I'll Fated Princess

Teenager

Nice, this is the new chapter of my life as being a high school student. At my first year, I was nominated as a secretary in our class. First of all, I'm so nervous I asked myself "What would I do?" So here's what I'm going to do is to write on the board and write in the teacher lesson plan. For the first time, I don't believe that I will get that position because this is my dream come true. I don't know why they choosed me I think I'm pretty?? Char! But don't worry my penmanship is good.hehe...

I'm so happy even though I'm thinking my self ugly I  still have a suitor. But I'm still no confidence in myself. 

While I'm walking, most of the boys looking at me but I don't see myself as pretty.

They said. Woah! there has a beautiful lady walking by and  I pretend that I didn't hear.

I'm trying to active in our school. I tried badminton sport, Slogan competition, group dance. By doing this my confidence gets higher slightly but I'm still shy in people to talk. Also, I got good average grades in my 3rd and 4th year.

You know why? Because I see my inspiration. I have many crushes in our school when I see them, They brighter my day. 

Princess got a circle of friends in high school and her life is not bored. She tried to cutting classes but she still maintaining her grades.

The best night in high school student happened this is the acquaintance party they have the same linen of dress but different style. 

Princess is very nervous in this event because she was so shy in her dark underarm. She was with her friend they don't want to dance on the floor.

The  Graduation has come for the high school student she was happy because she graduated with high grades in the first time of her life; she got a total average of 85.65. After graduation, they need to goodbye to each other. They go to a different university and no proper communication.

At the age of 14, I was started to cook for my family so that's why I'm thinking to choose the course of Hotel and Restaurant Management. But before that, I was enrolled in a technical vocation in short courses as Culinary and I enjoyed it. I got a new suitor again but I declined again. I think 3 suitors. Char! I have long hair right? 

I'm studying harder in culinary because I admired my teacher but he didn't look at me. Omg, I have many crushes in teachers in our school. I saw their masculine body and like innocent looks. My eyes blinking and my heart beating haha...

I tried to chat with my teacher but he is just aloof in me. I tried many conversations but no deeper commitment. Oh omg, I'm so drowsy. 

In the morning, we cooked food and then the left food I bring to my crush teacher with my classmate even though she had a  crush with him.

I said; 

Hi, sir, we had left food please eat I said it with my sparkling eyes 

Mr Sher smiled at me. Wow! thank you. It looks like delicious huh...

Yes, sir rest assured you it's so very delicious.haha

Okay, thank you again see you around.

Bye, sir. (with heart beating)

We've done with our classmate's in the assessment so we need to take the on the job training. We hired as a trainee in the golf course field as a kitchen assistant. So most of them are elder so I don't have a crush with them. It's so boring.

Our colleagues told me that I'm so greedy for food but I'm so thin. Am I also asking myself, why? I always eating rice 3x a day with merienda but I don't know why I'm so thin? 

I felt body shaming on me. 

The time is running so fast until we already preparing with our graduation in technical vocational as a short course of culinary. 

I hoping that I will get the medal but I'm so disappointed. I didn't get his attention on me of Sir Sher.

Hmmm..  I failed.

So after graduation, we don't have communication at all.

So finally, I decided to enrol now in popular University in the course of Hotel and Restaurant Management. 

Omg, here we go again I'm so nervous by the way my teeth is worst now. It's getting decaying below my teeth.

I'm so shy because I have many classmates younger. Before, my classmates in technical vocational are more because they are from abroad for the rest of them. But now I need to build a friendship with my classmates but I'm so shy because of my physical appearance. Being thin body, brown skin, skin dirt,  missing 1 tooth in front, bad odour, bad breath, crooked teeth and decaying below teeth. 

I still don't get confidence and so shy talking them.