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Honestly, my legs are like numb. Damn, how big is the forest that connects the previous place to my house? Is Jasper lying? Was it because he wanted to save me, so he told me to run as far as possible to avoid being detected by other vampires?
However, aren't their senses sharper than razor blades? I don't know how many times I tripped and fell back on the dry leaves that dotted the forest. That was when my eyes always caught the moonlight that looked dim that night; dark clouds surrounded it, deliberately blocking the moonlight from entering.
"Damn, where exactly am I now? Why does it feel like I'm getting lost further and further away?" I muttered.
Admittedly, the whispers I had previously heard suddenly disappeared into thin air. As if being swallowed up by the forest, the trees I passed by felt more and more the same. They were all tall, dense, and creepy. Honestly, I'm not a brave woman in a dark place like this.
I've always been afraid of meeting ghosts or places that contain a mystical aura, and damn it. Now I was in the right place to test my guts every time I looked in any direction. There were only trees and fallen leaves, with dim light from the sky. Even the moon itself was invisible because the trees were so dense.
"Argh!" I muttered.
I don't know how many times I've tripped over tree roots now or how many cuts I've gotten from obeying Jasper's words. I thought to myself, Why did I obey his words so much? Is it because I don't want to die a silly death at the hands of the vampire elders? Or, is it because I love him?
However, this feeling of love grew so fast, unlike what I had imagined before. It's not like any other love. Jasper is not someone I can describe with words. He is more than words, none of which can describe my love for him.
This short meeting turned out to be too influential for me, given how unlucky I am. Intending not to fall in love but instead becoming someone who falls too deeply at the wrong time. No, it's not that Jasper is the wrong person. It was just that the timing wasn't right.
I sat down, lamenting the new wound I had just received. My tears came involuntarily; I no longer cared where I was. It felt so claustrophobic, remembering all these unfair events. Does the universe hate me so much? Why is it giving me such a heavy burden?
I felt more and more the days I was with Jasper. Things were getting worse; my existence threatened everything for Jasper. His family, his pack, even his entire people. I didn't realize I was that bad of an influence on other people's lives.
"I've told myself that before. Love is full of sacrifices; I'm not sure if I can do it. That's why I don't want to step into this world of romance. Unfortunately, I'm the one who has to make sacrifices," I muttered.
Wow, if Mom were still here. Would she punish me? Because apparently, I'm too stupid when it comes to love. Only love can make me sacrifice everything I have to maintain this relationship. However, the result is always not what I should get.
"At least I'm still alive. Either for the same reason, or just want to flow and meet the end of this life," I muttered again while cleaning my legs, which were already very tired from standing up and supporting all the weight on my shoulders.
With a strange and anxious feeling, I continued on this obscure journey. At least I had to survive if I wanted to see Jasper again. This time I was no longer running; the soles of my feet had been scratched by many wood chips and some sharp pebbles. Making me unable to run anymore.
Step by step, I waded, following the moonlight that seemed to lead me to an exit that I recognized. Right, I could see the place where I met Jasper for the first time. A meeting I had never imagined in my life.
I could also see Jasper's silhouette in the distance as I tried to run up to him. I accidentally saw another silhouette that I recognized: Brily. Why did that guy get along with Jasper? Oh my, did Jasper get caught by Brily too? But that can't be the case, right? Or is Jasper erasing his memory?
Out of curiosity, I tried to get closer while hiding behind the bushes around there. However, I seemed to regret my actions a little after hearing Brily's words.
"Are you crazy? Erasing Rosalie's memory isn't the only way!"
I froze in place. Brily knew that Jasper could erase a person's memory. In that case, is he also a vampire? It's illogical; considering myself in the middle of a crowd of vampires makes me think. Was I once a vampire too? So why didn't God allow me to reincarnate as a vampire again?
However, besides all that, I'm still thinking about what Brily said earlier. Jasper intends to erase my memory in the end. The man decided to go back on his word. I'm already this close to them, but why can't Jasper sense my existence at all? Or is he doing it on purpose? Besides, I'm still curious about Brilly. Is she also a vampire? Gosh, have I been living in the middle of a vampire family?
"A demon like me will not obey your orders; you know that for sure."
Okay, this explains everything. So Brilly is a demon incarnate? What's this theory? After the vampire, comes the demon. Will I meet a werewolf tomorrow too? It seems like it would be exciting if I actually met a werewolf. However, I just found out that demons are also part of the immortals.
Damn, somehow it still feels very tight. I've been trying to brush off the words I heard earlier. About my memories being erased by Jasper. I didn't expect Jasper to take that path in the end. What obstacles hit him until he finally dared to make that decision?
Where were the words he told me before? He would marry me even if I were human. Even if I didn't live forever, he would still look for me if I reincarnated. But in fact, now he prefers to break all the chains of the relationship we created.
In the end, I walked out, hobbling along. I realized that Brilly had finally disappeared somewhere. Leaving Jasper standing gallantly as usual, his eyes looking gently at me as always.
"How are you here?" I wondered, obviously just pretending. I hoped Cassandra was nowhere near here.
"Of course I was looking for you," he said.
"Jasper, I'm..."
I, I don't know how to let you go, I thought.
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