I was left sitting there in the darkness, but it gave me time to reflect on what had happened today.
My mind drifted back to my youth. I had no answer to why I was so attracted to bondage. I thought about all the things I tried. It’s probably a wonder I even survived. But when I discovered all the sites on the internet, things changed. It constantly pulled me in deeper. I couldn’t help it. The more things I tried, the more I wanted. I was never satisfied. As I watched videos and read stories of guys being abused and tortured, I would get a raging hard-on. Sometimes I would jerk off to their pain, but I soon learned that having that release ruined the moment. I was no longer aroused, so I would deny myself that pleasure for weeks at a time. I would often try to duplicate the scenes and oft
