Ryan tries to move me upstairs to his room. I was proud of myself and wasn't going to hide like I was embarrassed and afraid to deal with the repercussions. "What the hell was that? You're an outsider. You wouldn't last a month of our initiation. I was an outsider and earned my place." A girl swung me around and out of Ryan's grip. I look her in the eyes and stare her down. I know I was only feeling brave because of the alcohol and if I got my ass beat yeah, I'll be embarrassed. That wasn't something I can worry about now. "A month?" I ask scoffing in her face. She must really not know what the hell Ryan did to me. "What exactly during that month do you have to face?" "I had to do drug runs, be a maid, get beat on, deal with a kidnapping." She says as I scoff. I laughed in her face at

