Misery Is Sweet

Chapter 16 We Have To Talk

Kristoff's POV

After clearing my head with a much-needed walk, I strut into this place that is now my resounding hell. I don't feel better about this hard situation, even after taking some time to try to think about how I will solve this for us.. but I feel like I will do anything to make sure she is safe. So I need to go talk with her and try to figure out together what's our next step before anything bad happens. Especially since I never got to talk with her father just her brother.. and we know how much of an assh*le he can be and how well that conversation went with us.

I groan out running my hand through my hair as I push through the main doors that lead to the employee dorms. I get halfway down the hall as I see Clide's door bursting open to expose it's him and Elizabeth.. and she looks livid... I wonder if they're having a fight.

She is trying to push past him as she yells, "This isn't right! I will murder him for what he has done to her! Get out of my way!" She keeps pushing against him as he holds her back. "you can't go to him like this.. if he did that to her, then just imagine what he would do to you, baby.. I can't let you do this." Clide tries to explain but this comment just makes her madder.

"This isn't right! I'm going to at least meet her! She is all alone dealing with this!" She spats as she tries to squeeze past him. She successfully gets through his protective barrier of a body. But once she gets past him she makes eye contact with me.

She runs over to me shoving me on contact. "And where the hell were you?!" She asks as she continues to shove me into the wall over and over again, expecting me to answer when I have no idea what she is even talking about. "What are you talking about?" I ask completely confused about this aggression directed at me when I haven't done anything wrong, especially to her.

I look to Clide and he looks sad as if he knows how I'm involved in this, but doesn't want to say because he is worried I would get hurt. The pity that fills his eyes starts to worry me.

"Where the f*#k were you when Craig was breaking Meika's arm?! Sending her to the hospital wing with bruised ribs and face, along with burns on her arm?! Where the f*#k were you?! She talks about you as if you're a gift that God has given her and when she needs you, you're what? galavanting around the building? What were you with another girl?!" She yells this in my face as she shoves me back into the wall just to turn away from me. "I wasn't with another woman... I just want Meika... But I don't understand... What happened?!" The shock is apparent in my features as the news only takes a second to be comprehended in my mind. But when it does click in my brain, I feel a million questions popping up as well.

"When did this happen? Where did this happen? Where is she now?!" I belt out this inquiry at her just needing to know what's happening, right here right now. But with her quickly leaving I have to reach out to grab her arm just to get her attention.

She swipes her arm away from my grip as she spats back at me as if I did this to her. "She is in the hospital wing and my friend called me to tell me about this.. she told me by the bruises, burns, and how drastic the break was that it was torture by him, not an accidental break.. she admitted it was her brother after my friend interrogated her.. but that's all she would say."

I don't know how to react at this point since I'm still in shock not expecting that news. But before I have a chance to process this information, I feel a pat on my arm as Clide passes by me. I look up to see that Elizabeth is down the hallway with Clide following right behind. I hop into action, realizing I have frozen, but I can't at this moment because she needs me right now.

I follow right behind them, and with my quickened pace, I catch up just to pass them up. I need to get to her now.

We get to the nurse's corner pretty quickly, because it's not a huge area by any means, but just enough for this place. I try to open the door but it's locked, so I find myself banging on the door, just wanting to break in. But as I start banging on the door once again, I can see through the little door windows that Haley and Meika are headed over to us. She has a cast on her arm and holding her sling in the other arm.

Just this sight of seeing her with this cast, knowing what I heard about her was true, that she did get hurt when I wasn't there to protect her. Those thoughts just boil my blood faster than I ever expected they would. I will murder any man who lays a hand on her and knowing it happened because of me makes me feel lower than the dirt on the ground.

She doesn't deserve any of this and knowing this was most likely caused by me seeing her brother and demanding that she and I will be together, hurts so badly... It has to be part of the reason, if not the full reason why she got hurt... I should have gone straight to her after that yelling match with her brother.. but I insisted on fresh air, and now I won't regret that more than I do at this moment.

I feel my bullying thoughts filling my head just hating every action I take and every move I make, just wishing I was a better man for my lady, just like she deserves. I may not be the best at knowing what to do to be the perfect man but I know she doesn't deserve the reprocussions of my actions.

When I observe her eyes meeting mine, they shift to show embarrassment or maybe shame.. as if she did something wrong and now that I know about it she feels bad. But this is not the reaction I was expecting by any means.

The door opens for us to enter and I do without hesitation. Cupping her cheeks into my hands just because I'm so afraid of touching anything else, just worried about hurting her more than she already has been. "Meika... are you ok? This is all my fault and I'm so sorry." I state to her as I feel a hit to the center of my back in response but not from her it's from her best friend Elizabeth.

"What did you do to her to cause this? Why is this all your fault when you told me before that you didn't know any of this happened?" She questions my explanations in the most protective motherly tone that I feel a need deep inside of me to have to not just explain to Meika but to her mother figure at the moment.

"I had burst into the office to demand time with your father to talk about your treatment from your brother but to my surprise, it wasn't your father there it was your brother. He laughed at me saying the feelings I had for you weren't allowed and that I can't be with you. But I told him I would do it anyway and he said the longer we're together the worse the punishment would get and I didn't believe him but look at what he did to you because of me.. this isn't right." I find myself whining about the shitty situation as if it will change just because of my sadness.. but this isn't a fairytale and that's not how things work in the real world.. if you want something to change you have to change it for yourself.

"It's not your fault that her brother is a complete power-hungry psycho," Haley states to me to try to make myself feel better but that's not going to change what has happened to her because of me.. and the weight of those heavy thoughts weigh on my mind, making me feel worse about it the longer I think about it.

How am I supposed to build a future with this woman when there is someone to break down every move I make when I make it? There is no future for us if that's the case. Those thoughts break my heart even thinking about it.

"It's not your fault." Meika tries to make me feel better but it doesn't. I shake my head at her as I feel the tears brimming my eyes. She takes my hand from her cheek just to pull me behind her. "Thank you for checking on me but I will be fine, I will heal but right now I need to have a talk with Kris.. I'll see you guys later." She explains to her friends as I watch them reluctantly nod at her watching us walk away. I feel bad because I know they are just as concerned for her as I am but with Meika's determination leading us away from them, I have quickly found out that I have no way to stop the momentum in her step.

We keep walking away down the hallway as I try to stop her so we can talk but like I said there is no stopping this momentum.. at least without hurting her and that's the last thing I want to do right now. She leads us to the doorway that leads up to the roof.

"Meika.. we need to talk," I state to her as if she didn't already know this, but she just nods and keeps leading us up to the one place that distracts me when I'm with her. I can't let her beauty and this place distract me... I have to talk to her about this, no matter how hard it will be.

We get through the door, closing us away from everyone on top of this building. She looks all around as if she is looking for someone before coming back to me just to kiss me with those luscious, luring lips that I have seemed to crave. We press our lips together without a second thought until I have to put my hands on her shoulders to stop this and keep my mind straight.

"No Meika.. we have to talk about this," I state in a very unconvincing tone that she sees straight through as I feel her body leaning against mine. "I'm fine... I'll be fine.. all this is worth the hassle because of the future we could have together." She states to me but I have to disagree.

"No Meika this is not ok.. none of this is ok.. none of this should be happening to you at all! If I wouldn't have tried anything with you then none of this would have happened to you.. this is all my fault." I spat out at the sky hating where this one person I have always wanted, since the moment I met her, has been hurt worse with me than when she has without me. She was better off without me.. that hurts.

"Do you regret trying this with me?" She asks me with shock and hurt in her words that it makes my heart clench hearing that tone. I quickly take her face into my hands to make sure she is listening to what I have to say. "I have never and will never regret a second with you.. but you have been hurt worse than anything I ever thought would happen... And it's just because you chose to be with me... you should just dump me and be with someone else... Do something for yourself for once."

I watch her eyes fill with tears as she quietly states. "You don't want to be with me?" I shake my head hating this entire hard conversation. "No that's not it, I want to be with you more than I ever thought. You're all I can think about, and all I ever wanted to have in my future.. but I won't be with you if that means you're just going to get hurt worse from it." I try to explain as best as I can to her.

I feel her grip my shirt as she pulls me in, stepping up on her toes just to press her lips to mine. I kiss her back, instinctively wrapping my arm around her waist to pull her in... But I have to stop myself again. "No Meika.. this is not ok.. you will not convince me otherwise!" I'm getting mad now as I look down at her, not even being able to unwrap my arm because I always want her by me.

"This will be fine because it will heal and I will endure anything to ensure a future with you. Because to me you're worth it." She states with so much passion, but those words cut me so deep that I can't help but snap back at her. "This is not the future I want for us!" She looks shocked but states what she thinks is the perfect solution and maybe she is right.

"Then run away with me, far from here.. let's leave this place, and build a life together... I would do anything to have that future with you... I have imagined this for so many years that I know in my heart I would do anything for you." She explains with so much enthusiasm that it's oozing through each word.

"You would still do that with me.. knowing there is a big possibility that you could get hurt worse because of your brother? You know he probably won't leave us alone even if we leave here." I clarify as she nods and smiles at me. "I would do anything for you." She says softly to me as I respond without hesitation. "And I would do anything for you to make sure you're safe."

"Then meet me here tomorrow night.. we will sneak away in the darkness and take what we can with us.. this will give us hours before we will even be noticed and that should be enough time to get away... Ok? I'll meet you here on this spot at 10 pm on the dot. I can't wait for our bright future together.. sweet dreams handsome." She says to me as she gets back into her tiptoes and presses those soft lips to mine. I close my eyes and pull her body into mine, making the kiss so much deeper. I'm pretty sure I love this woman and it's moments like this that make me think so.. because the moments like this, make me want every second imaginable with her, for every day for the rest of my life.. no one else just her.