AMIA
This was my moment to say no.
If I pushed him away, he would step back and let me walk off.
Most alphas would never do that, but he gave me space even while holding me.
It felt completely strange and unnatural.
I knew almost nothing about his background or his identity.
I knew nothing about the people in his pack or how they lived.
We formed a strong mating bond just two hours ago, and now I was lieing naked in his arms with no defenses left.
It was totally crazy, and my mind desperately needed time to clear up and think.
Except, for the first time in my life, I did not want to think about anything.
I only wanted to stay right here in his arms.
Omegas held real power inside them.
I had tried my best to explain that to Luna when she felt lost and unsure about being an omega.
We were strong and held real influence.
An omega could make a pack strong or destroy it completely.
I knew all of me this because I was taught these things for a few short years.
The schools for omegas focused heavily on this idea of omega power.
For the people running those places, omegas were just a multi-million dollar business to profit from.
Because of that, I gladly threw away everything they tried to teach me.
My strong need to survive made me learn how to adapt fast.
My real strength was believing in myself and trusting my own choices.
Right now, I stood at a major turning point, waiting for my wolf to help me decide what to do.
Sadly, my wolf was the exact reason I ended up in this situation, so I did not trust her advice.
The wolves created these mating bonds on their own.
Human minds had no say in the matter at all.
What total fools.
I wanted just one night with him for our very first night together.
I wanted to feel his touch and be held by a master.
When I moved away with him tomorrow, I would use my power fully.
I would turn myself into a true equal partner for him.
His real partner.
"It has been a very long day and a much longer night, so having something soft under me would feel nice," I said softly, stepping right into my omega role.
I could ignore the deep bond between us for now.
I could set it aside and just be a simple woman who wanted pleasure after waiting so long.
Zand growled low in his chest and lifted me off the floor easily.
A small laugh almost escaped my lips, and it was not part of any act I was playing.
When my skin touched his, I felt genuinely happy and relieved.
I felt safe and deeply comforted by his presence.
It was just the effect of the bond working on me.
I had to force myself to ignore that feeling.
rounded mattress bounced under my weight when he set me down softly.
Then he moved over me, pressing his lips firmly against mine.
My reaction this time was far more active than before.
I arched my body up against him right away and wished he was completely naked like me.
My arms wrapped tight around his neck, holding him close to me.
My physical force was nothing compared to his strength, but Zand showed no signs of pulling away.
"What do you enjoy, Amia?" he asked in a low growl.
"What brings you real pleasure?"
That was a complicated question, and I was not going to discuss it tonight with him.
"Why don't you just show me what you can do, Alpha?"
A slow smile spread across his face, and his eyes lit up with intense energy.
There was his inner wolf showing through.
I had seen that wolf once before when he helped search for Luna after her cruel former alpha captured her.
His wolf was striking, pure white with bright blue eyes.
While we were running away back then, all I could think about was running my hands through that thick fur.
I even thought about calling him Snowball in a sweet and caring tone.
That was the most frightening part of it all.
When I pictured Zand in my mind, I did not just see a leader.
I saw my true mate.
This choice was a mistake.
I should not let him touch my body like this.
"I lost your attention, Amia," he said quietly as he dropped his head to kiss my stomach.
"Focus on me again, baby, because we are stopping if you are not fully present with me."
A wave of heat swept through my whole body at his words, and I leaned up into his gentle kiss.
My inner purr was so close to coming out completely.
I needed to gain control over my thoughts right now.
I had to stop focusing on the old dreams that kept me warm while he was away.
I needed to focus on the reality keeping me warm right now.
"There you are," he said with a short laugh, looking up into my face.
"I am right on the edge of getting to the best part."
"You have my full and total attention," I whispered as his hands pushed my legs apart.
His fingers brushed softly against my skin, and a low breath escaped my mouth.
"Wet, exactly the way I want you," he growled out softly.
"You are completely soaked, Amia, and I need to know if this is for me."
"No, I am always like this," I said, telling a quick lie.
I closed my eyes tightly so he could not look deep into them and see the truth.
"You are lying to me, and I do not like lies at all."
"I am going to make it my personal goal to keep you wet like this all the time."
"That way, you will never be a liar again."
My quick lie completely backfired on me.
His fingers touched me again and then slipped slowly inside.
Strong waves of pleasure moved through me, and my wolf woke up instantly.
It took every ounce of my effort to hold my wolf back from taking over.
She was not going to control this moment, and I was not ready to show Zand who I truly was.
My wolf stepped back and let me have full control of my body, and I accepted it willingly.
Zand was surprisingly gentle and patient with me.
His movements were careful, almost as if he was afraid he might break me.
That was not what I wanted or needed tonight.
"Make me reach the end right now, Zand, because I want to know what it feels like."
"An orgasm?" he asked in a quiet tone.
I looked down at his face directly.
"Your orgasm."
"Do not worry, baby, because you will experience many of those with me."