Blake only left me because his mom was calling non-stop to tell him to come home. If it wasn’t for that I am sure he would’ve still been by my side. Maybe he would have even stayed the night. I tried to ask him about future plans, it was not like I could stay at Lucy’s forever, but that was the very last thing that he seems to want to talk about. He was more interested in cuddling me and making me feel loved, but he had no idea that I actually just wanted to cut myself. I so badly wanted to get the feeling I had inside me out of me, but he made sure that I was too tired for anything by the time that he finally left. With that I was also too scared to cut myself which at Lucy. With everything so white just a drop of blood would stand out like a sore thumb. So since it seemed like Lucy wasn’
