love does exist

love does exist

Love that comes once in a lifetime .

When Ruth b said she heard of a love that comes once in a lifetime I didn’t get it at first but I have realised that it is an amazing feeling to be loved again ,to be appreciated ,motivated ,admired and being told you are amazing everyday .I’m Nhlapo and I can proudly say I’m in love .i met Luba when I was still in matric ,he was my maths teacher’s friend and somehow I fell in love with him how I don’t know also .it was a very beautiful day when I met Luba for the first time on my way to church ,he was driving and I needed a lift since I was visiting some church outside my village .I didn’t even know he existed before that day ,I mean I moved to that village when I was still a minor but still I didn’t know him .When he approached where I was standing he just looked at me as if he was admiring the most beautiful thing on earth .

He greeted me and I was blushing as usual ,people think I’m crazy because I cant keep a conversation going for too long without smiling hence I’m always serious this days .Well we kept a very short conversation going and he decided to give me a lift to my destination ,well I wasn’t really interested in him like that to a point where I didn’t even give him my numbers and I was honestly willing to pay him for that trip but the guy took it as an insult and drove away .I didn’t even think about him because I was very late and was so eager to arrive before the sermon because everyone knows there’s no much of dancing after the sermon ,I like dancing at church but my only issue is that I have moods sometimes I feel like jumping too much and sometimes I just feel like behaving as a lady and relax .

Days went by and I didn’t even bump into Luba and when I say days I mean months probably 2 or 3 no longer sure. So I was attending extra lessons far from my village meaning I had to use transport so it picked us near the tar road from and to class.Well one day the transport to extra class left e and I had no plan I waited and waited thinking maybe I arrived early but the clock was tick tacking .I had no money with me to catch a taxi meaning I had to go back home where I was going to be scolded for allowing the transport to leave me ,you know how parents are .To my surprise Luba arrived and he became my knight in the shining amour ,he gave me a lift again but still I didn’t give him my numbers he just smiled and drove away again after he dropped me off .

One would think I was so selfish but unlike other girls material things doesn’t impress me that much and I’m not trying to be better or anything .well weeks went by again and I bumped into him when I went to the shop ,he was with my maths teacher .My maths teacher begged me to give him my numbers and I just gave in because I wanted some peace of mind and I knew that will make him back off when he sees me and still I wasn’t interested in him ,it took me while .

We communicated via w******p and he was just a cool guy he didn’t force anything ,well I remember telling him that he’s old enough to be my uncle and I wasn’t really lying the guy is 7 years older than me but don’t blame me that time my only priority was getting that matric certificate and I didn’t want any distractions.one day I went to town with my crazy friend to buy some things that we needed for matric camp that was taking place in about 2 days’ time ,we met our other classmates there and we got carried away .

When I say we got carried away I mean we blew transport money ,that’s how crazy we are when we are together .We didn’t have a plan to get home and the first person that came into my mind was Luba ,well he was driving so don’t judge me .I called him and guess

what he didn’t hesitate after some few minutes he came .I don’t know if it was witchcraft or what but I saw Luba in a different perspective ,I fell in love with how he was speaking ,how he smiled and how we got along in terms of having a conversation .He dropped my crazy friend off and there was just the two of us in the car ,he couldn’t stop staring at me and I was just so in love with his eyes .i thought maybe it was lust that’s why I didn’t entertain him that much .

The funny part was that I couldn’t stop thinking about him ever since that day ,I was so in love and in denial .It was real, another saga happened with that crazy friend I mentioned .She lives in another village so one day she visited me and lost track of time ,taxis where nowhere to be found and it was late guess who came to my mind Luba. He came through for us again and this time around I wanted to give him a chance .Don’t get me wrong I didn’t fall in love because he was always there to offer his help I just liked him. We started hanging out more often and got to know him better.

After I found out he was in a relationship ,I started hating myself for being involved with him .I wanted to let go but the feelings and love I had for him kept on betraying me .Sometimes I felt like a bad person for being involved with someone who is in a relationship, trust me I tried that’s when I realised that it was not lust ,I really loved the guy and a lot .i remember praying for my love and feelings that I have for him to disappear only for them to multiply .I don’t know what happened but after a while he broke up with his girlfriend and for someone who was inlove it was going to be a celebration but for me that wasn’t the case ,I felt like I was the cause of it.Deep down I wanted them to fix their things but the guy wasn’t having it ,I felt like I was an evil person .I ended up blocking the guy but it didn’t get me anywhere after some few months I went back .i don’t what we are doing ,we are not dating or anything but trust me im I love with this person and I can say love is a beautiful thing .im doing my second year but it feels like I met him yesterday ,don’t get me wrong im not saying we are in a relationship im just inlove with him .Luba is one of the best thing that has ever happened to me in the past few years ,I don’t regret meeting him .