All You Need Is Love

Chapter 8

                                                                      (Desire)

When the final bell rings I don't know if I should go straight to Jacari's car or keep walking...... I don't know.

I guess I'm really doing this.

I'm going to his house.

Hopefully his parents don't mind.

That's if he still wants me to come.

I exit the school building and search with my eyes around for Jacari's car.

I spot it and he is leading against it.

Is he waiting for me?

I slowly walk over.

"About time.. got a nigga out here waiting" he says as he opens the passenger car door for me.

I guess he was.

I get in and wait for him to slide in the drivers seat.

I watch as he talks to this boy.

The boy I always see him with.

I guess that's his friend.

Then he gets in the car.

"Are you sure your parents won't mind?" I ask again because that's what I'm most worried about.

I really don't want to intrude on anyone or anything.

"Did you grab the stuff we need?" He asks ignoring my question again.

"Yeah" I say.

I guess I'll drop it and see what happens when I get there.

We are on the road for like maybe a hour then we pull up to this apartment complex.

But it's not like ghetto bad looking apartments.

They are really nice and big.

We get out the car and I follow him up to his apartment.

I feel a little nauseated as he puts the key in and turns the doorknob.

What if these people don't want me here?

"Welcome to my crib." He says as we walk in the house.

I look around.

It's smaller then I thought it would be.

It looks like it's made for only one person.

But it's still really nice.

As I follow him to the living room I don't see any signs of anyone else living here beside him.

It's just the way the place is set up.

"You can get comfortable. I'll be right back" he says.

I sit down on the couch then get all the supplies out of my book bag and place them on the table.

For our project Mrs.Flowers wants us to make the ideal yearbook using people out of a magazine.

She wants us to put our two ideas together and make them one.

I guess she has us doing this because we're seniors.

"I'm back" I hear then I feel him sit down beside me.

Curiosity is really taking over me right now.

Where is his family or somebody?

"Jacari do you live here by yourself?" I ask.

I really don't want to be all in his business but I just have to know.

"Yeah" he says.

"Where are your parents?" I ask then immediately regret it.

I don't wanna overstep my boundaries.

I watch as his jaw clenches a little.

"You don't have to answer that. I'm sorry for asking." I say slowly.

Silence surrounds us for what seems like hours to me.

"Nawl... you good" Jacari finally says.

"But if you really wanna know I'll tell you or whatever"

"Okay" I say.

He leans back on the couch.

"Well Anthony my dad shot and killed my mom and then killed his self when I was 9. I saw the whole thing." He says slowly.

I get this sickening feeling in my stomach.

That is not something I expected to hear.

I should've minded my own business.

I thought I had it bad.

That's terrible.

And he's all nonchalant about it.

I know it's gotta hurt.

"Well how are you attending school?" I ask trying to change the subject a little.

"My grandma. My mom's mom. She doesn't like me because she says I look too much like Anthony. That's why I don't live with her. Once I was old enough to get out of her house. I was out. All she had to do was sign me in. I got the rest. I don't need nobody. I got Jacari." he says.

"Everybody needs somebody Jacari" I say.

It's true.

Everybody needs somebody.

Whether people want to believe it or not.

He stares at me.

"Bullshit" he says then smiles.

"Since you all in my business. . . With yo nosey ass.. I wanna ask you something." He says.

I get a wave of nausea again.

I just know he's about to ask something too personal.

"What is that?" I ask and prepare myself.

"Why you always coming to school bruised up? " he asks.

I'm literally on the verge of fainting.

"I'm not going to say you don't have to answer it because you have to. I just told you my story. Now you have to tell me yours. It's only fair." He says.

In my mind I'm trying to put together a quick lie that would some what sound believable to him.

"Well" I say.

"My mom is an acholic who likes to take her anger out on me"

That's half of my story with a major part taken out.

"That's f****d up" he says.

"Why won't you just leave?"

"I don't have any where else to go" I say.

I can't believe I'm telling him this.

This is way more then Jayda knows or will ever know and she's supposed to be my best friend.

The room goes silent again.

"We should probably start working now" I say.

"Yeah" he says.

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"You should probably take me home now Jacari"

I take the supplies and the work we did and put them in my bookbag.

I guess we got so wrapped up in the work that time got away from us.

It's really dark outside now.

"Yeah but you don't have to go" he says.

I don't think I heard him clearly.

"Huh?" I ask.

"I mean if no one's gonna miss you tonight you don't have to go and deal with all that. . You could stay here I don't mind" he says.

What he's saying sounds crazy to me.

But then I think about Dennis probably sitting there waiting for me and it doesn't sound so crazy.

My mom probably hasn't made it back anyway.

If she has she probably wouldn't notice if I was there or not.

This is just too good of an offer to pass up.

"Okay Jacari thanks" I say.

I'm really about to stay at his house.

I don't really know him like that but for some reason I feel safe around him.

I trust him.

"No problem. . You can sleep in my room and i'll just take the couch when I come back"

"Where are you going?" I ask.

"Desire I know you've heard about me" he says.

I think back on what I've heard about him.

Drug dealing.

"Oh" I say.

"Get comfortable. . I'll be back" he says then heads for the door.

"BE SAFE" I shout after him.

"I'LL TRY" he shouts back.

Then the front door closes.

I go and find his room.

I don't even turn the light on.

I just get in the bed.

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I haven't been to sleep since Jacari left.

It's now going on 3 in the morning.

I know what he's out there doing is dangerous and I can't sleep on that.

I gotta know that he's okay.

I feel relieved when I finally hear movement in the house.

I hear the room door open.

The light goes on.

I pull the covers over my head to pretend to be sleeping.

I hear movement around the room.

Jacari is probably changing clothes or something.

The light goes off.

I feel the bed move.

The covers lift then I feel his body beside mine.

My heart starts beating really fast.

"I know you not sleep" he says.

I turn over to face him.

"I was you woke me up" I say lying.

This should be awkward but for some odd reason, it's not.

It feels so natural.

I roll back over with my back facing him.

"My bad" he says.

Then he wraps his arms around me.

"Good night Desire" he whispers in my ear.

"Good night Jacari" I say.

What in the hell is happening here?

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