Denial
256 Words
I am not a fairy tale this isn't a movie. Yet why is it when he kisses my neck I can't stand straight? I lose balance? My thoughts are of the moment. Why is it when he kisses me I feel I don't have control? His eyes draw me in hypnotic. His kisses make my body weak and I feel so helpless. He sees I don't have self control. Yet he greedily takes me. His heart melts mine. He don't deserve me I will destroy him. Like the others. I just need some reason. To push him away. He makes me happy. I feel at peace. Yet my mind knows I can't have him. If he only knew me. All my secrets. What I did? Will he still want me? I can't keep my hands off him. I want to make him happy. f**k why did he have to ruin it?
Why did he have to propose? He doesn't deserve me. No one does. I'm evil. I'm a monster. Can't he see it? If he only knew.
Denial is the root to our guilt. It waters the guilt until it blossoms
We deny ourselves fool ourselves try to lie and trick ourselves into lies we say over and over. You can't lie to yourself. You can pretend to believe but, truth cuts the weeds from growing. Denial drains us dry while keeping us alive as of tears and pain can help it grow. We are our own chains that bind us to our lies of denial.
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