The Test
1591 Words
The day started like most disasters do. Quietly. Unassuming. Normal enough to trick you into thinking you were safe.
The sun was out, soft and gold through the bakery windows, casting warm light across the flour-dusted counter. The muffins didn’t burn, which in itself felt like a cosmic gift. And I even managed to whip up a silky almond glaze without spilling half of it down my shirt.
I almost smiled.
Progress.
My playlist was humming through the speakers. Rosa was singing off-key in the back. The shop smelled like sugar and ambition. And for a moment, a fragile, glimmering moment I let myself believe I was holding it together.
Sure, I still felt off. A little lightheaded. A little woozy in a way that no amount of caffeine seemed to fix. But I blamed it on the usual suspects: stress, sleep deprivation, the ever-looming cloud of financial doom that hovered over my head like a hungry vulture.
Rent was due in two days.
There was thirty bucks in my checking account.
And a rat, I still hadn’t caught it, was taunting me from somewhere beneath the storage shelf.
Denial?
She was my new best friend.
And I was thriving in her warm, delusional embrace.
Until I wasn’t.
It happened mid-morning, right after a woman in a cashmere poncho and thousand-dollar sunglasses asked me with complete sincerity if I could make a gluten-free, sugar-free, dairy-free cake “that still tastes good.”
I smiled. Nodded. Said something polite like, “Absolutely, we’ll work something out.”
Then I turned to grab a sample tray.
And the world slipped sideways.
Not metaphorically. Not emotionally.
Physically.
One second I was vertical, upright, pretending I knew how to survive another day.
The next...
Everything tilted.
My vision blurred like someone smeared Vaseline over the edges. The lights flickered brighter. Or maybe that was just my brain short-circuiting. My limbs went numb, cold at the edges. My stomach rolled. My ears buzzed like I’d stepped into a beehive and it was about to swarm.
I heard the tray hit the floor before I felt myself go with it.
Hard.
My knees cracked against tile. My shoulder hit something sharp. I gasped, but the sound never made it out. It all went fuzzy.
The last thing I saw before blackness swallowed everything was Rosa’s face, wide-eyed, panicked, her mouth moving like she was shouting my name.
Then...
Dark.
I came to on my back, the floor cold and unforgiving beneath me, and the distinct scent of cinnamon rolls too close to my face. Warm. Overwhelming. Almost sickening.
An icy and wet compress pressed against my forehead. My pulse thundered in my ears.
“Brielle?” Rosa’s voice broke through the fog. “Brielle, can you hear me?”
I blinked up at her, heart pounding like I’d run a marathon I didn’t remember entering.
“I… yeah. I think so.”
She exhaled, relief etched into her face. “You fainted,” she said, her voice too tight, too calm to actually be calm. “Jesus, you scared the hell out of me.”
I tried to sit up...
Instant regret.
The room tilted again like the bakery had been built on a boat in the middle of a hurricane.
“I’m fine,” I muttered, which might’ve been more convincing if my voice hadn’t sounded like sandpaper and regret.
Rosa didn’t even blink. “No. You’re not.”
I opened my mouth to protest, but she held up a hand, classic Rosa’s done putting up with your crap gesture.
“You’ve been pale for days. You’re barely eating. You gag at the smell of cinnamon and you never gag at cinnamon. You’ve been zoning out. Snapping one minute, crying the next. Something is seriously wrong.”
Her words landed like bricks, truth I’d been sidestepping for days now.
I pressed my palms to the floor, grounding myself, my breath shallow.
“I’m just tired,” I said, weakly. “That’s all. Stress. I’ve been...”
“Brielle.” Her tone changed. Soft but firm. The kind of voice people use before delivering bad news. Or asking a question they already know the answer to.
I looked at her, throat tight.
“I don’t know, okay?” My voice cracked at the edges. “I’ve been nauseous. Dizzy. I can’t drink coffee. I cry watching paper towel commercials. And smells make me gag. I thought maybe it was stress, or dehydration, or....I don’t know...anemia or something, but...”
“But nothing,” Rosa interrupted gently, crouching beside me now, her brows pinched together. “There’s one very clear possibility here.”
I stared at her. My heart started pounding, loud and uneven in my chest.
She didn’t say the word.
She didn’t have to.
Because the moment the possibility settled in the air between us, my body knew.
My mind screamed no but my pulse, my breath, my instincts whispered something else entirely.
And just like that, the denial I’d been clinging to cracked at the seams.
Because deep down…
I already knew.
Rosa stood slowly, wiped her hands on her apron like it was a ritual, then disappeared into the back without another word.
I expected water. A cold cloth. Maybe even one of those dry, over-buttered toast slices she insisted solved all life problems.
What I didn’t expect was for her to return with a small white paper bag.
She held it out like it was a sacred offering. Or a bomb.
My stomach dropped. “No.”
“Yes.”
“I don’t need to...”
“You do.”
There wasn’t an ounce of wiggle room in her voice. Not a sliver.
I swallowed. “Rosa…”
She didn’t flinch. Just marched over, dropped the bag into my lap like a grenade with the pin already pulled.
“Go pee on the stick, Brielle.”
She said it so calmly, so firmly, I almost laughed. Almost.
Instead, I just stared at the bag like it had grown fangs.
Ten minutes later, I was in the tiny bakery bathroom, perched on the toilet seat like it might bite me, holding a pregnancy test in one hand and the shredded remains of my composure in the other.
The walls around me suddenly felt too small. Too close. Like they were inching inward, waiting to hear the result too.
This was it.
The moment that could split my life in half.
Before.
After.
The stick felt heavier than it should’ve. My hands were shaking so hard I nearly fumbled it into the toilet. I set it carefully on the edge of the sink and stared at the pale reflection in the mirror.
Pale.
Sweaty.
Eyes wide. Haunted. Like someone who had just stumbled onto the set of her own worst nightmare and didn’t know which way was off-stage.
I wrapped my arms around myself, trying to press the anxiety back in, but it didn’t budge. My heart thundered. My brain screamed to look, but I couldn’t yet.
Three minutes.
That’s all.
It might as well have been three years.
I didn’t pace. Couldn’t cry. Just stood there, motionless, while the room ticked and buzzed and blurred around me. The silence was louder than a bomb blast.
I closed my eyes. Told myself it would be negative. That this was a scare. A stress response. A weird, dramatic fluke brought on by sugar, burnout, and one emotionally questionable one-night stand.
But then I looked.
And the world cracked.
Two pink lines.
Positive.
My knees buckled. I sank down onto the toilet lid, fingers trembling, the test slipping from my hand and landing on the tile with a soft, accusing clatter.
The air in my lungs turned to cement.
Positive.
Pregnant.
With his baby.
When I finally opened the bathroom door, Rosa was waiting.
She didn’t say anything.
Didn’t have to.
She looked at my face, just once, and knew.
She opened her arms, and I stepped into them like a wave collapsing into shore.
I let it break me.
Her arms wrapped around me, warm and cinnamon-scented and steady while the ground beneath me gave out. I shook so hard I thought I’d fall through the floor. But she held me tighter. Like she could glue me back together with nothing but care.
“I can’t believe it,” I whispered, my voice barely audible against her shoulder.
She pulled back just enough to see my face. “What are you going to do?”
My throat burned.
“I don’t know,” I rasped. “I just… I can’t tell him. I don’t want him near this.”
Her eyes searched mine. “You’re sure?”
“I’m positive.” I gave a bitter laugh. “About the baby. And about him.”
Whatever he was, rich, magnetic, untouchable, he was also cruel. Cold. The kind of man who made you feel like you were a statistic, a transaction, a joke he’d already forgotten.
He hadn’t even asked my name.
And now he didn’t get to know this.
Not the baby.
Not me.
Not anymore.
He didn’t deserve to be part of this.
Not after what he did.
Not after the way he humiliated me. Erased me. Treated me like nothing.
I looked down, wrapped both arms around my belly, still flat, still quiet, but already changing things. Already mine.
This baby?
It wasn’t a mistake.
It was a battle cry.
And I would protect it with everything I had.
Even if it destroyed me.
- Writer
