Do you know that empty feeling? The one where you feel total numbness, where it seems like nothing will ever be okay again?
That’s exactly how I feel right now.
I feel used. Dirty. Broken. In pain. Like my world has been shattered beneath my feet. Like I was born just to suffer.
The pain they’ve inflicted on me—I don’t even know why. I don’t know why he wants me tortured, why he plans to kill me after.
But I don’t want to die.
Not yet.
I need to tell Zavi that I love him. I need to feel his love, even if it's just for a fleeting moment. Even if he doesn't love me back, my love for him is enough.
They haven’t r***d me—yet. Instead, Luciano ordered them to beat me. They beat me until I felt nothing, just the dull, numbing sensation of blood spilling from my skin.
I’m grateful for tha
