All You Need Is Love

Chapter 10

                                                                         (Desire)

I step out of the car with Jacari close behind me.

I twist the door knob.

All the dread leaves my body when I discover that the door is locked.

If he was here the door would've been unlocked.

I pull out my key and enter the house.

I skip the house tour thing and just head straight to my room with Jacari still behind me.

Jacari sits on my bed.

I go to my closet to grab something to wear.

"I'm just going to take a quick shower" I say to Jacari as I pass him on my way to the bathroom.

"Take your time" I hear him say before I close the door.

I hurriedly hop into the shower.

It feels kinda weird having him in the next room while I'm in here naked.

After about 10 minutes I cut the shower off and step out.

I look around for my dry off towel.

It's not in here.

I left it in the room ...... with Jacari.

Damn it.

I can't just walk in there butt naked and grab it.

I crack the bathroom door enough for me to talk out of it but not enough for someone to see inside of it.

"Jacari" I say.

"Yooooo"

"Can you hand me the towel hanging on the closet door?" I ask.

"Sure thing" he says.

I peep through the door as he makes his way to the closet door then to the bathroom.

"Thank you" I say as I stick my hand through the crack and grab the towel.

I hurriedly slam the door behind me before he sees anything.

I quickly dry off and slide into my clothes.

I put my hair back into the ponytail with the bang.

I step out of the bathroom and almost have a heart attack.

Jacari is sitting on the bed with my diary in his hands.

I run over and snatch it.

"What are you doing?" I ask.

"Calm down .. I didn't read it. . I was just holding it" he says.

I feel a little relieved but I don't know if he's lying or not.

I can't read his face right now.

"How did you find it anyway?" I ask.

"I was stretching on the bed and slid my hand under the pillow and there it was. I didn't read it because I was like it's probably all personal stuff about how much you like me and how big of a crush you have on me and how sexy I am ..all that good stuff ..." he says.

I don't really know what he's getting at.

Is he trying to slick tell me that he likes me?

Or does he really think I may have a crush on him?

Do I?

I can't help but smile.

"You're way off" I say.

"Whatever you know you want this" he says smiling back.

This strange feeling runs through my body.

What is really going on here?

"I really don't but let's go" I say as I slide my diary back under my pillow feeling like I dodged a bullet.

((((((((((((Hours Later)))))))))))))

We pull up to this like abandoned small house surrounded by trees.

"I once saw this in a scary movie I think I'm supposed to run now" I say.

"Ha ha" he says as he takes the key out of the ignition.

He comes over and opens the passenger door.

I follow him to the back of the little-abandoned house.

We stand surrounded by trees.

"Come on" he says as he walks over to this one huge tree.

He starts climbing up these little wooden pedals that are nailed to the tree.

I just stand there staring up at him until he looks back down at me.

"You want me to climb up there?" I ask.

"No I just want you to climb up here" he says.

"Why?" I ask.

I really don't want to climb up there.

The tree is very very high.

What if I fall?

"Just come on .. please." He says.

"Only because you said please" I say as I begin to climb up the tree.

When I get to the top I see him sitting on this little wooden bench thing that's nailed to the tree too.

I go and join him.

"So what was the point of all this?" I ask.

"Look" he says pointing.

I follow his finger and see the most beautiful sight ever.

You can see the whole city from up here.

"Wow" I say.

"You should come at night" he says.

"How did you find this?" I ask.

"This was my dad's idea of a tree house .. the view just kinda came as a plus .. I use to come up here all the time with my mom before the thing happened" he says.

"Oh" I say.

"Is this where you bring all the girls?" I ask trying to lighten the conversation.

"Nope you the only female who's been up here other than my mom" he says.

"I try to come here like every other week or so to clear my head .. s**t like that."

"Why did you bring me up here?" I ask.

"I wanted to tell you something.. kinda like a confession" he says.

"Okay" I say slowly bracing myself.

There's no telling what this boy is about to tell me.

"Desire I feel a lot for you...hell I think might even be in love with you. I know we haven't spent much time with each which is why this whole situation weirds me the f**k out." he says.

"Huh?" I ask.

That's literally the only thing in my vocabulary right.

How does one take this in?

"I know you probably thinking how can this nigga be in love with me .. we ain't even been talking for a month.. But Desire I just don't know. . The s**t hit me like a damn bus....like ever since the first time we talked to each other in art class that day you all a nigga been thinking about lately... I ain't never in my life felt this way about no girl ..it's like a just wanna be there to protect you .. to be there for you. . . To love you" he says.

"You wanna be my own personal superhero" I ask.

"Desire I wanna be whatever you need me to be" he says.

"Jacari I'm not a charity case" I say.

I've decided that I'm not buying it.

This boy doesn't even know me to claim he's in love with me.

"What?" He asks.

"Jacari you just see me as this bruised up quiet girl that needs rescuing.. you don't love me"

I realize now that the real reason I haven't told anyone about the Dennis thing is because I don't want to be treated like some charity case.

I feel like right now that's what he's doing.

"How in the f**k are you going to tell me what in the f**k I feel?" He asks.

I jump at his words.

Jacari curses all the time but this is the first time he's use them so harshly at me.

I think I hurt his feelings.

"I know what the hell I feel and I don't see you as I f*****g charity alright. I see you as this girl who's going through something and is trying so hard to hide it. I see you as this strong girl who finally needs to let her guard down and let some damn body in because you are the one who told me everybody needs somebody. If that's the f*****g case Desire who do you have ... huh? ... Who do you have to need!?"

I can feel his eyes burning the side of my head because I refuse to look at him.

I'm trying so hard to fight the tears that are building up but I can't.

He reaches over and wipes them away.

"I don't have anyone Jacari" I say.

"Me neither .. we can have each other... I'll be your diary "he says.

Stuff just got real.