Warrior or survivor?

Warrior (pov)

I've been having a hard time resetting,

I look around in the garden of flowers,

think about what if i water them,

how will they turn out?

I dont know if youre thinking the same,

I've loosen games in the clubs of never risking.

It frightens my soul to shiver,

And im never good at drinking whisky's,

and i feel like i'm just fighting with my own self.

And that would define me as a warrior,

it can't be so bad.

I fought with battles,

i thought i'd never conquer.

I said, "this isn't worth it for the love"

So i began to fight with more of it.

I crash in walls with the words that you said,

they still echo in my head,

it broke me down with my fears.

I was going for the best,

but it lead me to the worst.

Fill my glass of wine,

with my hearts blood in it.

I tried to cover the impure pain,

of what i was in.

And the battles are now ended.

And so i ended with it.

I still haven't gotten what i was deserving.

The more i can't wish for,

because i'm just a warrior,

and you're just enjoying the party you were invited in.

And it's hard,

to hold the sword,

so tight that i lose.

The more scars shows that i want a rose.

Maybe on my d*ad body,

or someone who wants me.

And in my battle,

the knife enters.

And i enter the world of lost souls.

And all i am is a warrior,

and youre just dancing to the songs,

that we know was for us to dance on.

And i fought with people,

for us.

While you were whispering in someones ear,

"i love you"