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The flight

I went inside the airport and collected my ticket and went to the waiting room and waited for them to announce my flight an hour later I finally boarded my flight and got to my sit I sat by the window and looked out at the sky my heart was beating so hard cause I was really scared to go back to Korea I placed my hand and felt my necklace which made me feel so much I wanted to pull it but it will only add to heart ache I was about to have a panic attack well the air hostess called me and asked if I was okay or I needed anything I just said i was fine and I don't need anything now but I asked her that I wanted to lower my seats so I could lie down and like I just relaxed and put my earmuffs on so I could sleep I decided to stop thinking I'll be fine it's going to be okay but I felt my necklace again and tears streamed down my face I knew that this was the only time I had to cry when I get to Korea I can not be emotional at all I sat up and looked at the clouds and just emptied my mind then laid back I have less than 2 days to see my parents I have to get my s**t together I just had to.