She's The Boss

13.

"Why did you tell him the truth?" Daichi asked Lena while his eyes was fixed on the road. He was already driving home. He still couldn't believe what she had done.

"I think it was the best for everyone… ." she replied as she looked at the lights outside the car. Her mind was in a total mess. She didn't know why she told Jaejoong about Daichi. Somehow she felt that it was already useless for her to hide the truth.

She was already teaching herself to accept the truth that she was going to end up with Daichi no matter what she did. She glanced at Daichi… . He was already a perfect husband for any girl. He could easily be considered as a good catch to some women. He was handsome, had a very stable job, rich, intelligent, with good family background, understanding and very loving. A lot of girls she knew were already saying that she was very lucky that she got him as a fiancee.

Lena sighed. "Should I be happy that I am going to marry Daichi?" she asked herself silently. Her mind was telling her that she should be happy… . but somehow her heart was telling her a different answer.

"Is it right that I am staying next to their apartment? What if someone found out and it cause some problems?" she asked herself again.

"What are you thinking?" Daichi asked. He knew that Lena was thinking of something. And he really wanted to interrupt her. He wanted to know the truth.

"I am thinking… . of me and you… . of Jaejoong and me… . and whether it is right that I am going to stay in the same building with Jaejoong," she replied unconsciously. It was her trait to answer straight away when asked without thinking first. She was very surprised that Daichi had taken advantage of her being preoccupied with her thoughts.

Daichi smiled. "You can never be a liar. You're too honest and too direct with everything. What do you plan to do now… now that you already have told him about you and me? How are you supposed to make him fall for you now?"

Lena stared at Daichi. "I don't want to make him fall for me anymore. I know I can never do it. What I want now… . is to be at least honest with him. I want to tell him how I truly feel about him. That is the only thing I want now… . " she replied sadly.

"Lena… . why?"

"Daichi… . I just want to be with him as a friend now… . I know… . friendship is the only thing that he can offer me… . and I guess I have to try to content myself with that," she replied.

"So are you really sure with your decision? Does this mean that you are already accepting our engagement? Are you really ready to accept me as your husband to be? " Daichi asked with his heart pounding very hard as he waited for her answer.

Lena stared out the car. "Yes… . I guess there is nothing more I can do. We are both stuck in this… . and I am already very tired of fighting against my family, especially my parents' wishes."

Daichi felt that Lena was already surrendering… . She was already accepting their current situation. At that time… . he couldn't really decide whether he should be happy or sad. He only wanted her happiness… . and he didn't really care about his own feelings. He sighed heavily as he continued to drive.

All the way to home, both Lena and Daichi stayed silent. They were both preoccupied with their own thoughts regarding their pre-arranged marriage. Somehow they were both thinking that maybe… . maybe… . they were really destined to be together.

Back at the DBSK boys' apartment… . .

Jaejoong was silently looking at the TV. Even though he was looking at the screen of the TV, his mind was flying somewhere else. He was still thinking about Lena… . and Daichi. He still couldn't believe that his best friend already has a boyfriend… . or a fiancee, to be exact. Somehow he always imagined Lena to be his buddy… . but now… .the idea of her being someone else's girlfriend or wife is making him lose all his sanity.

Lena had always been his friend ever since they were still small children… . She and another friend, Yoora… . The three of them were all very close with one another. They were so close that everyone who knew them thought that Jaejoong was gay or something, because he was always with girls. But they didn't know that the two girls were more of boys than girls, both in character and in looks. Lena and Hye-Shin both loved to wear boys' clothings like jeans, shorts, shirts and they totally disliked wearing anything that suggested their true gender. They also loved doing things that only boys would do. There were also times that Jaejoong would make fun of them and joke about their future husbands… . . or if they will ever get one. And they would always answer that a husband is far from their minds.

Lena would always answer that she had no plan of marrying anyone except a very special someone. He would always ask who the guy was… . or if it was even a guy… . and she would end being silent and then he would end up trying to say sorry to her… .

Jaejoong suddenly smiled… . . That was the past… . Now… . Lena was already very different… . very different that he couldn't understand why he never noticed it before.

It was only now… . that he suddenly realized that his best friend had already transformed into a very beautiful and desirable woman… Jaejoong shook his head… . and slowly bent down his head and then cupped his face with his two hands. Different questions were running through his mind. But one particular question was repeating in his mind… . over and over again. It was already making his head hurt.

"Hyung… . are you all right?" Max asked with concern as he noticed Jaejoong.

Jaejoong raised his head and looked at Max. He saw that the other DBSK members were all looking at him, with concern in their eyes. He tried to smile… . He wanted to pretend that he was all right. He wanted to dismiss the thought and the strange feeling that was bothering him.

"Something is wrong… . right?" U-Know asked.

Jaejoong didn't know what to answer. He was very much confused and he didn't want the others to know what was really on his mind.

"Nothing…" he tried to deny it.

"Hyung… . we can all see that you are very much affected by what happened today… ." Xiah said with a smile.

"What happened today? I don't know what you mean… ." Jaejoong answered.

"We all saw the shock and the strange expression on your face after Lena introduced her fiancee to us," Micky said. "You don't have to lie… ."

"What's really bothering you?" Xiah asked again.

Jaejoong looked at his friends. Then he suddenly decided that he needed to tell them or he would just lose his mind… . thinking about the answer to the question in his mind… .

"I… . I am just quite confused… . After Lena introduced that guy to us… . It was as if… . it was the only time that I suddenly saw Lena as a girl… . I know it's weird… . But I have been used to seeing her as my friend… . and as a boy… . And now… after she said that she had a fiancee… it totally took me by surprise… . I never imagined that she would have a boyfriend… . and most of all a husband… ." Jaejoong confessed.

"Hyung… ." Max uttered. They all felt that their friend was totally having a hard time accepting what he just learned.

"So you're unable to accept that your best friend is getting married… . is that it?" Micky asked with a smile.

"Frankly I… I don't know… . I am quite confused on why I am being like this… ." Jaejoong answered.

Micky suddenly laughed. "Is it because… . you're starting to fall for your best friend?"

Jaejoong looked at Micky with a horrified reaction on his face. "What?… . That is totally impossible. I can never fall in love with a friend… . especially not with her. It is like falling in love with my own sister… ." he replied with a forced smile.

The other DBSK members all looked at each other, as if asking one another if they actually believed what he said.

"Hyung… . but she's not your sister so there's nothing wrong if you suddenly realize that you like her more than a friend," Max suddenly teased.

"Max… . Lena is just a sister to me… . I can never fall for her… . " Jaejoong said again as to defend himself from Max's teasing.

"Lena is very beautiful… . Anyone could easily fall in love with her. So why is it very impossible for you to fall in love with her?" Xiah asked with a raised eyebrow. He couldn't believe what Jaejoong was saying.

"Because… because she's my best friend. And friends aren't supposed to be fallen in love with. In my casee, it's quite impossible because I'm already very familiar with her. She's like one of my sisters… . that being with her has no thrill or excitement at all. And being in love with soemone has to have that special feeling whenever you're with them… . You know what I am talking about right? And frankly… . I don't think I can ever get that kind of feeling from her," Jaejoong tried to explain.

The other DBSK members somehow understood what their friend was trying to say.

"So you're really okay with her having a boyfriend and being engaged?" U-Know asked again.

"Well… . I don't think I have any right to say anything. If she's happy with him… . then I am going to support her on her decision," Jaejoong answered with a heavy heart. He knew part of himself was lying. There was a big part of himself that wasn't happy that Lena already had a boyfriend.

"Well… . I still think that anyone can fall in love with Lena. And if I were in your position… . I would have fallen in love with her a long, long time ago," Micky commented.

Xiah suddenly laughed out loud. "Now that is something very possible… . Jaejoong hasn't fallen in love yet… . So he's quite picky when it comes to girls. But on your case… . any girl who comes within 10 meters with you is already in danger."

U-Know, Jaejoong and Max all laughed after they heard what Xiah had said.

As the other DBSK members all talked and laughed, Jaejoong was still troubled.

"Why am I feeling this way? Why am I being affected by the fact that Lena already has a boyfriend? Is it really possible that I like her more than a friend?" Jaejoong continued to ask himself.

"No… . she's just my friend… . She's like my sister… . I can never fall in love with her… ." he tried to tell himself over and over again… But as he was trying to convince himself of this… . his heart was somehow aching.