Untamed fire

Vanished panic (Dustin's POV)

Gone... She is just gone. She vanished right out of my arms and there was nothing I could do to stop it. Her screams of pain still play through my mind. She was trying to tell me something but she could hardly speak. All I could make out was her saying home. I cover my face with my hands as I sit in the spot she was standing in moments ago. I relive her screams of pain and her disappear into a flash of light. Char paces frantically in my mind at the thought of our mate being gone forever. His growls and whimpers drum in my head. "Char, please calm down. She might come back." I say softly, not believing the words I just spoke. A howl rips through his throat and escapes mine. Our combined pain rips through the forest making every creature run in fear. The pressure in my head increases meaning members of the pack are trying to contact me. I don't want to talk to anyone. I want to mourn my mate. "Maybe she is still alive... I didn't feel the bond break." My wolf whimpers and hope starts to shine back in my eyes. "You are right! Maybe she was sent home or somewhere else. WE MUST FIND HER!" I open the pack link and are attacked with multiple worried wolves. "QUIET!" I boom through the link and am met with a hushed mind. "Your Luna has vanished and MUST be found! Team 1 take the North. Team 2 the South. Team 3 the West and team 4 the East. Those not assigned to teams fill in the gaps. I want every inch of our land searched. No member of the guard is to sleep until she is back safe among the pack." I can hear their howls of understanding in the distance and am grateful that no one asked what happened. I go back to staring at the last place she stood. There is no sign any one was even there. I can feel Char just under my skin ready to join the search, but I feel that if I leave from my current spot Ill never find her again. I have known her for less than 24hrs and yet she is already my world. Is this what having a mate really feels like? I feel so empty. Even more empty than before I knew her. My heart started to click into place and now the whole is so much deeper. I think back to my parents. They were so happy and there was never a time that you wouldn't see them smile. After mom died, dad never smiled again. He would just exist and be a shell of who he was. His anger was easily triggered and he started to go feral as I got older. He had nothing to hold him down and to calm his wolf. When I came of age to be Alpha... I..I had to challenge him. The man I knew as my father was gone the moment he shifted. He had given in to the emptiness in his heart and let his wolf take over and I had to do what was needed to save the pack and become Alpha. Without any control of our wolves, we are no different than the one found in the woods. I can feel Char close to the surface and waiting for the moment I give into him and let him have our body for himself. Every wolf looks for a weak point to take advantage of. It isnt that they dont like to share a body, it is just their nature to kill the weak and prevent them from slowing down the pack. As an Alpha wolf Char never allows me a moment of weakness under normal circumstances. He is now aware that our mate is alive and is back to his usual self, but me... I am finding it hard to be strong. I suddenly feel like the wind in my lungs was ripped from me. She truly became my everything from the moment I saw her. I didnt want to be the Alpha when I saw her. I wanted to pull her into my arms and drown in her scent. She became my weakness and Char knows it. He can feel that I am not who I was yesterday. He was calm when she was next to us, but now I am fighting for control. "Char, calm down and let me handle this." He growls. "NO! You lost mate. You let her leave and she could be hurt. If you wont find her and cant get your tail out from between your legs, LET ME TAKE OVER!" He growls again as I feel him push further to the surface. I wrap my arms around my chest and hold myself tightly. "I will not give up yet!" He words brought an anger through my blood, but no matter how much I tried I could feel the shift starting. "EVEN IN YOUR BODY I WILL BE IN CONTROL!" I yell out as the fur starts to sprout from my skin. "We will see just how strong you are Dustin. Fight me if you can." The tug a war for control continues as the shift slowly progresses. I try to stop the shift, but he has a stronger will than mine. I allow the shift to take place and watch the world become clearer and the world smell sweeter. "You are in my body now! GIVE ME CONTROL!!" He continues to fight me and I feel him start to push me back into our mind. "I HAVE TO FIND HER!" I yell but voice come out small. "You have lost human. I will find mate and you will wait there till I decide to let you out. Enjoy your sleep human...." I begin to feel dizzy and my world starts to go black.