew that we couldn’t be able to survive the ideal of never seeing her ever again. Looking into her ocean blue eyes brought me more peace then I’ve ever had in years … I might not want it to be true and continue to be in denial about it but I knew in my heart of hearts that she was really my soul mate…my other half. The idea of loving and being loved was beyond tempting but I couldn’t do that to her…I couldn’t bring her into my messed up life. I just needed to claim the alpha tittle and that was all the ambition I had and needed.

Tracking her was honestly beyond easy. I walked as slow as I possibly could just trying to stay behind her trail without bringing too much attention to myself or getting noticed by her. I wouldn't know what to say to her if I were to catch up to her. How do I confront her? I’m sure she knows that I’m her mate by now ,her wolf must have told her and even if she doesn’t know yet, seeing me would surely just make it obvious. What would she say? What if she tells people?. I tried to calm my thoughts and my racing heart . Not thinking about her and the endless possibilities that were lurking about just proved too hard. The guards were nowhere to be found, none of them were on her trail but I couldn’t really judge them. I had an extra advantage ,with her being my mate it was easier for me to track her. Her scent was more prominent to me …her inviting fresh baked goods scent with a hit of strawberry. I could feel her getting closer and closer to me the more I walked.

I could tell that she wasn’t moving or running away just sitting still somewhere not moving. She was probably hiding, scared ,hungry and tired. I can't believe that in just a few we’ve known each other she has been able to enlist such deep emotions from deep within me. I cared for her. I wanted her safe ,fed ,warm and preferably in my arms but that was not possible. In life you don't always get What You want and I’m not even sure I could even give her what she would want or be that for her. How do I even know if she wants a mate . How do I even think that she would want me? Who would even want me, I mean I know am strong ,a fighter , beautiful and an alpha female but I am damaged beyond measure, still insecure and controlled by my father. What if she is not into females , I never even considered that. I'm not into females either but the moon goddess put us together for a reason and I would be good to her. Can I be with her though? Am I gay? Could I be with another woman? No ! Arya stop thinking about all this… control your emotions. Don't let her find out at least play it off as if you don't know anything about the bond and feelings between the two of you.

I was talking to myself like a crazy person when I stopped in my tracks …her comforting freshly baked cookies scent filled my senses and captured my full , undivided attention. My eyes raised up from the group to the little frame on top of the tree above me. Her eyes widened as I heard her heart beat speed up in alarm. She was trying to hide on top of a tree branch , holding on for dear life. Our eyes locked for a minute and I just stared at her absorbing all of her beauty. Her eyes drew me in and lured me to her….I knew in that exact moment that it was over for me.

Game over she had me.