All You Need Is Love

Chapter11

                                                                            (Desire)

"I really didn't want to bring you home." Jacari says as we pull up to the front of my house.

I really didn't want to come home.

"You sure you gone be ok?" He asks.

"Yeah" I say.

I look at the house and notice that my room light is on.

I didn't leave it on.

My mom's car is still gone.

"Call me if yo mama starts with you. I'm just one call away" he says.

"Okay" I say then I slowly open the car door.

I just know Dennis is in there waiting for me.

Ain't no telling what this man is about to do to me.

I might not see Jacari for a couple days.

Might as well get this out now.

When Jacari confessed his feelings to me I really didn't say anything back.

All I did was accused him of something that wasn't true and I feel bad.

I close the car door.

"Jacari I'm sorry for accusing you of thinking of me as a charity case. I just don't know what you really see in me. Like I'm not insecure about my looks or anything I just don't see what you Jacari Lockwood sees in me." I say.

"Desire you have to forget about what you heard about me and what you think you know about me. Get to know me. f**k what you heard. Then you will see it." He says.

"I am and I care strongly about you too Jacari. Everything is just moving too fast for me. I'm having a hard processing it all." I say.

I guess I do have a crush on him.

Hell, I might even be in love with him too.

All of this is scaring me. I've never fallen for somebody so fast.

"We can go as slow as you need us to Desire. I just wanna be there for you and I know this sounds weak as hell but I need you to be there for me too. s**t, I ain't got nobody but when I'm with you I feel like I got somebody. I never realized how alone I really was trying to be tuff and s**t.  I'm in that house by myself. My own grandma hates me. Then you came along." he says.

"Needing someone doesn't make you weak Jacari. You don't need to be tuff all the time. I wanna be there for you too." I say.

I see Jacari as this tuff dude on the outside but on the inside, he really needs somebody to care about him.

I'll be that person for him.

I then try to take a step forward.

I lean in to try in kiss him on the jaw but he turns his head and our lips meet.

I have already had my first kiss.

But that kiss with Jacari was like that all over again plus more.

I was the first to pull away because it got too intense.

"I have to go now" I say.

"Ima be back in the morning to get you for school" he says.

I give Jacari one last look then exit the car.

I watch his car until it disappears down the street.

Now I have to walk into the gates of hell.