BLOOD AND Lightening

Chapter 38

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HALDIR

"Yes!" her words came a little too high-pitched and firm, I have never been more confused about a person, her coming up with the marriage was totally out of the plan but served the purpose, I have no plan of marriage, the court won't allow that although they clearly have no say they will find a way. If I am married it becomes harder to escape the position of a duke, I was going to use my refuser for marriage to my advantage, besides they have always wanted to dethrone me while at the same time they forced me into this seat.

I looked over at the woman in front of me searching for her eyes, although it has always been a very bad idea to do that I still can't deny the satisfaction I get from staring into her eyes, she was sharp-tongued, a witch, my curse and a possible threat but also the person I look out to see every day, she has managed to sneak into my head and refused to go away, her words full of sarcasm and obvious tease enticed him, I enjoy her company, her eyes filled with unfathomable expressions, her sudden change of character and tendency to space out while am talking to her.

"why?" I finally managed to ask her,

"Why not?" she asked back drawing closer to me, took everything in me to stop myself, from moving back, and she stood looking up at me as if searching for something in my eyes, in an attempt to look away my eyes went to her wooden mirror which showed that her back was bare with only her hair covering her, a hard lump formed in my throat as I swallowed and looked away, The tension between us suddenly different, she was smiling looking at me not knowing the effect she has on me, I couldn't move nor say a word as my eyes duged holes into her skin, after mastering the strength to overcome this temptation I finally moved away.

As I approached her door I hear her mouth out a sign followed by a comment at me

"Coward" was I? I left not looking back, I can't let my emotions drive me crazy.

Pacing in my chambers from the balcony to my room, her words bugged me, she want us to get married even with the hatred she has for me, does that means she doesn't care about finding her parents anymore, it was almost impossible to find them, the seers are not seeing a thing, but are hoping that they will see, am afraid of the person I become anytime I think of her, I do not want her to leave my sight, I might have become selfish and I fear obsession might soon take over me.

Ever since the Oath, it seems I have been bewitched and my sense of thinking when it comes to her has been clouded, I have refused to think rationally, I search for her eyes while speaking to her, not hearing her thoughts sometimes drives me crazy, cause I suddenly want to know what she is thinking, and that all comes from the constant s****l desire which I refused to acknowledge was there, it was clouded my thoughts.

NIMAI

For a moment, it was there, his eyes were darkened and he looked like he was going to do something to me, I anticipated it but as he closed his eyes and opened them, they returned to a cold stare before he walked away, I curled myself in bed calculating if really I saw that or it was imagination, my carnal desires has intensified and I want the devil to take me...

I woke up from an awkward dream that I couldn't remember, it seemed important but no matter how hard I tried I could not remember them.

"your body is burning hot Milady" Star's words jolted me back to reality, I did feel different like I was sick, but I dare not speak about it for the fear of a physician.

"Do I have any free attire, like that of a rider?" I asked her, wearing heavy dresses all day is exhausting.

"That of a rider I doubt but what about this one," she said showing me a dress with fewer layers of outfit, women in Alfredo seem to wear less cloth and show a lot of skin but maybe the devil considered me and all my garments are full dresses but heavy to keep up with, thinking of the devil I caught myself flushing, 'what is wrong with me! my internal being screamed

"your cheeks are red Milady" Star pointed out and I couldn't help but smile

"Have you seen Haldir this morning?" I asked her with a smile and she smiled back

"yes I saw him going to his study," she said, hearing that, I quickly wore the outfit, and while she helped me, my eyes were fixed on the wooden mirror as I struggled to stop myself from smiling and trying to keep a poker face.

"where are you going milady, you haven't had breakfast" Star questioned

"Am not hungry, I will be back" I said walking away, and getting to the door of the library I breathed in and out before I opened the door and walked around, I expected to see him buried on his desk with a pile of books, rather he stood by the window, one hand folded at his back and the other holding a book, his attire seemed different, he was dressed like a warrior, his hair tied into a ponytail perhaps to keep it out from his face, and the sword closely tied to his waist, he refused to acknowledge my presence and I was forced to clear my throat to get his attention.

My face beamed as he stared back at me, for some reason I wanted him to do the same but he walked past me and sat on his desk, my face turned sour immediately but maybe he couldn't read my mood.

"you are dressed differently," I said awkwardly wanting to start a conversation, he slammed the book on the desk as if I was stressing him out, and I couldn't explain the feeling I felt from that, my heart tugged like I have been wrong like I became sad instantly.

"What do you want Nimai," he asked in a lazy tone, I didn't like that, thought he wanted to be friends.

"Nothing, you said I could use the library, anytime I wanted," I let out

"Yes go ahead and use it," he said before going back to his book, I couldn't let him see that I hated his attitude but I also wasn't in the mood to trade words as I slightly moved away pretending to look for a book, from pretending I came across a book that caught my eyes, it was Titled spells and love. I grabbed it immediately to notice him standing up and the door opened immediately reviewing Thanatos with a similar attire as him, are they going somewhere?

"where are you going?" I asked him making him stop on his track,

"I will be gone for a few days," he said

"What!" I let out "when we're you planning to let me know about that?" I asked him in anger

"I just told you and besides why should I let you on my decisions and plans," he asked me making me realize I should remember my boundaries

"Am I going to be safe without you?" I asked in a low tone

"yes, as long as you are in my walls," he said before walking away, I followed with a slow pace, outside they all gathered both Zephyr and Eros included.

"Nice outfit Milady!" Zephyr's voice came followed by a wink from him, typical of him, he notices everything even with the obvious change in him, and Haldir appears angry about something.

"Take care of the house duchess" came the voice of Lord Eros with a teasing smile before they left, I waited to hear him say something to me, to at least spare me a glimpse but non came, I hate this feeling that pierced my heart making me want to cry and an undertone rage fighting to surface, I buried them all in my heart and stood watching till the gates were shut.

"Master says we need your permission for anything in the house, please the stocks have arrived and we need your signature to be able to collect the goods" came the voice of the chief

"My permission?" I asked confused, he didn't say anything about that to me

"take care of the house duchess" I remembered the words of Eros, did he really leave me in charge, after signing them and a few more papers my legs began to lead me to the library, "You left this milady," Star said giving me the very book that caught my attention

"Thank you"

"Should I get your breakfast ready?" she asked

"Have you had yours?" I asked her, although she appeared surprised she smiled and nodded her head

"I am not hungry Star and you can go do whatever you want," I said with a smile but I noticed she kept following me, I turned around to look at her.

"I want to follow you," she said tagging along, for some reason I sat at his desk, it was comfier than the rest of the chairs, and it smelled like him.

Spells and Love

For I long for thee in

The ways I couldn't have imagined

My thoughts and mind clouded

With a foreign emotion

My body craving for thee's warmth.

What did I just read, I closed the book upon verifying it was indeed the same book I proceeded to open it again, I had thought it was about spells. Does the devil enjoy books like this? Or it just managed to be in his library.

Elena Elena my name rolled from thee's mouth.

I never knew I had

A beautiful name until you called me

You have turned me into a shameless

Woman who long and plead for affection from a man.

Your lips on mine leveraging every corner of my mouth.

Take me up like a challenge and don't quit till you are satisfied

Fondle my delicate feature

It is all yours to take

Although I want to see you in your elements

I beseech thee to go easy on me as thee would do to an egg.

I grasped after reading the last line, how I understand every bit of Elena's words marvels me, it felt familiar too.