Always been mine!

Chapter three

Michael was acting weird tonight, like a husband who's just caught his wife with another man. He and I weren't an item. I turned up the music to prevent any conversation between us. I was so angry with him that I didn't notice we weren't heading back to campus but when I did, I had no idea where we were.

Me: "Michael Kruger, where are we?"

He stared at me for a second then back at the road. He just continued driving without giving me an answer.

"KRUGER!!!!!ANSWER ME!" I screamed but he still said nothing. I looked around and tried to make out the surroundings but I had no idea.

After a long drive, he turned into a house on our right. "Nkana east." He finally answered and hooted. A security guard opened the gate and greeted us but I didn't answer. He drove in and a large white house came into view, he parked right in front of it and got out then walked towards my door. He opened it and motioned for me to get out.

Me: "This doesn't look like CBU campus."

He slammed the door, walked off and disappeared into the house.

I sat in the car with my arms crossed until Michael returned with an elderly lady. He opened my door and looked at the lady, "Martha, open the front door, keep it open and lock it after I enter," then he turned to me, undid my seatbelt and dragged my ass out of the car. I began screaming hysterically. I tried to wriggle my body out of his hold, but the grip he had on me was too strong.

He walked into the house and I heard it slam then lock behind us. I began to cry because I felt helpless. I could feel that we were now moving up the stairs. When we got to the top, he walked a few meters before stopping at a door and entering a room. He dropped me on the bed and walked out then locked the door. What the hell?

What was going on here??

Quite alright Michael and I had shared a few stolen kisses when he came over to visit or give me lessons, we'd had s*x once but nothing more after that. Now what was this about? And this house? I know he's working for SANDVIK as their accountant and his dad is a rich investor in spain. Ok. Forget the house, why was I here? I ran to the door and started banging, calling Michael to open it but no one came.

I sat on the bed and looked around me. I really didn't know what was going on. I searched for my cell phone but couldn't find it. I must have left it in his car or dropped it when he dragged me out. I decided to lay down on the bed until I slowly drifted off to sleep.

I woke up a couple of hours later with a migraine. I looked out through the window and it was broad daylight outside. I guessed it was after six. I saw a bedside clock and when I checked it, the time was 09:17. What a way to spend my friday. At Least the room was self-contained. I walked into the bathroom, ran the bath then walked back into the bedroom, took my jeans and shirt off except my under garments.I dragged myself into the bathroom.

While I was deciding on whether to remain completely naked before getting into the bath, I heard the door open. I heard footsteps walking across the bedroom drawing closer to the bathroom. The door opened and Michael walked in dressed in gray denim shorts and a black t-shirt.

Me:"Now what? You've come to apologize?" I asked sarcastically.

Michael:"I came to check up on you no

. I'm not apologizing for s**t. You look good by the way." He smirked as he eyed me. I grabbed the towel on the rail and covered myself. "You drank too much last night, I didn't think you'd wake up and want to take a bath this early." he said.

"It's hot and my head feels like it'll explode." I

replied.

Michael:"hang-over, let me get you a shot of whisky. It'll help, now take your bath." And he left.

I got completely naked and sunk into the bath for a whole 5 minutes then took a quick bath. I walked back into the bedroom to find a shot of whiskey as promised next to the lamp on the bedside table and some clean clothes on the bed,a dress! It was a white knee length dress. And a pair of undies, not mine but they had a tag so I guessed they were for me.

I dressed up and admired myself. The dress hugged my body tightly and I liked it, it was an exact fit. Loved it. Just then the door opened, it was Michael with a tray filled up with two plates; one had scrambled eggs and bread with cheese spread, the other was filled with fries and sausage.

Michael:"I didn't know what you'd want to eat so I brought both. Now that you've had whiskey, have some breakfast." He put the tray on the bed, poured some coffee and made me sit. "This looks yummy." I said as I grabbed the plate with scrambled eggs.

"Before you ask, You're here because I thought this would be the only way you would pay any attention to me," he said as he sat down on the bed with me."I am sorry but seeing you with Zeb last night made me so jealous, You make me feel amazing even though you're dating my friend. When I met you years back I thought you'd be mine but then your friend came along and you tried so hard to hook us up together." he said as he hung his head."Nikki, these past few months we've spent together have been amazing. Even the few kisses I've stolen from you have been heaven. I just wish you'd see it that way too."

I stared at him, "I understand Michael, but I am with your close friend now, and things are already complicated."

Michael:"Do you feel anything for me at all?" I looked down but he pulled my face up."You can't kiss me if you love him, Nikki."

Me:"what do you want to hear? That I have feelings for you too? Well I do, ok? Happy?"

Michael:"yes!!!!!" He answered me grinning.

Me:"You can't kidnap me just because you're jealous. That is not how things work, understood?".

Michael: "I'm sorry. I just couldn't control myself. You were drunk, laughing at everything he said when I saw you and you looked so vulnerable. I thought the i***t would take advantage of you. And you have this glow on you lately."

He waited for me to finish my breakfast, and I ate everything. EVERYTHING. After clearing the dishes, I went down with him into the kitchen. It was huge. I grabbed a banana off the table and he laughed.

Me:"whose house is this? And where is that lady from last night, Martha?" I asked, looking around as I peeled it.

Michael: "House is mine. And yes it was built for me by dad last year." He answered when he saw the puzzled look on my face."And Martha only works monday-friday. Saturday and sunday are her days off." He pulled me to him and took the banana peel from me."I want you dammit!" He kissed me while trying to get my dress off but it wouldn't come off so he tore the neckline of my dress. "Michael!" I screamed before he covered my lips with his again, they felt so good. He slid my dress off and left my upper body bare, breasts out. He blew on them before taking one n****e between his teeth and I winced. "Hurting.?" He asked.

Me:"a little, they've been a bit sensitive lately."

He lifted me, made me sit on the counter and started checking them.

Michael: "Everytime I touch them you jump, and they look enormous, full and....." He bit into my left n****e and I hit him. "Babes, they've become big. I noticed it the other day but I didn't want to comment and they look Tender and the skin around your n*****s has darkened." He said while kissing them. It felt so good, I'd never felt this way before. "Nikki, when were your last periods?"

Upon hearing this I jumped off the counter, and covered myself. "Are you insane! I had my menses on..........what's the date today?" I asked, suddenly confused. I had my last peez on the 15th of august..this is october. Am two months late!!!!!!!!. I haven't had s*x with Kumbwa since that weekend before my engineering test. Did we use a condom? I remember seeing him open one packet,but........

Lately I've been feeling so fatigued, my appetite has increased, I never get full and eat everything I see, my Lower back aches. No! I can't be pregnant. It's not possible, I turned to look at Michael and just broke down. He held me in his arms. "Hey,don't cry. First we have to do a pregnancy test to be certain. I hope it's mine."

That's when I remembered that intimate encounter with Michael, Kumbwa cheating on me, failing my test. I'd been so emotional I'd ended up having s*x with him. We'd had unprotected s*x but bonnie had told me taking cafemol and coca cola prevents pregnancy. Of Course I didn't tell her I'd slept with her crush. She often asked me about his numerous visits but she believed he was giving me a few lessons.

"Nikki, it's mine right?" He cut into my thoughts.

Me: "I don't know." I said and started crying."I slept with Kumbwa two days before you, and I don't remember if we used protection."

"s**t!" He cursed."I thought you two used protection. How could you?"

What! Is he being real? Kumbwa was my boyfriend and Michael is just someone I'd slept with once."Are you insane? Don't talk to me like that."

Michael:"am sorry love. But that had better be my baby. Kumbwa doesn't love you, and the minute he discovers you're having his child he'l run."

Me:"Kumbwa loves me and you know it. Don't talk rubbish." I answered back on top of my voice.

Michael:"really? He does? Are you sure? Give him a call and tell him. I am sure he's screwing some v****a right now." He passed me my phone."Go on."

Of Course Kumbwa didn't love me, that much I knew. And I didn't believe he was in lusaka."Leave me alone!" Was all I could say.

I can't be pregnant, not now. My whole life would be ruined. My parents would be disappointed. They'd never forgive me. I continued sobbing.

Michael carried me to the living room, gave me a sedative and held me till I slept. I woke up with my eyes swollen from crying. I couldn't find Michael anywhere in the house so I went up to take a quick shower and lay down on the bed naked with just a towel covering me. I was thinking about my possible pregnancy and school when I heard the door open. Michael walked in with some shopping bags and a carton of ice cream; vanilla and chocolate. I jumped up and grabbed it from him forgetting I was naked. I took it, sat down and began digging in.

Michael:"You do realize you're naked right? And I didn't get a thank you for the ice cream."

Me:"I am naked, so? You've seen this body before."I answered with a mouth full. I blocked him out completely until he touched me and said,"Now dress up,we have to go to the clinic, remember?". That broke my spell with the ice cream. He quickly grabbed the carton before it fell. He passed me a bag containing a few clothes. I took the black skinny jeans and a white vest.

We went to some Chinese clinic in parklands to have a pregnancy test done. We got there and were well received by a Chinese doctor who was so cute but short. Michael whispered in my ear about how chinese men have tiny p*****s because they're short. l burst out laughing and the doctor looked at me with a question written all over his face.

He instructed the nurse to take a sample of my urine and blood to test it.

We sat in the waiting room for a full 45 minutes before the doctor called us back to his office again and gave us the results.

Both came out positive, I was pregnant! I don't want to be a mother right now, I am still young. I don't even know who the father of my baby is between Kumbwa and Michael. The doctor saw tears rolling down my face and told me I could terminate the pregnancy before it matures since it was just 4-5weeks, I told him to give me time to think things through.

"No one is killing my baby!"Michael answered. "Now get up, we're leaving." He pulled me out of my chair.

Me:"This baby can't be born. We don't even know the father." I whispered.

Michael:"I am the father! Me!"He stopped walkie and turned me to face him."You understand? I am this baby's father, get that into your thick skull. This child is mine and I'll raise it, with or without you! I want you and this baby and I'll have you both."

I felt so emotional and lost, I just started sobbing, after which he pulled me to him. "Have this baby with me. Let's do a DNA test so we know once and for all if I am the father!" He dried my tears with his kisses."I can take care of both of you. You'll still continue with school once the baby gets here and everything will get back to normal.

Nothing will get back to normal. Mum and dad will kill me. I'll be a laughing stock in school and what if it's Kumbwa's baby?

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Sunday afternoon, Michael took me back to school. This whole baby thing was hurting me and I couldn't hide it. I felt so much pain and disgust for myself. I slept with two men, in 48 hours and now I am pregnant.

When we got to my room, he gave me a sleeping pill so I could rest but I started crying again and he held me in his arms. I felt so safe in his arms.

Him:"Its going to be okay Nikki."

Me:"Why don't I believe that?"

Him:"Have I ever lied to you?"

I looked at him and shook my head. He kissed my forehead. "I will always be here for you and my baby."

I looked up at him and he kissed me on the lips, I couldn't resist him, I kissed him back. Then suddenly we heard a voice behind us.

"So I leave you alone for three days and this is what happens? With Michael, of all people."

I looked at Bonnie and she had so much anger in her eyes. She looked at me then at Michael and shook her head before walking away.

Michael:"ooops. Talk of bad timing. Guess the cat's out of the bag."

Me:"Just leave, I'll talk to her."

Him:"Okay, call me when you need me."

I smiled and walked him to the door, he pulled me by the hand. "I love you."

He kissed me again and I walked back into the room to wait for Bonnie. What was I going to tell her??

Michael had said he loved me. Did he? For real? Arrgh, my life is getting complicated.

I took the pill he left me and blacked out after 30 mins. I woke up a few hours later to find Bonnie cooking. I didn't know what to say, she just kept staring at me. When she was done she offered me a plate filled up with fried fish, egg plants and nshima. "Eat up." Was all she said.

Me:"thank you." I kept staring at my food until she spoke.

B:"So what about Kumbwa?" I just looked at her."Is this your revenge on him by being with Michael or you actually like him."

Me:"Bonnie, I'm sorry. I didn't want you to find out like this. I know you like michael and......"

B:"past tense,I liked Michael but he likes you. I noticed it the day he came over to our room and his numerous visits have not been to give you lessons but to see you. And am not a one-man woman." She cut me off. "I've seen how he looks at you and how you behave around him. It's clear you like him too."

I smiled. That was easy. "Am glad you're not angry with me."

B:"says who? Am furious. You didn't tell me and yet we're like sisters. But I forgive you because he bought me a bottle of 'strawberry lips'." She said, showing me the bottle. I asked her to pass me a glass when she said, "he told me not to let you drink any alcohol. He said you'll explain to me. Now start talking!"

Shit. Not now, I didn't want to do this today.

"Well, thing is I found out…. Hey, remember when you gave me cafemol and coke? The day I told you..."

B:"spit it out."

Me;"I am pregnant."

"Aaaaarrrrrgggg!"She was screaming like some lunatic."So you and kumbwa are having a baby? Maybe this will make him faithful."

Me:" actually,no! I am not sure if he's the dad."

Bonnie opened up the bottle and drank almost half the content."I'll need that." She said, "You and Michael did not...."

Me:"we did." I answered and she stood up and walked to my bed. "I slept with him when I caught Kumbwa with that classmate of his."

B:"are you insane? Does kumbwa know?" I shook my head. "Dude this is a mistake. We have to get rid of it tomorrow."

Me:"Michael believes it's his and he..."

She cut me off ,"Michael is working, he graduated last year, remember? You're a first year student. Are you going to ruin your life over some blood forming in your belly?"

I just wanted a drink to calm my nerves,so I grabbed the bottle from her and asked her to shut up when she opened her mouth to protest."I need it."

We agreed I'd think about it and make my decision by friday. She asked me to keep quiet about it and not tell kumbwa.

I hugged my sweet friend. I needed that hug so much. My phone rang and she passed it to me,"baby daddy." She said.I took it thinking its Michael only to see kumbwa's name written on the caller ?. I answered.

K:"where are you?"

Me:"that's how you say hello? My room"

K:"Sorry babe, I've just missed you. Am outside your door, can you come out?". I hung up and told Bonnie I'd be back in a bit. She told me not to go off baby-making again. I laughed and walked out the door. I spotted him standing behind the staircase. Immediately I hugged him, he kissed me. He's a good kisser. A good kisser and good with his hands. I kissed him back but it felt wrong. His hands were touching me in all the right places, things were getting heated so I decided to stop and pulled back.

K: "What's wrong? We can go to my room."

Me:"your room?"I answered, angry, remembering what I had seen the last time I was there."You want to take me to your room, like every other w***e you pick up on campus?"

K:"am sorry. But babes that was a mistake and it's in the past now. Will you ever forgive me?"

"I don't know! Goodnight." And I walked away.