Loud thuds of my heartbeat were buzzing inside my ear. I stood there paralyzed, unable to think anything through.
We both held each other's gaze, not knowing what to say.
And then suddenly, a snap of finger brought us both back to the party, to the floor, in front of each other.
"Hello?" Laura looked frustrated and my eyes were swift in going back to Ahaan's face.
God.
"Sana" that was a soft whisper, enough to make me realize that I should run away right at the exact moment.
"Will you drop me, Laura?" I asked and then looked at her.
Her face reluctantly shifted to mine and I can tell, she was tipsy. I didn't think if she could drive, I didn't care either. I just needed her car.
I felt Ahaan taking a step towards me and almost involuntarily I took a step back. I shook my head, looking away and unable to meet his gaze.
God, what did I do?!
I looked back at Laura who was again looking at Ahaan from the bottom of her eyelashes. Her sweaty face looked slutty and I felt jealous. May be she looks better than me.
I grabbed her hand and pulled her to look at me.
"Sana, don't do this. Let's go back together." That was Ahaan. His voice was like a soothing balm but I was too embarrassed to even look at him, let alone talk to him.
I stretched Laura's hand and she murmured "fine" and started walking out of that dancing area.
I came out behind her, looking down all the while.
I almost ran to her car, with her beside me. I asked for her car keys and minutes later after we both were settled down comfortably, I started the car and were on the way.
God! How could I do that?
Do you even know that guy Sana?!
But, he is nice.
Oh please! Nice or not. Get to know him at least.
He must hate me now. It must be another girls drama for him. Oh God. Sana. How would I live with him in the same room after this?
Same room..
His hands, his chest, his lips. How those touched my neck, shoulder, my jaw. His hand down there.
I felt myself getting wet again.
Really Sana?
I had never experienced a touch like that before in my life! God. His face. Why is he so hot?!
Pretty soon, we both arrived at our hotel. Laura pulled herself together and stayed in the hotel. I quickly asked for an extra pair of keys to my room and got inside the elevators and reached my floor.
I opened my room and quickly shed my clothes off and went straight under the shower.
Fuck! His touch still lingered on my skin. Wherever I touched, I felt him.
Was it so wrong that I felt happy in his arms?
Don't I deserve the happiness?
He was lost too, the same way I was.
But what if, I am just a toy for him too? I can't go to that path again. I can't be cheated on again. I don't have that in me. I won't be able to survive any betrayal again!
I won't go near him.
I turned the shower off and picked one towel out of the stack and wrapped that around myself.
When I was about to turn the knob of the door, I heard his footsteps.
Shit! Hes here!
Oh my God. What am I going to say? Think of something.
What think of something? What am I going to say? I am sorry Ahaan, I just got all turned on there at the party and its fine you gave me an orgasm, it happens. No?
Oh God. I am so screwed.
Finally I turned the lock and opened the door only to see him packing his bag.
His back was towards me and he was putting his belongings carelessly in his bag.
He is going? Leaving me here alone?!
"What are you doing?" I asked, not worrying about the fact that I was wearing nothing but a towel.
"Leaving"
Damn. His voice sounded clipped, giving nothing away.
He is pissed? For what? Is he ashamed that we did that? Does he not like me?
Oh man! That means it was just me, attracted to him.
"I can't be here alone" I said. I sounded desperate to even myself.
And for small, just a small second I felt him getting paused. But what he said in the next moment, made sure that I just imagined that.
"Sure you can"
That was like a slap on my face.
"I know I shouldn't have done that" I spoke up.
Shut up Sana. Why are you doing this?
This time he actually stopped. He turned around and oh God, everything about him was perfect.
He didn't look at my body, to my surprise, but just at my face.
"You didn't do anything. We did something. Together."
"We shouldn't have" that was just a whisper
He closed his eyes and exhaled, when he opened them- I saw Love.
No. That couldn't be love.
He continued looking down at me "I know."
"Then please just stay" I whispered, desperate to have him around.
What would I do, if he's gone? How will I live here all alone? And what if he finds somebody else?
"No" he shook his head and took some steps back, grabbed one of his shirt.
What?
"Why?!"
He turned towards me again and took a step towards me,
"Cause I can't have you running away from me again, the way you did today" his eyes never left mine
"There's no point of running, because nothing of this sort would ever happen again"
Yes!
"Oh really" his voice came out cocky and he moved further towards me and when he was just some inches apart, he moved his mouth near my ear "Are you so sure?" His voice was barely a whisper and everything inside of me tightened. My heart beat sped up and I looked away.
"Because I'm not" his voice hoarse.
Oh damn!
My skin went on fire, but he pulled away quickly, took some steps back and looked at me. His face had turned pink and his eyes looked honest- fixed on my face.
I cleared my throat, "Nothing's going to happen"
"Well see" his answer was immediate
I looked at him for a second and he looked happy, not the smiling face happy but the glowy face happy. I walked past him and picked out my clothes from the bag.
"Let's head out for dinner" he said, when I was just picking up my clothes.
"What? Now?" I asked, though I sounded convinced even to myself.
What should I wear?
"Yes. Why not?"
"Alright."
I picked out my clothes and changed into them, after he agreed to go out for a while.
When he came back inside I was ready with my hair and just a bit of makeup.
I had changed into a very high waist blue jeans, with an off shoulder crop black top, which was fitted onto my waist, ended inches above my navel. I had kept my hair free and wore nude color to my lip and wore my black strappy flats.
"God" the word escaped his mouth. He came to me slowly wearing the same t-shirt I gifted him and stopped when he reached me. He bent, making me bend back, away from him. His body fragrance covered all over my body, reached till my core and involuntarily I closed my eyes, ready to be kissed.
When I opened them back, he was standing in front of me with car keys in his hand and looked at me- amused.
Damn!
He grinned looking at my embarrassed expression.
Did I just close my eyes to have him kiss me?
Sana! Are you seriously insane?
"Ready?" He asked, with a genuine smile this time
I nodded.
Excited partly because of the dinner and partly because of him.