It was never going to be Easy

August

August the month for swifties like me. My favourite month of the year, because of Taylor, obviously.

I walk into E-block and my friends are standing by our classroom door.

"Happy Taylor season everyone! It's August", I say smiling.

"Oh my God. Are you going to annoy us whole day?", Terri asks.

"Yep because it's August", I take my phone out of my pocket and play August by Taylor Swift.

"I think we need to prepare ourselves for this day", Malikah says laughing.

I grab Mckayla by the hand and we dance to the music playing from my phone. She laughs as she misses a few steps.

"I can't dance", Mckayla chuckles.

"That's okay. I'll sing to you then. Remember when I pulled up and said 'Get in the car' and then canceled my plans just in case you'd called. Back when I was living for the hope of it all, for the hope of it all. Meet me behind the mall" I sing.

"Are you singing that for me or someone else", She smirks.

"Shut up. Today is Taylor's day and only Taylor's day", I smile.

"Okay I'll stop", She laughs.

The bell rings and I continue on singing.

"Today is going to be a long day", Kauthar sighs.

I laugh turning off the music and walking into class. Ma'am is already sitting in class by her desk. I take my seat and she starts taking down the register.

"Today looks like it's going to be sunny", Miss Francis says.

"Yes ma'am because it's August", I say and Terri rolls her eyes.

The bell rings and we walk to Afrikaans class.

I take my usual seat and take out my notebook from my bag.

"I don't understand this whole August thing, Nishaat. What does it have to do with Taylor?", Santino asks me.

"Taylor wrote a song called August. It is about Augustine, James and Betty. James went on a holiday vacation and he met Augustine and he spent every day of his holiday with her. But then when the holiday was over he went back home to his girlfriend Betty and when Augustine found out she realised that he was never hers", I elaborate.

"Damn, she is so creative", Malikah smiles in awe.

"That's a little f****d up if you ask me", Santino scoffs.

"You wouldn't get it because you're a guy", I say.

I turn forward and open my notebook. Ma'am hands out pages with an activity for us to complete. I paste the activity into my book and start working.

I look up at ma'am, she's sitting by her desk looking at her cellphone.

"I can't work, I don't have the energy for this", I whisper to Terri whose is sitting in front of me.

"Same and ma'am isn't even teaching us, she's just sitting on her cellphone", Terri turns around and talks to me.

"When has she ever taught us something?", I sigh.

I close my notebook and take out my phone. I stroll on i********: and see a whole bunch of videos of Harry on tour.

"Did you see Harry last night?", I ask showing my phone to Terri.

"Yep. I was watching him whole night", Terri smiles.

"His so funny. What's your favourite song on Harry's House?".

"Cinema", She answers. "What's yours?".

"Little Freak", I say.

"That's a good one", She smiles.

"Do you listen to 5 Seconds Of Summer?", I ask her.

"I only know Youngblood, She looks so perfect and that one with The Chainsmokers", She says biting her lip.

"Listen to Blender. You should also listen to their CALM album, it's so good. Their releasing a new album on the 23rd of September".

"That's next month", She smiles.

"Yep. Do you know Maggie Lindemann?", I ask.

"Never heard of her", She shakes her head.

"Really? You would know her song Pretty Girl, it goes-I can swear, I can joke. I say what's on my mind, when I drink, when I smoke. I keep up with the guys", I sing.

"Yep it sounds familiar".

"She's also releasing an album on the 16th of September", I say.

"Cool. Don't Worry Darling is also coming out the 23rd", She says.

"September's going to be an interesting month", I say.

"Definitely", She smiles.

The bell rings and I walk out the classroom. I wait for Terri to walk out as well.

"What subject, now?", I ask her.

"Economics", She sighs.

"I am not in the mood for this subject", I shrug.

"I never am". We walk up the stairs together.

We make it to the top of the stairs and we walk into the classroom. I sit on the seat by the window. Tharwah sits next to me and Kauthar in front of me.

I look out the window and see him standing outside a classroom on the balcony. His leaning halfway over the railing. His wearing a black hoodie, with his grey school pants.

"Nishaat, it's rude to stare", Terri says from behind me. I look at her and smile.

"He looks good", I whisper.

"Only because his wearing a hoodie", She rolls her eyes then smiles. I stick my tongue out at her.

"He is such an asshole for not answering that letter", She says. "Does he still have a girlfriend?".

"Nope. I found out from one of my old friends that they broke up a few months ago", I say.

"Do you think he broke up with her because of that letter?", Kauthar asks smirking.

"Please don't make me think that Kauthar", I say and she laughs.

"He really has no idea what his missing out on. Honestly, it's his loss", Mckayla says.

"Nah, have you seen the girls he hangs out with?", I say.

"Their all pick me girls, Nishaat. None of them have even gone through a glow-up yet and look at you, you're getting prettier by the day", Tharwah says. I don't answer her I just smile.

But honestly I don't think I could ever compete with the girls he hangs out with. Their all so gorgeous. I would look like a ogre if I stood next to them.

I turn back to the window. Looking at him. He turns his head straight to my window and I'm still looking at him.

"You know he can see you", Kauthar says.

"No he can't", I say.

"Yes he can that's why his looking at you", Tharwah laughs.

"Oh f**k", I turn my head down towards my desk. Tharwah and Kauthar begin to laugh.

I take out my notebook and begin working.

...

"Today was actually a good day", I say as the group walks towards the exit of school.

"Yeah because it's Taylor's day", Terri mocks.

"Yep because of that", I chuckle.

"Okay Miss Swift, I'll see you tomorrow, bye", She walks away from us.

"Bye Terri", Tharwah says.

"I should go to, bye you guys", I wave.

"Bye Nishaat. Don't listen to much to Taylor Swift", Tharwah jokes.

"I'll try", I point at her.

I walk out the gate towards my brother. His standing on his own this time.

"It's cold. I want to go home", He complains like a little kid.

"So do I but unfortunately we need to wait for our transport", I sigh folding my arms.

A few minutes later our transport pulls up in front of us and we get into the van.

He drops us off at home and we walk inside our home.

"How was school?", My mom asks opening the door for us.

"It was okay", I say as I follow my brother up the stairs.

I walk into my room and take off my school uniform. I put on a casual t-shirt and my sweats. I walk downstairs and make me a cup of hot chocolate and a sandwich. I finish my sandwich and my hot chocolate and leave my dirty dishes in the sink.

I walk upstairs and turn on my phone. I think I'll message Tharwah.

*Hey

Can I ask you something?

*Hi

What's wrong?

*Nothing serious. I just wanted to know. Do you think he ever might like me?

*I think he might already like you.

*What makes you think that?

*Nishaat. Have you seen the way he looks at you?

*No.

*Whenever you look at him, he looks away. The way he looks at you says it all.

*Then why can't he tell me how he fells. I told him how I felt.

*His a guy. They don't tell you how they feel. You just need to be patient, he'll come around.

Be patient? How can I be patient. We're almost done with the third term already. I gave him that stupid letter in April we're in August already. The years almost over and I still got absolutely nothing from him. Nothing.

I turn my phone off and start with my homework. After two hours I'm done with my homework. I grab my towel and get to the shower. I take a relaxing hot shower. I turn the shower off and wrap the towel around my body. I walk out the bathroom towards my room. I dry myself further and then I put on my pajamas.

I look at my phone and it's 9:30pm.

"Shouldn't you be asleep", My mom peaks by my door.

"I was about to get into bed", I say.

"Goodnight my darling", She says before closing my door.

I plug my phone into my charger. I climb into my bed and cover myself with the blankets. I lay my head onto my pillow and close my eyes.

xxx