Where Your Secrets Hide

SECRET 41

"How dare you put our video to our presentation? How dare you!! I thought you are my friend! But obviously, you just destroyed my life! Not just mine but also Carlos!" Ares said while shaking both of my shoulders. "Ares calm down, I am not the one who did it, I swear to God, I have never intended to hurt anyone, and to you. Haven't you heard my speech earlier? You just have to trust me!" I said. "Trust you? Henry trusted yu, but look where he is now! It is all because of you! You put him in jail! I couldn't imagine that!" Ares said and I can see his eyes being widended every second.

I put his ahands away form my shoulder and held it too calm him down.

"Whoever this person is, it wanted to mess with your head, the only person you can never trust, is that person!" I said. "No... It's too late already, I already ruined my future, my life..." Then he stops and look at my eyes. "No! it was you who runined my life! You ruined me! You should pay for it! You should pay for what you did! I will never forgive you for what you did to me and to us!" He said and he keeoos shaking my shoulder like anytime he is going to punch me because of his madness.

"Mr. Evan! Stop it at once!" He stop shaking me and look to Mr. Holland. "You! Go to my office, we are going to have aa deep talk!" He said and he walk away from us, leaving only the two of us backstage. "Mr. Hall, our new student called me and said that he is going to our campus tomorrow morning and not today, so you better be ready and you have to be here before 8 to meet him." He added before he truly left us.

I lok to Ares where I can see his tears dripping down from his eyes.

"it is all your fault!" He again blames me for what happened earlier before he left me alone here.

I mean, I have no rights to be mad, because he is true, that is my presentation, even though I explained that I am not the one who did that, people are still going to think that I did it because it is my presentation.

But you know what? I should be angry to C and not to Ares since he is the one who started this mess.

What doeos he want??

Why is he back...

And at last, who is he??

"You're still thinking about what happened?" I look back as I saw katahrina walking towards me. I smiled at her and kiss her lips. "yeah, I just couldn't believe ssomehting like this is going to happen." I said to her, but she just smile to cheer me up. "Jackson, at least you killed it out there, specially the way how you talk back to Austin? Did you know that everyone wants to do that to him, but they just don't have guts because they are afraid?" She said and we both walk out of the backstage for us to be out of this stadium. "I know, and I think it is cool and everyone likes it." I said. "Of course everyone lieks it, but I love it! You really are the oerfect person to be our school president." She compliments me.

I look at her and smile.

I just cannot believe that this beautiful girl is mine, I remember just being her friend 2 years ago, but no, she is mine and I am his boyfriend and she is my girlfriend.

You know, it really feels nice to love someone who is opposite tto your s*x, you don't have to worry about someone finding it out, not like what me and Chase have befoe, it's like we are hiding under the shadows for us not to be caught.

And, it really feels like to be with a girl, but I got to admit, loving someone who has your same gender feels special more than loving someone who is opposite to your gender.

You can feel the love deep into your soul, you both knows what you want, knows what to think, knows what to say.

While loving a girl...

I don't know that much when it comes on girl, so I have to pick a gift carefully every time we are going to date.

And the intimate...

It feels strange, but a pleasurable satisfaction....

But I got to admit again, being intimate with someone with your same gender is better, specially when you are a bottom.

Jeez Jackson! What the hell are you talking about?

Why am I thinking about this?

"Hey, you alright?" She asks me and I nodded. "Of course I am, I just remember you having a crush to Austin 2 years ago, but now... It's like you never had an interest to him." I said and she smiled. "People change, and when it did, love change too. I love him because of his masculinity and his looks, I just didin;t know that his personality is so opposite to what he looks like. It's like... Ugh, nevermind." She said and she smiled.

We keep walking and talking until we arrive the end of our campus.

"My dad is here to get me. See you tomorrow Jackson." She said and I kiss her lips again to say goodbye to her.

Ugh, I love the taste of her lips, it is so magical, it felt like a strawberry, and I love strawberry.

"You happy now?" I turned around to see Austin beside me, looking at Katharina while she is walking away from us. "What do you want now?" I asks him. "I know you wanted to do that in a very long time, I know you want to humiliate me, I just didn't think that you actually have the guts." He said. "Why? What are you going to do to me huh? Rape me again just like before?" I said and I was shock when he quickly grab my shoulders and pat me on the wall, using his force. "It's a long time and I stop!" He said while looking directly at my eyes, and I can see his worry, not angeryness, but something worry and fear.

I don't know what is happening, but I can feel his fear.

"I've been through a lot since Chase died! I suffered a lot, and that is enough punishment for me! I will never let you put me down and finish me! I never loses to a boy like you! And will never loses to you, you have to remember that!" He said in his mad tone but in his lowest tone so no one could hear what we are talking about.

I just smirk at him and I push him so he can stop pushing me against the wall.

"Suffered enough? Why? And how exactly did that happened? Wait, don't tell me it is because Sarah's baby, wasn't really Chase... But yours!" I said and point him out where I can see his fear from his eyes.

I knew it!

It wasn't Chase baby at all, it was his!

Because it doesn't make sense at all, how could she be 7 weeks pregnant before when Chase already died 8 weeks after that?

It only means one thing, Chase cannot pregnant her because he is dead, but it was someone else.

"How—" He said. "So I am right" I aks him and I giggles sarcastically and look at him. "I never really know, I was just messing you, didn't expect for you to fall." I said and I am going to walk away from him when he grab my arms that makes me fall on his arms.

I quickly stood up and distance myself inches away from him when it happened, it feels awkward.

"I'm gonna kill you!" He said. "Let's see who is gonna end up dead in the end."

And this time, I wlak away from him, leaving him alone there, standing, looking at my back as I leave him.

The rain just keeps falling with tears playing on his cheeks.

"You're the killer?" Jackson asks to the person who looks exactly like Chase. "I am not, but you killed my brother's best friend, like how you betrayed your best friend!" The man shouted back to answer Jackson's question. "I didn''t kill him! I did not kill Austin! He is missing! I did not kill him!" Jackson shouted.

"Is it coincidence that the same thing happened to my brother happened to Ausitn? Missing for two weeks, ghost roaming around town, and then what? Austin is going to end up dead? You are just repeating your own history!"

The time goes running and I finally arrived my home.

I couldn;;t believe I stood up fro mysrlf. It's been a year since we have that kind of face to face with each other, I never really thought that I can win the battle against him, I just couldn't tell why he is acting weird.

Why does he have to do that? I can feel that something changed to him, and he is right, ever since Cahse died, he totally acted like something is haunting him, I can sse it to his actions, to his eyes, no one really ever notices it since no one tries to look at him, except for me.

I just have this guilty feeling rtowards him.

And I know, I should hate him, but I have this feeling like something is going to happen, I felt sorry fpr him, I felt... I felt like I connect with him.

I just don't know why.

Do you know this feeling, like, you are sorry for a person just by the way he looks, just by the way you look at that person?

I am having the exact feeling towards him.

I put my bag on the couch and went straight to my room fro mee to take a bath since I do felt the sweat running towards my body.

After I did that, I message Katharina if she is free tonight for u to have adate night, since every week, once in a week, we are doing date night.

And I do felt like going out tonight.

As I put clothes on, she message me back.

'Hey babe, sorry I couldn't. My cousins are coming over and and we are going to haave a family dinner... Maybe tomorrow."

I sigh and out the phone back on the bed.

I miss the old days where if I don't want to stay at home, there is someone in fornt of my house, going to invite me for just a fun ride...

In short I miss Henry.

And that's when I came up to my senses, that if I miss Henry, then why can't I visit him in juvenile??

But...

I don't know how to face him, the last time I tried to visit him, he just turn his back on me, which I deserve...

I miss a=our friendship, and maybe Ausitn is right, how could I have the guts to be friended him again if I betrayed him?

I know he doesn't want to be friends with me either...

But I cannot face the fact that it is almost 2 years since this guilt buried inside of me.

But I have to face this guilt, I have to kill this guilt inside of me. I have to end this now, so I won't suffer from it anymore.

So I decided to go outside our town to visit my very best friend, Henry that is on juvenile because of me.