Sister She Wolves

The Alpha to Alpha Favor

Alpha Derek and I exchanged numbers and continued to talk. Alpha Zachary approaches us and asks for minute of my time. Derek and I bid each other farewell and I follow Zachary to his office. He goes to sit behind his desk as he motions for me to take a seat as well. We sit in silence for a few minutes before he says anything and it puts me a little on edge. "So I don't want upset you or anything so I am sorry if I do. Your sisters finding their mates with in my pack means that they will probably move in here." I nod for him to continue. "I was wondering if you'd move here too. I need someone to train the females in my pack. I know from some of my men that you and your sisters have been training. My men also said that you three were stronger than some of our men." Zachary adds while waiting for me to say something. "Yes my sisters will be moving here, in fact they aren't coming home with me. My father was traditional and us girls understand how this works. As for me I have to think about it." I say trying to not make eye contact. I don't want him to see the tears in my eyes.

"Well you would have a room here in the pack house so, you and your sisters can still live together." Zachary tries to persuade. "That's not the problem" I try to explain. "So you don't want to submit to me?" He asks with a sad expression. I shake my head with a laugh. "No it's not that, the room I sleep in at home is my mates room. I'm not sure I could leave that. His room still smells like him and it calms me and my wolf." I tell him letting the tears fall. He nods understanding what the problem is now. "I'll help you with the she wolves, I can even submit if you want I just am not sure about moving here." I say trying to put him at ease. He nods in understanding.

"Well, take some time and think it over. I'm sure your sister's would love for you to be here with them." He says standing and walking towards me. "I know that my sisters would like this idea hell I like this idea. It's just, How am I supposed to pull myself away from the last thing that connects me to my mate. When he died his scent was the only thing that got me through my days." I tell him as he sits next to me. He lifts my chin to make me look at him. "The pain of that loss never goes away but, it's manageable with time." Zachary tells me. "Why do I get the feeling that's not true?" I ask. He sighs. "Honestly, your mate will always be a part of you. You're soulmates. However you can move on and still love your mate. How do you think he would feel if he knew you were this unhappy?" He asks me. I nod. "Thank you for your time sir, I'll think about staying here but till then I can come here everyday to help with the training. What time should I be here and what days?" I ask trying to wrap things up.

"We'll start Monday morning at nine am." He answers. "See you then sir, thanks for talking with me and being so understanding. I'll mind link my sisters to tell them I'm leaving. Have a good night." I say getting up to leave. "Anytime Alexandria. If you need anything please let me know." He tells me as he opens the door for me to leave. I tell my sisters that I'm leaving and to have fun. I tell them about helping train the she wolves, and that I'll be here Monday morning to start. I told them about being offered a place in the pack but that I wasn't sure about living here yet. I add for them to call me when they can and I'll see them Monday. They tell me they love me and good night as I cut off the link and sob into my hands before starting the car and pulling away.

I get home as fast as I can, put the car in park and go inside. I changed my clothes in to something I could train in. After going to the gym, I lift weights for a while. Starting to get upset about everything I moved to my punching bag. Needing some air I opened all seven windows in the room including the sliding door. As I stand there staring out the window all I can think about is how messed up everything is. Don't get me wrong I'm happy for my sisters but, why does everyone else get their happily ever after but me. That's not fair and it sucks. How am I supposed to live with the girls and give up the last piece of Bjorn I have. I let the tears fall as I turn around and start pummeling the punching bag channeling my frustration. The punches turn to kicks and next thing you know I break my punching bag and it hits the floor.

I go to the floor on my hands and knees panting and crying staring at the mess before me. It's been a while since I went for a run by myself so I go crying out the door and I shift jumping off the porch. My wolf is thankful for the chance to get out. She's been overwhelmed just like I am. We both feel lost and alone. How could Bjorn have left me alone. It was his job to be there for me and he left me now he's dead and I'll be alone forever. Should I stay and continue to wallow in grief or am I supposed to finally deal with the feelings I've been trying to bury. I've always had to keep them bottled up so I could be strong enough to keep my sisters safe. They've found their mates now so, they no longer need me. After my forty five minute run I go home and shut myself in Bjorn's room letting his smell lull me to sleep.