All You Need Is Love

Chapter 15

                                                                              (Desire)

Christmas morning. .

I wake up in Jacari's's bed by myself.

Just like it was the first night I ever stayed here.

But this time I don't find him in the kitchen.

He must've went somewhere.

I head to the living room and fall on the couch.

I've been here with Jacari for like 4 days straight.

But kinda mostly here by myself since he's always gone at night and every time he gets a call from his friend Que he has to leave.

It gets kinda lonesome but I'm okay with it I guess.

Anything is better than being there with Dennis.

Speaking of Dennis he's probably really pissed that I haven't been there in 4 days.

He's probably planing how he's going to kill me now.

And if my mom is there she probably hasn't even notice that I'm gone or haven't even made a appearance.

Or maybe this time she's not coming back.

Today is Christmas which is not even a big deal to me.

I'm not expecting anything from anyone.

Christmas stopped mattering after my mom stopped caring about me.

Which was right after my Dad walked out on us.

So holidays are just like normal days for me.

I hear a noise at the door.

I hear the front door open then Jacari enters the living room with a lot of bags.

He sits beside me and starts pulling stuff wrapped in Christmas wrapping out of the bag.

"Merry Christmas" he says.

My heart stops for a second while I try to collect my mind.

I'm staring at like 30 wrapped gift small and big.

"Jacari you really shouldn't have." I say slowly.

No one has ever did this for me.

I really don't even know how to feel about.

"No. But I wanted to. Open something" he says handing me this medium-sized box.

I stare at the box.

"Jacari this is really too much" I say.

I'm just so in shock right now.

He really didn't have to get me anything.

"Just open the damn stuff" he says.

I slowly start tearing the wrap off of the box.

I open the box and it's filled with books by the lady I told him was my favorite author.

My whole heart is melting.

As I open some other stuff I see that he used every thing I told him I liked in concept of getting the presents.

I just can't believe he is doing all of this for me.

It's so surreal.

I get to this one box with a black dress in it.

Then this other one has these shoes in it.

"What are these for?" I ask as hold them up so Jacari can see them.

"I'm taking you out tonight" he says.

"Oh .. you have really good taste" I say.

"I know"he says while staring at me intensely.

I blush then look back down at all of the gifts.

"Thank you very much Jacari. You really made this Christmas really special for me. I'll never forget it." I say.

"It's our first Christmas together that's what I'm suppose to do" he says.

Then out of nowhere I feel really sick to my stomach.

Like everything I've every eaten In my 17 years of living is about to come up.

I jump up off the couch and run to the bathroom.

I really hate throwing up.

It's like one of the worst feelings in life to me.

When I'm done I just sit beside the toilet because I'm too weak to get up.

Jacari walks in the bathroom and sits down beside me.

"You straight? What's wrong?" He asks with a worried expression across his face.

"I don't know" I say because I really don't.

"Maybe it's something I ate or I just got too excited or something" I say.

"Or you could be pregnant" he says.

I look at him and he starts laughing.

"I'm just playing" he says.

I start fake laughing to play it off but all I can do is think about Dennis.

He never uses protection when he r***s me.