Wrapped love

"Fated" II

But I didn't dare give her the piece of cloth back. I was too mesmerized by her appearance. I let her freeze just to see her eyes standing out because of her pale skin and the snowflakes dancing by her form. That was the moment I realized just how much innocence her rounded eyes held. Waiting to be destroyed.

Her long robes dragged over the snow elegantly. All while having a pained expression and begging me to seek shelter together. With a scoff, I agreed, heading back to the inn.

In the room, she was leaning on the window, looking around. Seemingly in thought.

-Why so silent? what are you thinking about, my lady?

-You told me... That I shouldn't suffer... But I find myself lacking meaning. Thus, I feel like an inanimate object. With no purpose whatsoever. And you just deny all I say. Didn't you love me?

-I do love you. That's why I'm disapproving. To shield you for further melancholy.

-If you say so.... I trust you.. Shuuji... You said you loved me... And I will believe you.

-Good.

Though, despite my sweet words, behind them, was a big lie. I denied her suffering because she didn't know better. Because I thought he wasn't more than a simple being, incapable of complex thoughts. She was a woman after all, I was a man, I knew better.

-Shuuji. Her voice echoes through the room.

-Yes?

-When are you going to leave this town?

-In a few months. But don't worry, I will pay the Okiya to let you out. And then, I'll court you... you'll get to be my gorgeous wife... I can't wait to see you dressed in the finest materials... And by the evening, you'll be ready for me... And you'll let me do whatever I please... You'll bare my child then-

-Alright, alright... Understood... we could talk about that... later... She said, feeling awkward.

-Tch, fine, damn woman...

One month has passed since. I started behaving like an animal. I observed, studied her everyday like she was an experiment. When I left her "alone" I would stalk her. Watching her sleep, treat the old man she was living with, attend dances for the geisha house consumers. I knew everything about her at this point. Noticing strange things, the woman started feeling paranoid, so she subtly asked for some comfort, which I didn't provide her. Though I loved her. Very much.

As the days went on, she was driven mad.

I was visiting her at the Okiya. All the heads seemed to peark up at my appearance. And then she stepped in... her long, dark hair fluttering over her colourful robes. I felt like I was falling in love over and over again at the sight. Her pale skin, red lips... innocent eyes.

Eyes like rivers flowing with kindness and warmth, covered by her thick, long eyelashes. She was truly ineffable. I couldn't see any imperfection in her. Despite her tied eyes.

We walked to a private chamber, to exchange a few words. I sat down, on my knees and so she did, between up was a little table, where small cups with take were placed. Of course, I already took a few sips.

-What are you doing here?

-Simply visiting you, at work. You look stunning, my lady. Are you feeling alright, you've behaved stage lately...

-Oh yes, don't worry. I'm just... a little tired that's all.

-That's not true. Tell me the truth.

-I feel... like someone is watching me... I'm uneasy. I can't live like this... I feel... trapped.... more than that... I cannot even explain... I just... what to.. die... Just like you do.

-How humourous. We arrived at the same conclusion?... That's impressive my dear... If you really want to end all of this... Why don't you consider doing it with me?

-I'm still scared... I can't just... die. I have someone to take care of... I have friends back in here... I still have something... But I just feel like resting forever.

-Think about it. I'll leave you a few days.