Only Wish This Life Do Not Know

Chapter 4

After returning to the palace,the Chu Lin announced to the world that Empress Xu Qingyan and the Crown Prince were suffering from an evil disease on their way to the Shu Kingdom and would not die.Everything seemed to be back on track,but no one had expected that Chu Lin would never mention Feng Jiang Rou as a successor.

The second month after Xu Qingyan's death,the House of Internal Affairs reported that Jiao Fang Dian had found Xu Qingyan's old belongings and asked the Emperor what to do.That day's fire suddenly appeared in Chu Lin mind. Xu Qingyan stood in the midst of the fire and looked at her with anger and unwillingness,but she was not infatuated.

He stood at the door of the Fang Dian that had been cleaned up for a long time before he ordered the House of Internal Affairs to present the items that had been cleaned up. It was a brocade box. The jade pendant in the brocade box matched the one on his body.

In their minds,the two of them wore jade pendants for each other.She Didi the jade pendant around his waist,her face flushed red from embarrassment. She did not even dare to look him in the eye.

——A' Lin,in this life,I only wish for one person's heart,a white head.

"Come,come!"Chu Lin held the jade pendant at his waist and felt pain in his heart. He held the pillar and stood still." Where's the person?"Where is the person I want you to find?!"

Everyone knelt on the ground,and the attendant who accompanied them bravely replied," If you return to the Emperor,the guards searched under the cliff for three days and did not obtain anything. The Empress..."No bones."

No bones?

Chu Lin stood there with a gloomy expression. First,she was sad,then her deep eyes suddenly widened as she murmured," I didn't find the body,did I?""Maybe she's not dead?"Her eyes were filled with surprise.

He found the guards who had gone to the bottom of the cliff to search for suspicious points.

He knew that according to Xu Qingyan's personality,she would n' t be willing to die. She must have escaped trying to escape.But now,where did she escape?

"Find it!""Don't come back if you ca n' t find her!"

Only at this at this moment that Chu Lin dared to look at.

In a big fire,only ashes remained Fang Dian the pepper. The spicy wine entered his throat. His hand trembled as he touched the wooden pillar and laughed self-mockingly," You're actually unwilling to leave anything behind."

Chu Lin controlled himself not to think about her,but the more he did,the more anxious he became.

All sorts of scenes from the past brushed past his mind. In the haze of drunkenness,Chu Lin took out a picture of Xu Qingyan. It was drawn by a painter in the palace on her behalf when she the Empress.

The woman in the painting was dressed in a gorgeous palace outfit. She held a jade Ruyi in her hand. Her uncontrollable smile spread from the corner of her mouth to the corner of her eye. Her eyes could not conceal her deep feelings,as if she was looking at herself through the painting.

He reached out his hand and brushed the face of the person in the painting,his heart filled with bitterness.Many words came out,but in the end,there was only one sentence left:" Xu Qingyan,you liar!"

Chu Lin seemed to be muttering to himself,as if he was telling the person in the painting," You said that you have a strong personality and can not afford to lose. You won't let the person who harmed you live well. Now that I have destroyed your entire family,why did n' t you come back to look for me? Why didn't you come to seek revenge on me?""Promise me,if you don't die,come and find me,okay ……"

His heart was filled with anger and pain. He tightly hugged the painting in his arms. The lovefulness that he had suppressed in his heart finally erupted.

Thunder came from the dark horizon. A drop of water fell on the painting,unable to tell whether it was rain or tears.

###Chapter11,Not willing

Jiang Rou rushed over after receiving the news and saw this scene.

As soon as she got closer,she was carried into her arms by Chu Lin. She couldn't do anything but struggle. Just as Jiang Rou was filled with joy and Chu Lin still had herself in her heart,she heard Chu Lin lovingly say," Qingyan,is it you?"I knew that if you couldn't bear to part with me,you would definitely come back to find me ……"

She was so angry that she gritted her teeth. She had thought that if Xu Qingyan died,she would become the Empress. However,she didn't expect that Xu Qingyan,a dead person,would still occupy Chu Lin heart.

Jiang Rou couldn't accept it. She began to flirt with Chu Lin as much as she could.As expected,Chu Lin became even more excited. He hugged Jiang Rou tightly in his arms and kissed her wantonly. He even held her hand and pressed it against her chest,making her feel the beating of her heart.

Jiang Rou's entire body softened,and his heart became more and more proud. Even if Chu Lin cared about Xu Qingyan,was n' t't she still dying on her body?

After all Fang Dian the repairs had not been completed yet. The cold wind at night fell on the two of them through the doors and windows.The cold wind was the best medicine for sobering up. The alcohol on Chu Lin's body dissipated a little,and the woman in his arms smelled the fragrance...Wait!

This was not Qingyan.

Green smoke never smoked.

Chu Lin opened his eyes and happened to collide with the tenderness in Jiang Rou eyes. For a moment,he could not tell whether it was a dream or reality. He subconsciously took a few steps back.

When he stood still,he was completely awake.

His eyes darkened,making it hard to tell whether it was a joyous occasion or an angry one. Without hesitation,he pushed away the Jiang Rou that was still trying to lie in his arms and left without a word.

"Your Majesty..." The Jiang Rou was pushed away when it reached its peak. He only felt that he was covered up and chased after them anxiously. However,he found that there were rows of guards standing outside the door. He was so scared that he pulled back into the room and tidied up his messy clothes. He pushed open the door again and Chu Lin disappeared.

Jiang Rou angrily pushed away the things on the table. The brocade box fell to the ground and the jade pendant inside fell out,splitting into two versions.

She looked at the jade pendant and felt more and more jealous. She stomped hard on the jade pendant and heard the waiter outside asking. She handed the jade pendant out unwillingly:" Just now,when I was in love with the Emperor,I accidentally threw the box."

The inner attendant left with a worried expression. Jiang Rou had a gloomy face. She had finally found an opportunity,but it turned out to be like this." Xu Qingyan,since you're dead,do n' t blame me for being impolite!"

At the foot of the cliff,in the thatched cottage.

Nan Ren was sitting beside a simple wooden bed. His body was thin and his face was pale. He looked very weak.

He held a bowl of soup in his hand and fed it to the woman on the bed.The woman's eyes were tightly shut,but she could still clearly recognize that it was Xu Qingyan who had "died ".

Who would have thought that Xu Qingyan would actually survive by jumping off the cliff.

Lou Yue took Xu Qingyan's pulse and furrowed her brows. Her tone was slightly angry." You want to die?""I've spent so much medicine to save you. Even if I' m going to die,wake up and die in a place I can't see!"

Lou Yue's hand Wei Wei moved." You' re awake?""Drink the medicine when you wake up."

Xu Qingyan carefully examined the furnishings of the room. There were only herbs and some simple necessities in the room.As for the bed she was lying on,it was made of wooden boards. It moved slightly as if it was about to fall apart.

"Ahem..." She struggled to get up and touched the wound on her body. She was looking forward to it. Since she could be saved,was it possible for Jia Er to...

"When Young Master saved me,did he see a child?"

Lou Yue pondered for a while before nodding and replying," That child is too poisoned to save."

Tears flowed from Xu Qingyan's eyes. Her voice was unusually sorrowful as she asked Zhang," Ca n' t you save me?"Then..."Where's the child's corpse?"

Lou Yue scooped up the soup and fed it to her mouth. Her tone did not have any emotion." Why don't you care about his corpse if you ca n' t save it?""After falling in the forest for a few days,he should have been taken away by Wild Wolf."

Her eyes widened as her right hand gripped Lou Yue's hand holding the decoction." Pfft——" She spat out blood.

Jia Er didn't even leave a corpse behind.

###Chapter12,Make him wish he was dead

After searching for a few days,Xu Qingyan didn't see a complete child's corpse. She leaned against the tree trunk and cried," Jia Er,my Jia Er ……"

Lou Yue had always been by her side,handing over the scattered bones she had found along the way." After all,set up a grave."

Xu Qingyan couldn't control her anger at all. Her trembling hands and rapid breathing exposed the hatred in her heart.Lou Yue looked at her with a mocking tone." With your current appearance,you still want to take revenge?""Dream on."

Xu Qingyan glanced at the walking stick in her hand and knew that Lou Yue was telling the truth.She lowered her head and slowly dug out a large hole with a stone. She buried the remaining bones in it,then slowly raised her head.

His gaze was cold and sharp,and it was even colder than before.

The Nan Ren that he loved had ruthlessly killed their child,forced her into a desperate situation,and even cut Xu Jia down.Since the heavens had let her survive,then Chu Lin,have you done your best to receive retribution?

"Chu Lin,Jiang Rou,I want you to die!"

The hatred in her heart was about to completely engulf her. Lou Yue saw that her eyes were red and her entire body seemed to have fallen into a devil. She stepped forward and grabbed her wrist until she was calm." If you still don't have the city,let alone revenge,you wo n' t even be able to enter the palace."

He took out a gold medal from his chest," Coincidentally,I' m going to enter the palace to treat the empress dowager's illness. Follow me."

Xu Qingyan was stunned." Why did you help me?"

Lou Yue looked into her eyes and Wei Wei smiled.

Many years later,Lou Yue recalled the beginning of everything and didn't understand why she had helped her. Perhaps this was fate.

Today,the just in time today. A breeze blew past the window,bringing a roomful of flowers.

Chu Lin was reading the memorials in the Pepper Fang Dian. These days,he would only feel a little calm here.The guards that had been sent out hadn't heard from Xu Qingyan. This made Chu Lin even more certain that Xu Qingyan was still alive.

Chu Lin heart was filled with mixed feelings. At this moment,the inner attendant came to report that there was news from outside the palace.

"Reporting to the emperor,this minister has found a thatched cottage under the cliff. There are Empress' accessories inside,and he also found the dying Crown Prince. He has already been sent to the imperial hospital."

Chu Lin nodded. He didn't really care about Xu Jia life or death." Since we' ve saved him,let's keep him."

The guard continued to observe Chu Lin expression. He swallowed his saliva and continued," I also discovered that Noble Consort Rou's people are also investigating the Empress' whereabouts."