Always been mine!

Chapter five

When I woke up I was in the hospital, I opened my eyes and the first person I saw was Bonnie.

She kissed me, "finally you're awake. Michael is going crazy out there. Let me get him."

She came back with the doctor and Michael. He came rushing to me, kissing my forehead. "How are you feeling? you had me worried."

"Pain and I am tired" I answered.

"That's to be expected. You hit your head pretty bad." the doctor said smiling at me.

My body was sore, I felt pain everywhere. The doctor removed the IV, turned to Michael and told him I was free to go so long as I took my medication for the next three days.

Doctor: "take enough rest, you were bleeding when they brought you in. Your pregnancy is very high risk. You're eight weeks along, so make sure you take it easy the next few days. No drama."

Immediately he said I could go, I got off the bed and changed from the scrubs I was in into jeans and a t-shirt from the duffel bag Michael handed me.

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After two days of being discharged I felt better and the pain had stopped. I felt somewhat normal. What if I had died?

Michael had taken me and Bonnie straight to his place from the hospital. Am sure I was the topic of discussion in campus and the last thing I wanted was to see anyone there.

That sunday I decided to go to church, I woke up as early as 7a.m and left without telling Bonnie or Michael anything. I left them sleeping. I needed some spiritual time with my creator,I felt like a lost soul. I asked the guard to call me a cab and told the cab driver to drop me at a nearest church.

He dropped me off at a church known as 'Assemblies Church of God.'

The pastor talked about having a relationship with God and to have faith, that no one is righteous and Jesus came for the sinners. He had also said that by accepting Christ as our personal saviour, one was securing a place in heaven. He had talked about lost souls and the fact that if you died and your soul was lost, then hell fire was waiting you. It was a great sermon and I had enjoyed it very much. It felt like he was preaching to me because lately, my life had taken a wrong turn and bad things were happening to me.

He said because Jesus had died for us, all we needed to do now was to ask for forgiveness and kneel before God whenever we sinned.

When they asked the visitors to stand up, i remained sited. I just wasn't ready for that yet. After church service I checked my phone and found 50 missed calls. I opened my call log, one was from mum, two from Bonnie and the rest from Michael.

As I was debating on who I was calling back first, he called,

Me:"hello," I answered.

Michael:"you have two seconds to tell me where you are, who you're with and why you didn't tell me?"

Me: "I am at church. is something wrong?" I asked.

Him: "which church?stay there, don't move."

Me: "Pentecostal Assemblies of God. I'll meet you at home, let me just take a......." But he hung up before I could finish.

Seconds later a text came through, "don't move a muscle, I am on my way."

I had left for church without eating anything, immediately Michael came I asked him to take me by Garlitos and I ordered a box of flame grilled wings and two chicken burgers. I also passed by lucy's salon and had them wash my hair and do cornrows.

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I felt like time was rushing, we had 5 more days to exams. On tuesday afternoon Bonnie dragged me to school to get all study materials for next week's exams. Michael asked us to use the black isuzu Vehicle, it was an suv compact, packed in the garage as it was big and would accommodate everything, since I can't drive, Bonnie drove it. I felt all eyes on us as we went up to our room. Michael had asked us to pack everything from campus and move in with him since we only had less than two weeks before school closed for end of year break . I heard voices whispering as we dragged everything down to the car park. By 5p.m we left campus off to nkana east.

The guard offloaded everything and took them inside. Martha was a great cook. We found her in the kitchen preparing supper.

Martha:"ooh, you're back! "

Bonnie:"What are you cooking?" She asked as we entered the kitchen.

Martha:"ututwine twabasungu mwatemwa. Nga bana baby lelo mulishani? (These english foods you love. How's our mom-to be?)" She asked me.

Me:"am great, Martha. Please make me a cup of coffee, I am going upstairs to take a shower." I turned back, "is michael back?"

Martha:"oh yes, he entered his office a few minutes ago."

I walked into his office and jumped on him. "baby."

He asked if we'd managed to get everything from school and I told him about it all.

I got my hands in his shirt and kissed him but he stopped him.

Him:b" I am sorry love, but I don’t feel like having sex."

I felt my face flush with embarrassment and I spent the next few seconds examining myself. My self esteem dropped by 90 percent. He just said no to having s*x with me. The ground opening up and swallowing me would be better

than sitting there and having to face him. I had never been this embarrassed.

I stood up but he pulled me back onto his laps. "Just not now, my love. I have a lot on my mind and some family members are coming over tomorrow."

Me:"your family?"I asked excited.

Him:"yes, annoying siblings. You'll meet them tomorrow, just don't expect much."