Chapter 4: The Weight of Silence
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The silence was not empty.
People liked to believe that.
They liked to think silence meant peace, calm, stillness—something soft and harmless, something that could be trusted.
They were wrong.
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Reyansh had learned that long ago.
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Silence was not the absence of sound.
It was the presence of something buried so deep that it refused to surface.
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He leaned back against the cold wall outside the studio, cigarette burning slowly between his fingers, the faint orange glow flickering in the dark.
The city stretched in front of him, restless even at this hour.
Distant traffic.
A dog barking somewhere.
A late-night argument echoing faintly through narrow streets.
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Normal sounds.
Manageable.
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Not like what lived inside him.
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He exhaled, watching the smoke curl into the air before disappearing completely.
Just like everything else.
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“Tu theek hai?”
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The voice came from behind him.
Familiar.
Unwanted.
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Reyansh didn’t turn.
“Since when do you care?”
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A short laugh.
“Since you started messing up takes. That’s new.”
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Kabir.
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Of course.
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Reyansh crushed the cigarette under his shoe, finally turning around.
Kabir leaned casually against the doorframe, arms crossed, expression somewhere between amusement and concern.
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“Go home,” Reyansh said flatly.
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Kabir raised an eyebrow. “That bad, huh?”
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Reyansh didn’t respond.
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Because answering would mean acknowledging something.
And acknowledging something meant it existed.
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And some things were better left—
unspoken.
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Kabir watched him for a moment longer, then sighed.
“You’ve been off since yesterday,” he said. “What happened?”
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Nothing.
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Everything.
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Reyansh shrugged lightly. “Festival hangover.”
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Kabir didn’t look convinced.
“Yeah, right. And I’m a classical singer.”
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A faint smirk touched Reyansh’s lips.
But it didn’t last.
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Because his mind—
traitor that it was—
drifted back.
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To the studio.
To that moment.
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To *him*.
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Aarav.
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The name sat strangely in his thoughts.
Too quiet.
Too persistent.
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Reyansh frowned slightly.
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There was something wrong about him.
Not in the obvious way.
Not in the way people usually were.
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It was subtler than that.
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The way he looked.
The way he listened.
The way his gaze didn’t slide away like everyone else’s eventually did.
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It lingered.
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Not curious.
Not impressed.
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Intent.
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Like he was searching for something.
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Like he expected to find it.
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Reyansh didn’t like that.
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Because there was nothing to find.
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There hadn’t been for a long time.
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“Reyansh.”
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Kabir’s voice cut through his thoughts.
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“Hm?”
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“You’re doing that thing again.”
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“What thing?”
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“Zoning out like you’re somewhere else.”
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Reyansh huffed lightly. “Maybe I am.”
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Kabir studied him.
Then—
more carefully this time—
“Is it about the new guy?”
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Reyansh’s expression didn’t change.
But something inside him—
tightened.
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“No.”
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Too quick.
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Kabir noticed.
Of course he did.
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“Achha,” he said slowly. “Then why do you look like someone just opened a door you spent years locking?”
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The words hit closer than they should have.
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Reyansh’s jaw clenched slightly.
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“I said drop it.”
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Kabir held his gaze for a second longer.
Then—
raised his hands in surrender.
“Fine.”
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But the silence that followed wasn’t easy.
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It stretched.
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Heavy.
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Uncomfortable.
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Reyansh turned away again, running a hand through his hair.
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He hated this.
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Not Kabir.
Not the questions.
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The *feeling*.
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That something was shifting.
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That something he had buried carefully, deliberately—
was starting to move.
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And worst of all—
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He didn’t know why.
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Or how.
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Or—
who.
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His mind flickered again.
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Aarav’s hand gripping his wrist.
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That moment—
brief, accidental—
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But something had happened.
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Reyansh didn’t understand it.
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But he had felt it.
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A disturbance.
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A crack in something that had been still for too long.
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And he didn’t like cracks.
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Because cracks meant weakness.
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And weakness—
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He had learned the hard way—
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Was not something the world forgave.
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“Tu kab tak bhaagega?”
Kabir’s voice came softer now.
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Reyansh froze.
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“From what?” he asked, though he already knew the answer.
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Kabir didn’t hesitate.
“From whatever happened.”
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Silence.
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Real silence.
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Not the controlled kind.
Not the chosen kind.
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The kind that comes when something too heavy is placed between words.
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Reyansh laughed.
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But it wasn’t amused.
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It was hollow.
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“Nothing happened,” he said.
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Kabir didn’t respond.
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Because both of them knew—
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That wasn’t true.
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It came back in fragments.
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Not memories.
Not fully.
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Just pieces.
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A room.
Dark.
Too quiet.
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A voice.
Raised.
Sharp.
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“You think this is talent?”
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Laughter.
Not kind.
Never kind.
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Another voice—
quieter—
breaking.
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“Please…”
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Reyansh inhaled sharply.
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The present snapped back into place.
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The night.
The studio.
Kabir.
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Gone.
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All of it—
pushed back.
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Locked away again.
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Where it belonged.
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“See?” Reyansh said lightly, forcing his voice steady. “Still nothing.”
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Kabir didn’t argue.
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But he didn’t believe him either.
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And that was worse.
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Later, when he stepped back inside the studio—
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Aarav was there.
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Of course he was.
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Sitting exactly where he always sat.
Quiet.
Still.
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Listening.
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Reyansh paused at the doorway.
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For a moment—
just a moment—
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He considered leaving.
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Walking away before things got worse.
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Before that strange, unsettling feeling returned.
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But he didn’t.
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Because something inside him—
something reckless—
something tired—
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Wanted to know.
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“You’re still here.”
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Aarav looked up.
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Their eyes met.
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And for a second—
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Reyansh felt it again.
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That shift.
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That pressure.
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Like something inside him—
was being seen.
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Not exposed.
Not yet.
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But close.
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Too close.
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“Where else would I be?” Aarav replied quietly.
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Reyansh stepped inside.
Slowly.
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The air felt different tonight.
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Heavier.
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“Let’s finish the recording,” Aarav added.
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Professional.
Controlled.
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But his eyes—
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His eyes were not.
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Reyansh moved toward the booth again.
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But this time—
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There was hesitation.
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Small.
Almost invisible.
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But there.
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Because for the first time in years—
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He wasn’t sure—
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If the silence would hold.
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And somewhere deep inside—
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Something stirred.
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Not loud.
Not yet.
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But enough.
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Enough to remind him—
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Silence, no matter how carefully built—
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Does not last forever.
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