Always been mine!

chapter twenty-five

It's funny how society makes us believe women get attached to the first man they get to have s*x with. Do we? 'The first cut is the deepest'. Do they even know what that statement means?

I will say it again! Kumbwa was an infatuation! A fling I quickly got over! He broke it but that's it.

I love Michael! That I know for certain, but I don't trust him. Why did he leave me years back? Why was he back now? What is it he wants that he didn't get years ago? These are questions I keep asking myself but can't answer.

And Ronald? He's told me point blank he was or still is a player. But he did tell me he's changed and has fallen in love with me. Is it true? I don't know. I like him, a lot. He's a good person, who doesn't deserve any of what happened to him yesterday.

I get out of bed , check the time and it's 07:30 a.m, meaning I have an hour of free time before I start my work. I pick up my phone and dial his number. He picks up on the second ring,

Ron:" My girl!"

Who?.......what?

Me: "Hello Ronald." I answer back, "how are you today?"

Ron:"after the punch your brother gave me? I couldn't be better." He chuckles, "but with a sister like you, I'd do the same. So you two are close now?"

Brother?

Me:"Ron, about yesterday........"

Ron: "it's fine darling, no need to talk about it. Can I see you today? I miss you."

Me: "yes, I want to see you but about yesterday........."

Ron:"Nikki, I said it's fine. I don't want to talk about it."

Really? He was just going to assume Michael is my brother? Maybe him believing he was my brother wasn't such a bad thing. Immediately I hang up, I heard a voice speak up behind me,

"So what happened yesterday?"

I look back and see Bonnie standing in the door way. "Who let you in, b***h?"

B: "This is my second home, butt crack. Do I need to be let in? Since when?"

I laugh and walk over to her to give her a hug. After which I pull her in. "Ofcourse not, hun." I say as I sit down, "now why didn't you show up yesterday?"

B:"woooah, can't I even get some coffee before interrogation begins?"

Me: "inter-what? Coffee? Who's going to make you coffee? I thought this is your second home. Now, why didn't you show up?" I probe.

B: "He didn't?"

Me: "He? Who? What do you mean he didn't........Bonnie did you know about Michael?" I ask angrily.

B: "kind of." She answers, "he talked me into it. They both did." She says, "Michael and Marcus." She adds after seeing my confusion.

Me: "Marcus and Michael?" I ask."You mean, you and Marcus are still......"

B:"yes!" She grins.

Me: "And I don't know, because?"

B: "Because I was scared you'd be mad at me." She says as she moves closer to me on the bed."Remember how I forgave you for sleeping with Michael and not telling me about it?"

Me: "what? Are you insane! That was different!"

B:"was it, Nicolette?" She gives a questioning look. Ok,maybe she's right. Marcus and I were never even friends, he's my ex's brother! Ex? hmmm. Anyway Bonnie has a point. But she knew what the break-up had done to me and her dating my ex's brother feels like betrayal. "I was infatuated with Michael and you kept the 'you're having s*x' picture from me. But why are you upset about Marcus?"

Me:"Because as best friends we tell each other everything and you never told me!"

B:" Oooh. That's it? So tell me! Did he come?"

Me:"I slept with him."

B: "what?" She asks and slaps me. "Firstly the difference between you and I is that i am a slut, or was. But you're not! Why would you sleep with him? I thought you and Ronald have a thing going on, a s*x thing. What is wrong with you?"

Did she just slap me? OMG. I look at her in confusion and she continues, "so how was the make-up s*x? Was it good? Tell me everything." I laugh. What a friend. First she lectures me about it,now she wants to know how the s*x was. "Tell me or I'll call Ronald."

Me:" No man knows my body like he does. It was great, like we'd never been apart!" I answer and close my eyes."But why is he back? Why now? After what he did to me?" I felt a tear escaping my left eye.

B:"oh babe," she says as she pulls me in for a hug. "We can never understand men, even though we try."

She holds me for some minutes and I suddenly remember she mentioned being an item with Marcus. I look up at her,"Bonnie, are you sleeping with Marcus?"

She pulls away from me, sits up and faces me. "Actually, we're engaged!"

Me:"what!" It was my turn to slap her after which she jumps on me and we wrestle on the bed for a couple of minutes before breaking it off. "Why didn't you tell me? When did it happen?"

B:"The night Ronald invited us for his friend's birthday party." She smiles.

Me:"how did it happen? Where is the ring?"

She opens her purse and takes out a huge diamond ring with the initials MK ingraved into it. It had a silver band. It's so perfect. I couldn't help but feel jealous.

Me: "how did he do it? The play boy finally commits!"

B:" he Slipped the ring on while I was sleeping and then in the morning I woke up to a glass of champagne and bowl of strawberries by my bedside. He Tied a red velvet ribbon from the bedroom door to the bathroom and attached little notes recalling perfect moments in our relationship along the way. And he Waited for me at the end of the ribbon with a huge sign having "WILL YOU MARRY ME? Ooh Nikki, it was so romantic."

Me: "ooh, my beautiful friend, i I am so happy for you! When is the wedding?"

B:" next year january."

My best friend is getting married! Soon she shall move on with her new family. As if reading my mind,

B: "marriage won't take my love for you away. And I am sure it'll be a double wedding! Why else is Michael back?"

Me: "to taste my v****a again! s*x,obviously. Which he acomplished yesterday and I don't want to get married!" I say," He found me with Ronald by the gate yesterday and he punched him."

Mum: "what?" We turn to find my mum in the doorway with a carton of ice cream, "Nicolette, are you insane? Are you still sleeping with Michael? Why are you sleeping with him!"

Oh dear Lord! This is the last thing I want.