Chapter 19
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(Desire)
I just can't think of anything I've done so wrong in my life to deserve this. I finally meet someone who may actually care about me and I may lose him.
I jump off of the bus and run the rest of the way to the hospital.
By the time I get there I feel so weak and drained.
I stand outside and slowly get myself together.
Me crying isn't going to help anything.
I go in and walk to the waiting area.
At first sight I spot Que.
It looks like he's arguing with the front desk worker.
I better get over there now.
"Que have you heard anything yet?" I ask as walk over.
He looks down at me then back at the worker.
I've never noticed before but Que is like unnaturally tall.
"I'm trying to find out but this lady won't tell me nothing because I'm not blood related to him" he says.
It's clear to see that he's very frustrated.
"I've told you sir over and over that I can't tell you anything. Family only." She says.
"And I've told you that we all he got." Que says while pointing at me then back at his self.
"Ain't nobody else about to come up in here checking for him."
"Please ma'am" I say hoping that she will find it in her heart to tell us something.
She sighs then picks up the phone.
After about 5 minutes of talking to someone she hangs up.
"Well right now he's still in surgery. I will send the doctor to you all when he gets out. " she says.
"Thank you very much" I say.
Then Que and I go and sit in the waiting area.
"Do you know what happened to him? " I ask.
"Nawl I went to his mama grave because I knew he would be there and I found him laying there. I don't know who did it. But wait til I find that mother fucker." He says.
"Oh" I say.
"But I know my boy gone be alright. He then been through worst s**t than this. So don't worry too much about it." He says.
It goes silent.
There's not much to talk about.
We're both just waiting.
"What brings you his way?" Que asks out of the blue.
"Huh?" I ask because I don't really understand what he's referring to.
"I mean you seem like a good girl. Jacari is a like vicious thug ass criminal. Why you with him?"
"Oh .. I guess it just happened." I say.
"He really loves you though. I guess opposites do attract." He says.
"Excuse me. Are you all here for Jacarii Lockwood"
Me and Que both look up immediately.
"Yes" I say as I stand up quickly.
Que slowly stands up beside me.
"Is he alright? " Que asks.
"Yes. He's awake and stable." The doctor says.
The weight that has been over me since I got here let's up.
"Can we see him?" I ask urgently.
"Yea but one at a time because there's already someone in the room" he says.
"Who?"Que asks.
I know it can't be his grandma.
"A police officer." The doctor says.
"Desire you can go first. I gotta go do something." Que says.
"Okay." I say then follow the doctor to Jacari's room.
"Here we are" he says then we both enter the room.
At first glance I see Jacari laying in the hospital bed with tubes running out of him.
I go over and slide a chair to his bed side.
"Hey." I say as I slowly grab his hand.
He doesn't say anything he just continues to stare at the officer in the corner.
"Jacari" I say to get his attention.
He slowly turns and looks at me.
I look into his eyes and I can tell there's something else wrong besides the fact that he got shot.
He pulls a fake smile across his face.
"What's up. " he says.
What else can be wrong?
Then I notice that he's handcuffed to the bed.
I don't think they do that for regular patients.
"Jacari why are you handcuffed to the bed?" I ask.
He looks back at the police officer than back at me.
"They charging me with drug possession."He says.
It feels like a knife has been pushed through my heart once again.
"What. How can they do that? You're the one who got shot." I say.
"I know it's f****d it. But ain't s**t I can do about it. It's possible I'ma have to do some time because this ain't my first time being arrested." He says.
I feel weak and drained again.
"I don't wanna leave you Desire but I don't have a choice right now."
I just nod at him.
I have no words at all.
I fight the tears with all the power I have left in me.
Again.. me crying isn't going to help anything.
He's going to jail but the question is how long?
He sighs.
"Desire I need you to send Que in. I need to talk to him about something. But promise me you'll come and see me." He says.
"Of course I will Jacari." I say.
"I hate I have to put you through all this. But I promise you things will get better. And you still don't have to go home. You can always stay at my house." He says.
I nod as I get up to head out the door.
"Desire I love you." He says.
"I love you too Jacari" I say then exit the hospital room.
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