Kiss me goodbye

8

Waking up and stretching I hit something hard. But my eyes were still to heavy so I just explored with my hand what I hit.

“Can you please put your hand away?”

Wait…I recognize that voice.

“Jay?! What are you doing in my room?” his eyes were still closed but he was tired. I could see it on his face that he didn’t sleep at all.

“I stayed with you and watched over you so you didn’t get a surprised visit. After you feel asleep, I brought you here and stayed with you.”

Oh. That made sense.

“Did you sleep at all? Or were you awake all night?”

“No. Just most of it. Ella is fine by the way. Damiano took her to our pack much to Drake’s dismay.”

I stood up ready to get dressed for school when his question stopped me.

“What about you? You look worse than me. Did you sleep at all or did you just pretend to sleep?”

Not really wanting to answer his question I decided to be a b*tch to him even though he doesn’t deserve it.

“What do you even care? I bet that the only reason you’re here is because Damiano told you too.”

His face features became angry and one second, he was sitting on my bed and the next he had me pressed against the wall holding me by my arms. Because of the contact my head made with the wall my vision became blurry for a second but when I could see clearly, I could see he was beyond pissed.

“Don’t you dare say that I don’t care. I care. You have no idea how much I care.”

I didn’t say anything and we stayed like that for a moment. His grip on my hand tightened and it started to hurt but looking at his face he probably didn’t even realized it.

The pain from his grip was getting worse. I tried to get free from his hold but the more I tried the worse it hurt. I’m sure there will be bruises after this.

Giving up I tried the only thing that might help me right now.

“Jay. Please let go. You’re hurting me.”

At that his eyes winded and he let me go immediately.

“I’m sorry. I-I should go. Sorry.”

He was ready to leave but I didn’t really want him to leave. So, I asked one question that was nagging me since my talk with Damiano.

“Wait.”

He stopped at the sound of my voice.

“Last night. Damiano said something.” He visually tensed but he stayed quiet. So, I took it as my cue to get closer. I was standing only a foot from him when I stopped.

“He said that. That you didn’t use the right words. Is that true?” he turned around to look at me.

I couldn’t describe the look in his eyes. He took a step closer to me so our chests were touching.

His hand came to lay on my check and his thumb rested on my lower lip. He leaned his forehead against mine and closed his eyes. I could feel the heat from his touch spread over my body along with the sparks. I closed my eyes enjoying the closeness but when I opened them the window was open and he was gone.

My vision blurred from tears forming in my eyes but I refused to let them go.

As I was too tired to go anywhere or do anything I laid back on my bed and texted Ella.

-To Ella- Hey bestie. Jay said that Derek took you back to their pack. Can you please text or call when you can to let me know you’re okay?

I hit send and played Hay Day on my phone for a while waiting for her replay. But got nothing, so I turned my phone off and put-on Netflix on my computer and watched Lucifer season 5.

Sometime watching Lucifer, I fell asleep and woke up when a gunshot woke me. It took me a minute to register it’s coming from the TV. I calmed down since it wasn’t good for me to stress. I laid on my bed staring at the celling when my phone beeped. Looking at it I saw Ella has finally texted me.

-From Ella- I’m okay. No need to worry. I’ll be staying with Drake and Jay in their pack for a while.

-To Ella- I am happy you are okay. Well call if you want to talk.

Looking at the clock I saw I slept 3 hours. It’s time for me to get up and make myself something to eat.

Going in the kitchen I saw a note on the fridge. Taking it, I saw it was from mom saying she and dad went to Bahamas for a getaway.

-To Big Bro-

Hey. Mom and dad left to Bahamas for God knows how long. Knowing them they probably won’t be home for at least a month. So, you free to come by anytime you want.

I hit send. I went to the home cinema that usually mom and dad used and forbade me to use it. But what he doesn’t know won’t hurt him.

It took me about 20minutes to decide on the movie. I ended up watching Aquaman but stopped in the middle of it because it wasn’t as good as I thought it was. So, I moved on the last airbender movie. And I honestly feel bad for Aang. Finding out that your entire family is dead.

After the movie ended, I took my phone and saw a text from Matthew.

-From Big Bro-

Maybe me and Tina will come next weekend. Or you could come Boston? Tell me what you decide.

-To Big Bro-

Maybe I should come to you. I need to get out of town for a while. When do you want me to come?

-From Big Bro-

I will send you plane tickets for Friday. Until then go to school.

Rolling my eyes, I laid on the couch and fell asleep.

I woke up being carried, opening my eyes I saw Jay carrying me.

“Where are you taking me?”

“Your room. You can’t just sleep on the couch.” At the end there was a little bit of anger in his voice.

He put me on the bed and laid next to me holding me. I put my hand around him and put my head on his chest.

For hours we just laid there talking about anything and everything. I told him about my parents and my upbringing. I talked to him about Matt and he told me about his family. His parents and about his sister that died when she was only 3 because of the rouge attack. His thumb stroked my cheek and caught the tear that escaped my eye.

Suddenly my lips touched his and after I realized what I was doing I pulled back. I tried to apologize but he cut me off by kissing me. It took me a moment before I kissed him back. The kiss turned ended up in a make out session with him on top of me and one of his hands under my shirt and the other in my hair. And my hands on the back of his hands and under his shirt.

***

The rest of the week went by with me spending more and more time with Jay and Elle being ‘sick’. On Friday Jay took me to the airport so I could go and see Matt, promising I’ll be back in a week.