Dear First Love

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Dear First Love,

Victoria approached me again today. She said she wanted to be friends. I said yes because I didn’t know what else to say to her. She smiled at me and invited me to sit with her at lunch. Her friends glared at me.

I refused her offer. I ruined your friendships and relationships enough already. I didn’t want to ruin Victoria’s too. But I did become friends with her.

We had classes together. I know you have English class after lunch, and I set Victoria up to crash into you. I’m sorry. But I had to do something.

You and Victoria’s eyes met in the hallway. Victoria looked away. You looked at me. I felt uncomfortable and avoided your gaze. I’m sorry.

We passed each other in the hallway. You said hi to me again like you always did. I didn’t reply. I’m sorry for ignoring you. Victoria looked sad when you greeted me. I think she still loves you. I think you still love her. So why did you two break up?

I want to ask Victoria, but I know that she wouldn’t answer. I don’t want to make her uncomfortable. Please don’t hate me for what I’m going to do.

Sincerely,

H.