IN HIS EYES

I know your little secret.

Two weeks have passed and am finally free from re-reading all those huge books in the name of revising for my exams. I have to accompany Warren to meet investors from Wednesday this week, my life will never be my own. I totally don't get what he has on my father to the point of him messing up with all his plans about me.

Being with Warren means more of seeing Finn yet I've been avoiding him since that night but one thing i can't avoid is my mind from going back to that kiss.

I was such a b***h. I know I was too hard on him even though he deserved it. I can't deny that i want to be kissed by him again. Thinking of how hard his soft lips pressed on mine makes me weak, i want more of it.

"You will lose your mind if you keep thinking that hard." Christine pulls me out of my thoughts.

"How long have you been standing there?"

"Long enough to hear you sigh six times. Anyway, your nanny is coming to pack some clothes for you."

"Why?"

"Well...You need to stay at Warrens place this two coming days and learn key things about the investors."

"Am not going. I can still do that when am here."

"You don't get to decide Arielle, your father does."

"Argh I hate this place." I throw one of my pillows at the door.

"That gives you more reason to stay with him."

"I hate you."

"I know. Now, freshen up, we don't have much time."

"You're unbelievable." I shout at her before going to my bathroom and banging the door behind me.

I hate them, I hate this place. I don't get why they have to push me to Warren. Is the White City project more important to them than me? Oh,well, I shouldn't be asking that question in the first place, the answer is soo obvious.

After spending three hours in the shower and getting ready i head downstairs where Fred is waiting for me at the door.

I drift back to my thoughts after Fred has made sure i have my seat belt on and driving out of the compound.

I wish Finn has gone on a vacation or something, I can't see myself being under the same roof with him after our last encounter.

Fred helps me with my suitcase when we reach Warrens mansion. A middle aged women with a sweet smile take's the suitcases to the guest room after introducing herself as Marie. I guess she has been hired recently, I've never seen her here before.

After looking around and making sure Finn isn't home i ask Marie to bring a bottle of wine to my room, this deserves a celebration. I run to the door in excitement when i hear a soft knock.

"You're pretty quick...Finn!!"

"It won't be merrier if you drink alone." He pushes himself inside.

I close the door after processing the moment and take baby steps towards him.

"I thought..."

"I wasn't home?" He smirks.DAMN. "Let's have a drink." I watch as he pours the wine in the glasses and wonder how he manages to be this calm. He hands me my wine and stares at me for a moment before taking a sip on his.

Is it just me or has the temperature suddenly risen?

I drink the wine in one gulp and pour myself another glass.

"Whoa! Slow down princess, I hope you don't plan on finishing the whole bottle by yourself."

"What are you doing here?"

"Can't i say hello to our guest?"

"I was planning on having some time alone but it seems you're too good at ruining my plans."

"I'll leave after we finish this bottle. Fair enough?"

"Mmmh." I gulp down the remaining wine on my glass and pour another round.

"You want me to leave that bad?"

"Yeah."

He sighs then takes a sip of his wine.

"Okay. Give me a chance to explain things out then I'll leave."

"Explain what things?"

"Come on Arie, i want to amend things between us. Don't you want that?"

"I don't. Some things are meant to be left the way they are Finn. We always end up arguing when we meet it's best if we go back to being strangers."

"Avoiding the problem is a short term solution Arie."

"Finn..."

"No... please listen to me just this once."

I start feeling light headed and i curse myself at how i drunk the wine too fast.

"You have ten minutes." I gulp down the wine and pour myself another glass to boost my courage.

"First things first,I need to know what's your relationship with my dad."

" Isn't it obvious?"

"Are you two going out?" His grip on his wine tightens.

" I don't know. Maybe."

"He's not the man you think he is Arie."

"Are you implying that he isn't good for me?"

"Yes."

"Well, I like men who aren't good for me.Do you think you're my type? I don't mind double dealing." I move closer to him.

"You're drunk."

"Ohh please. Wine can't make me drunk. I need something stronger to get drunk, something stronger like your presence." I sit on his laps and place my hand on his chest while keeping my eyes on his lips, I like how hard his muscles have become."I know you want this."

"Arie..."

"Ssssh." I place my finger on his lips while licking my lower lip in a seductive way and slowly bitting it. His eyes move to my lips then he swallows saliva. "You like it?" I lift his chin and place a small kiss on his Adams apple. "I'd like to do your lips the justice they did mine last time." I run my thumb on his lower lip."Okay?"

I gently kiss both corners of his lips and watch as he close his eyes while breathing heavily. I get up from his lap and take a sip from my glass.

"Well, this is what I do to all my clients, including your father. Do you still want this?"

He brushes through his hair roughly before getting up.

"What do you mean by clients?"

"You've always wanted to know more about me.Todays your lucky day honey."

"This isn't the best time Arie. We'll talk when you're sober."

"It's either today or never."

"Arie..."

"All am asking you to do is listen Finn." I shout.

"Okay, okay."

"I've been a pawn to lure men into signing grand business contracts all my life. Why do you think my father is unbeatable when it comes to business? It's all because of me. I've lost count of all the men I've been with for both successful and unsuccessful missions. You want to know where the wounds from my back that day came from? I have rules must be followed and if i don't, then I have to face the consequences. I know you don't want to get trapped with someone like me Finn, so please stay away from me."

"I will," he throws his hands in the air, "is that what you want to hear from me? Hell no. That's the reason that makes me want you this bad." He says with alot of calmness that am left questioning myself if he's really okay in his head.

"Finn.."

"Actually I've known this for almost a year."

"Wait...what?Did Warren tell you?"

"No? I used my ways."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"I wanted you to say it out yourself, just to clear my doubts."

"Nothing you say is adding up Finn."

"I first saw you in Freshman year , that's when i got interested in you. I then got transferred due to personal reasons. I couldn't get you out of my mind even though I had seen you only once, that's when I hired someone to watch all your moves. I never expected I'd learn something this big about you. I don't care about what you've done in the past Arie, all i care about is seeing you come out of your fathers grasp and living a free life."

"Huh...I was almost touched by your narrative. This isn't some kind of a movie where the male lead acts as a superhero and saves the female lead from some kind of trouble then they live happily ever after Finn. I hate people who see themselves as heros in my life,no one can save me, I don't need anyone to save me because am happy with how am living my life, pay attention to this Finn, it's my life not yours. So please, mind your own business."

Finn gets close to me and cups my cheeks with both his hands. He looks into my eyes and i can feel the pulling effect they always have on me.

"You have to lower your ego Arie, sometimes we need someone to come and pull us from our darkest self. You have to let me in, you deserve to be loved unconditionally. You have to experience how warm and strong love makes people feel." Tears choose this to be the perfect time for them to find there way out of there prison, they soon turn into little sobs.

Finn pulls me in for a hug and i feel the whole weight of the world being lifted from my shoulders.

Love is something i only hear people talking about ,it's something I've been deprived of the whole of my teenage years,I soon forgot how it felt to be loved. When Finn said i deserve to be loved it hit my soft spot.

"You don't have to be strict with yourself. It's okay to rely on other people sometimes, asking for help isn't a crime. I want to be the person who helps you free yourself from your father Arie. I want to watch you get love from people who matter to you. It's time you ask yourself if you want to continue living your life this way. You can take the whole of this summer break and think about what I've said. I'll be waiting for your answer."

He pulls me away from him after I've calmed down. I feel like a helpless puppy right now. He pats my head then leaves.

Can love take away all my insecurities?