Warrior or survivor?

Breathe in it

I held you hand too tight,

so you couldn't leave me.

Stranded on the pathway,

i thought you wouldn't leave me.

I held your hand too tight.

I noticed you fall out love,

i hold that.

You're so manipulative mother's son.

I waited near your front door,

to let me in.

Breakthrough the walls just to fill me in.

Wrote you letters,

My mothers lipstick.

I did it all just for you to breathe in it.

If i'm wrong, then please clear me out.

Dont leave me hanging on the wall of keychains now.

You should've learned how to find pleasure in it,

but you learned how to breathe in it.

I gave you all my belongings,

so they're safe and sound.

I whispered all the secrets in your ear,

so you don't spill them out.

I gave away my all.

I learned how to fit in,

in your air,

i guess i've polluted it now.

You're so deceiving and a defrauder,

and i dont know why,

I waited for you,

even though you never showed up.

Sleeping in someone's bed,

i always knew it.

I learned how to make you feel loved,

and all you did was breathe in it.

If i'm mistaken, please point me out.

Tell me this can be solved somehow.

I know you should be cheering for me in crowd,

but all you did was breathe in it.

While i was building an empire,

where were you?

In some other girl's dream,

i know you.

I gave you my secrets, my poetry, my words, my life.

and i am doing is asking for a space in your life.

Im drawing stars on your nights,

always taking up every second of my life.

You said i should go on,

but what if i couldn't go for it.

I broke down crying,

so the walls broke with me.

I destroyed every boundary,

just for you to be with me.

Im giving away my everything,

just to lose it,

watch it drown.

Believe me im good at it.

If i'm on the wrong way,

please guide me in.

Tell me this can be fixed in,

i know you should be applauding for me in the crowd.

but all you did was breathe in it.

And i held your hand too tight,

so i have loosen it now.