Clarke and Bellamy

The land that awaits.

As we are on the land i see that everyone is happy to be home on the ground i know that something big is coming i just know that as i am sitting here with Bell with his arm around me as we look at our daughter and O i cant believe that they get along  ready i am just as happy that bell and i are welcoming another child as well as watching Arora grow up on the land that we call home and not in space as i look at everyone around us i know that something could happen any minute or even second as i look up in the sky i see a ship that i have never seen before but if i go back into the memories of the first commander, i see that ship and i know who will be on the ship, i know that i have to protect myself as i am pregnant and my daughter and everyone here i know that everyone has seen it i look at my brother i know that it is stpuit to say this but i miss lexa and i know he does two because she would know what to do as i walk to where the ship leanded  with my army behind me to see who it might be they see me and say something to their leader, i think as i look closely i see that they are no harm but they are on my land that i grew up in “ who are you and what are you doing in mine and my peoples home?” i ask i know Indra is next to me as she knows that i am pregnant but i can still fight but she would get in the way if it comes down to that “ we are the people of the past we were on our way home as you can see but i see that you sums have taken over our home and now we have to take it back but we have not had a fight in years besides taking out our person that was captereing us and keeping us in a sleep state” one of the man say i look at the person that is the leader that is a female like me i know that we could come to un understanding “ i am sorry for the way that he is talking i hope that we could be friends i am deoza the leader we could share this valley it that is okay with you” deoza says i look  at indra as she is like a mother to me the only other person to teach me to fight she nods her head as i look back over to her “you can build satyr in the forest we can cost if you stay on one side while my people are on the other i am clarke of triku and the leader of wonku if you what to coust you will bow to me and i will keep you alive so we can live peacefully” i say and i see that most of her people are bowing to me but that man that she has on her side i look at deoza i know that i just met her and everything but it feels like i know her or something i know that becca is trying to get in my head to see who it is i just push her away deoza bows to me and says “ what show we call you oh wise one” “ helda is what you will call me i have a co-leader as well as we have saved together she in the backer with our people with me up in space with the people i care about as you can see there is more than my army behind me you all can stay except you oh i dont know who i am talking to take him and kill him” i say the last part in my language and they understand that then dezao looks at me and nodes saying she understands what has to happen as we walk back i see so many things go though i mind at once all of the past commanders are saying not to trust them that they could cause so much harm and more as we get back to the village i see that bell has our daughter in his arms i simile at that as i get close i see gia the flame keeper talking to them probably trying to take the flame and make my daughter the next helda but i know that she thinks that i died before i went up into space as i get closer bell looks at me and simile and so much more as i get so close i put my hand on gina the flame keeper “flame keeper stand now or you will be put to death” i say in my leader voice as expected to stands and turns around to face me her face turns into shock and many more “helda i did not mean any of this i thought you were died” she says i look at her and i know that she is lying to my face as i look to where that echo is that goes by lilly as i look closer i see the girl that i killed that day instead of fighting her for what is mine as i look back to gina “well you new i was alive because i spoke to Octavia before the radio went dead you are lucky that you are indra's daughter and apart of my clan as i see that you dont what me as your commander from the way that i said no to you that day for you take it out you will not get the passphrase now i had to change it the day that you tried to take it out of me and now as i have said you are indra's daughter you will become a waoriza now or you can stay as the flame keeper but you will not get the passphrase whats so ever” i say to her as i look over to indra i know that i am doing this for her i keep saying in my head as i see the leader of the people walk over into our camp i look at her saying to speak “ i have come to worn you i know longer the leader of my people and they are going to blow up the land if they dont come to an understanding they what the land for themselves and i can't stop them” she says i look at indra to say that it is time to fight for our home as i look to bell i bend down and whisper in his ear “ look after our little girl i will be back soon i will leave Octavia here with you bell” he looks at me to say that i should not go but he understands that i have to do this i look to O and she knows what i what her to do because she is five months in with her pregnancy i am happy for her and my brother he knows to stay here so as i walk with the army to that ship that landed no too long ago as i walk in the front i know that i should of stayed behind to and no fight as i am in the same position that O is in as i walk to the ship i see that there new leader is a girl that i have never meat before they might of woke up her or something “ i am the leader that you have asked for” i say “ good you can die right here in front of your army” lilly says i look at her i know what to do i look at indra she nods she knows that when you become helder you have a power that comes with it or you may have been born with it as i was born with more than one power when i look up to the person  that is holding the gun and use my mind to make there head hurt like hell i know that once i have done this i shave to teach my children how to control them lexa teached me how to as i look at them i see the fae in them “ my head it hurts i dont know what to do about it” someone says then i go to the leader and do it to her and she cant take it i can see the way that she looks after awhile i see that it is time for them to die as i nod to indra she sands the army to kill them as i keep all of their minds on the pain that i am infecting them with as they have all died i look at deoza she has done nothing wrong and she is with child i can tell as i bring my hand to my nose  and wipe it before i turn around to go back to camp if i am spotted with my blood coming out of my nose than bell would go off and say  things that i am not capable of looking after myself if it was not for raven she would of let him have a go at me in space i am glad that raven and i are friends more like sisters now when we arrive back i see that everyone is a sleep expect for Octavia and Lachlan i walk over to them and they are happy to see me home and not dead i hug them and go look for my little girl and my man when i get close i can see that they are hugging i see that aurora is a sleep and bell is up with her in his lap talking to that girl that says she is echo i walk over to him and put my hand on his shoulder to say that it is me but he jumps and wakes aurora up i just shake me hard at that “ bell it is okay it is me” i say in his ear and i can feel him relax when i look down at my daughter she smiles at me “mummy you are back” she says that i when that echo looks at me and just stares at me “ yes i am the bad guys are gone and never coming back” i say and i can feel bells eyes on me “ i will tell you later bell” i say i know he is happy that i am okay and so is our baby that i am carrying we walk to our cabin when we get there i put aurora in her bed and kiss her head i look at bell and he knows what to do  he kisses her head as well “ night my little nebula” we both say to her bell and i leave her room and walk over to ours i look to bell and i know that i have to tell him or indra would “ bell i am so sorry” i say and he looks at me with eyes that say that he has no idea what i am on about “ what are you talking about clarke” he says “ bell i used my powers to take them down we had no way of win if i did not use them i am so sorry bell” i say he looks at me like i did the right thing by telling him but i know that i should not say any more “ its okay clarke you had to do what you had to do to keep us safe to keep our kids safe” bell says i look up at him and he hugs me because i let a tear slip then there is nook on the door as we walk to the door we open it and there stood echo the girl that i did not kill “what do you what echo” i say she looks at bell then to me “ i what him” is all she says i know that bell will not leave me he would rather kill himself if that was to happen i look at echo and use my power that hurts from the mid to the body as i am doing this bell looks at her and then me like he is thinking what to do and when he sees me standing there with blood coming out of my nose he knows not to disturb me as i am trying to get her to walk away with her life but i can see that it is getting the best of me because she falls down in my doorway after awhile of trying to not let me in to the pain that is in her mined from the way that she was tattered from the ice queen because she had to give up her identity to let her sister live and become one day helda i can see everything in her mind “stop please” she says to me “ why should i what would i get if i do” i say “ because if you not you will go to far in and find the things that ice queen has done to your mother and father on that battle field if you do and i will not come near you or your family” she says i feel bells hand on my shoulder to make sure that i dont kill someone or anyone that i might regret. I feel that I can kill her for what she has done in space. I think about it and stop give her pain and going through her mind i know what the ice queen has done as i walk away from the both of them i go to the place where i can think and be near my father he use to take me here we are in the only place that i call home and i just wish he was here with me as i know that he would love to see me as commander and i know that he has tight me a lot of things before the flamekeepers came and got me they were always looking for nightbloods like me lexa taught me what was right we i was with her i just wish she never died at all and she was still here two as i sit here and think of everything that was taken from me i see what they mean when you are helda you give up the love for your love one but love is not weakness as some people may say it is but i think it is not as i set here and look at my father's grave that i had loclen dig for me at that age he knew that i could not do anything and that i was a wreck that is why i keeped training to be the best fighter there ever was on this plant that i call home i can't wait for this plant to go away i just want to be with my father he loved me for me when i was young as i keep thinking i did not know that someone was behind me at that time “clarke baby girl” the women that gave me up on that battlefield “what now you rambler that you have a child that you used to car so much about but never tried looking for her she had to fight everything and see the world around her and become someone that never had the chance to have both of my birth parents there to help me but no they were both gone i have got nothing but the people that i grow up with like my family that i have made and the people that i have taken me in you refused to even see me or find me whats so ever what happened to that caring woman that loved her child the one that said that would be there for there child no matter what no matter were that child would be.” i say she looks at me with regret and guilt in her eyes i see the woman that i love and care about the one that was always there for me. “ i am sorry for leaving you my child i had to give you up because if i did not you would have been in danger form your aunt the one that took the thone from your father the one that wanted it i am sorry that i left you my child i should of looked for you instead of running away that day and told you what i needed to say but i was sacred that she would find out that i had a child that would take the throne from her son but i am here now i what to try and be your mother agine i know what you might think but please just give me a chance to redeem myself to you as you know that i have missed so much from the way that you have grown to the day that you got married and more my child please give me a chance to try and be there for you and your children” she says as i sit there herring this for the first time i cant believe that she whats to get to know me and who i have become so i will try and let her in even though i will have let her in i have to let bell know what is going on as i look to my mother for the first time that she has said a word to me “ i would love to have you in my life mother i have missed you and more that i can not say and thank you for explaining to me about what happened that day” i say and give her a hug that we both need as we walk back to the village we laugh and joke around like we used to before the war that happened i just wish that lexa was here to see this but i know that she is looking on from were she is at as we get close i can hear people taling as we continue to joke around and as we come into view of the village everyone is looking at us like they have not seen be joke like i am right now everyone stops what they are doing and looks at us as we keep walking Aroura comes running over to me and jumps up into my arms “Mummy are you okay dad said that you hand to go somewhere to resran yourself” she says “ of couse i am okay my little nebula you know were your father is at” i asked she nods and jumps down and runs to were her father is at we follow her until i see him there helping Ocativa out i look to find lachlan but he is no were to be found whatsoever i look to O i put my finger to my mouth to single to stay quite because she knows how much i love to sacer her bother as i walk up behind him i rap my arms around his wast that way so he knows not to jump and be sacred of who is behind him so of course he would turn just before i  could do anything he looks up at me as i am about to talk to my mother that is behind me “ mum i would like you to meat bellamy blake the one that i am with for life” i say and i turn to bell who is shaking her hand and with a smile that i have forgiven my mother but what happened that day on the battlefield.