The Sweet Kind of Wrong

CHAPTER 18

JANE

Few weeks have passed, we wrote two Math test exams at school and I nailed them. Thanks to Luke, he's been helping me and I got Erika to join us. It's Friday night, there was a basketball game at school and we won, well Luke's team won so now we're going to a sports club to celebrate. I didn't want to go but Nathan and Erika kind of convinced me to go with them. Speaking of Nathan, things between are good but then there's me struggling to keep Luke away from me. He knows how to get me and I'm just a puddle when it comes to him. No one knows besides Erika and Louis about our fling. Nathan is in the dark of course, I would never let him know about me and Luke. I know what I'm doing with Luke is wrong in all kinds of ways but somewhat I love it and I don't want it to end. We're not dating though, I'd say we're having fun and you know, no one says no to good s*x.

I get ready to go to the club, I decide to wear a plush tank top with shorts and Adidas sneakers that Roger bought for me recently. I put my make up on naturally. I curled my hair this morning and so I just do a little bit of touch up. I take my stuff and head downstairs. I find Erika waiting for me in the living room with a container of yoghurt.

"Hey you!" She says. She's wearing a denim romper with Jordan sneakers.

"Ready?"

"I was born ready, love. Let's hit it."

We leave the house, taking one car, we drive to the club blasting music out loud. We get to the club and find Nathan waiting in the parking lot for us. "Hey girls! What took you so long?" He asks hugging Erika then comes to me and hugs me. I see Luke passing by, giving me the most vindictive look he always has when he's pissed off. And Nathan doesn't make anything better when he smashes his lips on mine and I respond, kissing him back.

"Get a room, you two." Erika coos and we laugh. I look around and see Luke has left. Thank God. I'll deal with him some other time. "Let's go inside." Erika continues leading the way and we follow right behind her. Nathan goes to get us drinks then Erika and I look for a spot for us. Finding a good spot in the corner, we sit and wait for Nathan to come back with the drinks. He comes back with his friend, Ozan. Erika's boyfriend Michael arrives later on with his sister Linda.

"Welcome, everybody! Are you having fun tonight?" That's the basketball coach, we all make noise. "Tonight we're celebrating our victory, winning the championship isn't something to be taken lightly and we have our team captain to thank for that, Luke. He scored like crazy back there. We appreciate you, boy." The Greek god in the VIP just smiles. Luke is an introvert, he likes his own space and being here tonight took him a whole lot of consideration to come. "Well without further ado, let's make this night the best." The coach says, going back to his seat. We continue to have fun and drink our lives out. I don't miss the looks Luke is giving me.

The DJ plays Motivation by Normani. Erika and I go crazy as we make our way to the dance floor and dance like never before. Amanda joins us with some other girl, I guess they're friends or something. Despite everything that's going on in my life, I'm having fun tonight, the best time of my life. I dance and forget about everything, just letting myself out there and let my mind wonder off. Dancing is my life and just being in the moment gives me plenty of peace.

The song ends, people cheer for us then we go back our place and continue drinking and chatting. "This place is the best." Erika coos and we laugh. Listening to everyone talking and laughing about random stuff, I let my eyes wonder around, looking at everybody in the club dancing, stress free as if they have no problems at all in life. Then I think about my life and how messed up it is. I'm with a guy that I like whereas the one I love is the one I can't be with because he's family, he's my step brother. I look up at the VIP and see Hope seated on Luke's lap, that's enough to make my blood boil and I want nothing more than to go up there and kill them both.

"Hope is here." Nathan says. Like I needed confirmation from him. I can't stand the Kim Kardashian of Dominican Academy. I know I don't stand a chance with her, perfect body and all. With the dress she has on, Luke is definitely going to bang her tonight. I'm burning inside, I need a drink, a strong one. Without thinking, I take Nathan's drink and down it in one go then Erika's, doing the same. "What's wrong with you?" Nathan asks and I ignore him. My head is heavy, my vision a bit blury. I pull Nathan by an arm and head upstairs with him to a private room. "What's going on, Jane?"

"I want you, isn't it obvious? I want you, Nathan August. You can have me." I say, pulling him and kissing him so roughly, he lets me be but then pushes me off.

"Jane, you're drunk. I can't do this, not like this." He says.

"You don't want me?" I ask, feeling a bit flushed.

"I'm not saying that. I do want you but you're drunk. This isn't right. You need to cool off." With that, he's gone and I feel embarrassed all of a sudden, he just rejected me and I don't blame him. That was uncalled for.

"Damn you, Luke." I mutter, letting myself drop on the floor.m

LUKE

Nathan comes out of the private room alone, looking a bit flushed or pissed or disappointed, I'm not sure. Did he have a fight with Jane? I'm with Louis and some of my friends with girls and Hope included. She's sitting on my lap. That was enough to make Jane want to cut my head off my neck. I tell Hope to get off me then I stand up, making my way to the private room and find Jane seated on the floor. Did Nathan beat her? I close the door behind me, loud enough for her to look up at me.

"Oh! It's you." She smirks. "The hot devil who devoured me, Luke 'the Greek god' Williams." She adds. "Do you have any idea how much I miss you? You're always in my mind, boy, I can't even think straight."

"Get up." I help her up, she can't even stand straight. I take her straight to the balcony to get some air. We stay here, with her talking nonstop. She has a running mouth, she can talk for ages.

"How's your girlfriend Hope? You know the Kim Kardashian one? Damn she's hot." She says, looking at me. "You can at least admit, she's hot." I don't reply.

"Okay, we need to go home, come on."

"You're so bossy. Who said you could order me around?" She asks.

"I'm your big brother so you have to listen to me." I simply reply.

"Brother? You're not my brother. I don't want you to be my brother, Luke. I wish we were never related, I wish I never met you. You've messed up my life and to tell you the truth, I wish we were more than f**k buddies. You know why? Because I can't stop thinking about you, from day one, Luke, you've been haunting me, my dreams. You're all I think about. The way you look at me, the way you touch me, the way you kiss me. I don't even want to mention the s*x. What have you done to me, Luke?Why can't I forget about you? Why can't I accept you as my step brother? You're like an addictive drug and I can't resist you. You drive me insane. Why have you come into my life? Tell me why?" She asks, letting her tears stroll down her face. I don't know if she's really crying or it's the alcohol. And why is she blaming me? I feel the exact same way about her, she's always in my mind. I wish she were never family, maybe, just maybe everything would be fine. She's my escape from reality. I love her so much it hurts, to even look at her and then I have to remind myself that she'll never be mine.

"Let's go, I'm taking you home." She pushes me off.

"No, Luke, don't touch me. What exactly are you doing to me? Why am I falling for you?" She tries to stand straight but she stumbles and vomits.

"Janet!" I hold her hair, pulling it away from her face as she continue to puke out, messing with her clothes. She leans on the wall breathless and weak. "You're okay?" I cup her face in my palms but she pushes me. Being stronger than her I don't even flinch.

"Leave me alone." Ignoring her, I take her inside to the bathroom. I undress her, I help her rinse her mouth. After that I take off my shirt and help her wear it. At least I have a vest on. I text Erika telling her to come up. I then take Jane back to the room and help her sit on the couch. She's wasted. "My head."

"Is she okay?" Erika asks as soon as she comes in.

"She's drunk and I can't take her home in this condition." I reply.

"There's a hotel not far from here, you can stay there for the night. We can both pay." She suggests.

"It's fine, I'll settle it. Let's just go." I carry Jane up in my arms, noticing she's fallen asleep already. We leave the room and use the backdoor of the club to go to the parking lot. I put her in the backseat of my car and Erika hops in front. We drive to the hotel. Getting to the hotel we pay for the night and get the keys for the room we'll be using. Getting in our suite, Erika opens the covers and I tuck Jane in. She's way in deep sleep.

"I have to go, Michael is waiting for me." Erika tells me.

"Thanks for your help."

"I don't know what's going on between you two but you have to get to the bottom of it."

"I don't want to talk about it, Erika." She raises her hands in surrender.

"Keep me updated, she won't resuscitate until tomorrow morning."

"I'll watch her. You can go. Thanks again." I say and she leaves. I sit there watching Jane asleep, she looks so innocent. How can I ever get enough of her when she's like angel sent straight from heaven to me? I'm in love with her, I'm in love with my step sister. Is that even normal? I caress her smooth blonde hair, admiring her beauty. Getting under the covers, I pull her against me and nuzzle my face in the dent of her neck, loving the way her hair smells, like peaches.

I wake up and find Jane asleep on my chest, her arm so tight around me, one leg tangled between my legs. My lips twirl into a sweet smile at the sight. She drives me crazy and she knows it. I gentle move her, careful enough not to wake her up. I get off the bed and go to the bathroom. I hit the shower then come back wear my clothes from last night. I make my way to the balcony to get a smoke while thinking about the girl inside who's turning my world upside down.

"Hey!" Jane says behind me and I turn to her. She just freshened up.

"Morning." I mutter. She remains quiet for sometimes and then comes towards me, wrapping her arms around my body. She looks up at me, slightly smiling.

"What?" I ask, looking down at her.

"How bad was I?" She asks.

Pretty bad, sweetheart.

I push the thought to the back of my head. "Well you puked on your clothes. I helped you clean up and gave you my shirt. You also gave me an earful then you were out. Erika and I brought you here."

"Oh Luke, I am so sorry, I have no idea what came over me. I don't remember anything. I'm sorry."

"It's okay." I plant a kiss on the top of her head and she stands on her tippy toes, pecking my lip. I wrap my arm around her just above her ass as she puts her head on my chest.

"What are we going to tell the parents?" She asks.

"Let's not worry about that right now." I reply. "Did you mean what you said last night?"

"What did I say?"

I think of what to say to her but fighting it, I simple say, "Forget about it." I rest my chin on the top of her head and we stand there cuddling in silence. This moment right here, being with her and not anywhere else but in her space. I love it, I want it to last, I want to be in this moment forever. But how do I make it last forever when she's my f*****g step sister? Even if I do decide to make it last, our parents would never let us. They'd kill us especially Roger, it'd be a good opportunity for him to get rid of me.

Back home now, we're now having supper all together because Nicole wanted us to be a big happy family. Roger sharing boring jokes which I'm not responding nor laughing at. I don't know if I'll ever stop hating my father.

"So how was the celebration last night?" Nicole asks. "I heard you guys had fun."

"Yep, it was fun indeed." Jane replies.

"So is everybody ready for my birthday tomorrow?" Adrian asks excitedly. "I invited my friends like last year." He adds.

"You're turning fourteen, don't make it a big deal." Roger says.

Of f*****g course, you moron.

"Oh no! You should make it a big deal. I'll help you with everything. Birthdays are special." Jane stammers. "I'll help you with everything, Adrian, don't worry."

JANE

I just had a bath and put on my nightdress then my robe on. I search in my backpack for my favorite book to read The Notebook. Luke comes in.

"Do you hate me?" He asks. Where's that coming from?

"What? What are you talking about?"

"Last night, you said you wished you never met me."

I said that?

"I didn't say that."

"Yes you did." He whisper yells. Why is he upset? I didn't mean whatever I said last night. I was drunk not that I remember what I said.

"You're yelling Luke and right now I'm in no mood to fight please. Can we do this tomorrow?" I say quietly.

He pulls me to the balcony and closes the door behind me.

"What is going on?"

"Jane, you told me how you feel about me last night, not in the best way though." He says.

"Luke, I was drunk, I don't even remember what I said." I say. "Don't you think we should stop this? I'm hurting Nathan and you're obviously tired of this. We need to stop." I continue.

"I'm in love with you, Janet." He blurts out without thinking, catching me off guard.

I did not expect that.

"What?" I exclaim.

"That's what you wanted to hear right? There, I said it. You drive me crazy, I think about you everytime. I love you, Jane."

"You can't be in love with me, Luke."

"Why not?" He asks.

"Because you're my- I don't know... brother."

"Not by blood, Jane. I know you feel the same way, you told me so yourself." He says. "No matter how much we try right now, we can never see each other as siblings. We messed that up before it even began." He's right, he's not my brother, he's so much more than that. We crossed that line long ago. We can't be together though, his dad is married to my mom and they will never accept this relationship.

"Luke, we can't do this, you can't be in love with me. What will our parents say?"

"They don't need to know, at least not now. Jane, come on."

"There's other girls out there, you can choose..." He immediately cuts me short.

"I don't want other girls, I want you." He yells.

"I- this is not happening, not right now." I pace around, not understanding anything. Luke is in love with me and I'm in love with him but how are we going to do this with our parents on our backs?

"So you don't feel anything for me?" He asks, I can't help but stare in those beautiful eyes of his that I've grown to love.

"That's not what I'm saying, Luke. We just... we ca-" He crashes his lips on mine, kissing me roughly, exactly how I love it, when he's rough with me. His hands fumble with my robe, he takes it off and picks me off the ground, placing me on the table. "The door." I mumble with my lips against his.

"I locked it." He says against my lips.

I set his belt off, also opening the zipper of his pants. I take his pants off while he rips my panties off and rubs my c**t with two fingers, separating my folds. "Ahh!" I moan against his lips.

"You're ready for me?" He asks, kissing my jawline.

"You know I am. Hmm." That's all it takes for him to enter me with one harsh thrust and I let out a loud groan which is swallowed by him blocking others from hearing me. He picks me from the table and leans me against the wall, thrusting in me so deep, reaching my g-spot. He's so rough with me and I f*****g love it when he's like that.

"Oh yes, just like that." I mutter, burying my face in his neck. He continues his deep, hard thrusts, making me mumble the most insane things ever. This devil knows me, he knows which buttons to press to get under my skin. I hear him groan as my walls clench around his shaft. I reach my c****x and explode into thousands of facets. I drop my head on his shoulder while he comes in me. Best quickly ever.

"You're amazing." He kisses my neck and I smile.

"So where to from here?"

"We'll see along the way." He replies.

"You want to spend the night with me?" I ask, hoping he'll say yes.

"Yes. Oh my God, yes."

"Woah! Cool down there, cowboy." I muse.

"What about your boyfriend?"

"Stop. It's just you and I right now." I say.

He goes back inside my bedroom with me still in his arms, my safest place, my happy place, his arms. He puts me on the bed and lies in between my legs. "What are you doing to me, Sugarplum?" He asks.

"The same thing you're doing to me, Greek god." I say looking at him. I'm much more comfortable around Luke than I am around Nathan. I don't know what's with Luke but he's got me on my knees. He has me exactly where he wants me. I can't resist him and I'm not complaining, I love every bit of it. If my mom found out about this, she'd kill us...well me.

"Your heart is beating so fast. What are you thinking about?" Luke asks bringing my mind back to him.

"Nothing to worry about." I say. We remaining in the same position, him lying between my legs, his head on top of me. My fingers running through his hair, silence filling the room. Then just like that we doze off to sleep.