BLOOD AND Lightening

Chapter 39

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Nimai

It's been three nights since he left, and am beginning to feel empty, I hate to admit but I miss everybody including Thanatos, The devil especially. Without him in the house, I developed a pattern to keep myself busy and am beginning to wonder why didn't I think of this earlier, I involve myself in cooking my own meals, I help to pluck the flowers and Use them in decorating the house, the devil's house has slightly taken a new look, and the library is where I spend the rest of my day, by dusk when I retire to bed, my whole body goes up in flames, I have really fallen sick.

"you missed again Milady!" Star frowned as I handled the bow to her, I forgot to mention that I suddenly took interest in perfecting my Archery skills, back at ARVERNINE the only time I picked an arrow was to hunt down meat or to scare them far from our cabin, while I did practice my sword alone, I never got to use the sword to fight real fighters or people but I fear one day I might have to use it here so I have to be ready.

"Perfect!" I commented as Star hit the bullseyes. The relationship between me and Star has taken a new turn for the better, we spend almost every time together and I have come to discover how chatty she was.

Slowly I walked away and next I found myself laying down in bed with the bed covers over my body, I might need to know what is wrong with me. For some reason, I wish he was around like he would appear out of nowhere and ask me if I was alright.

My door jolted open to reveal Star in a cheerful font, "They are back!" she shouted and without thinking I jumped from my bed and ran out not even stopping at the stairs I ran till I got to the front door, There he was, staring at me, my face beamed without warning as I attempted to cover my obvious excitement, collecting my breath, the others appeared behind as Zephyr bared a sweet smile while he approached me.

I slowly gave him my hand but unlike before Zephyr drew me into an embrace, I swear I needed that, is it too hard to ask of that from Haldir, his attitude before he left hadn't changed, I was a fool to think he might be a little excited to see me, leaving me in charge was just a part of his great plan to make our fake situation original, as I felt Zephyr's body retreating I held him and hugged him back before letting go.

"You are back," I said to Haldir stopping him from moving further as he turned around and stared at me, "Yes," he said before he slowly walked away living me dejected.

"Don't take his attitude to heart" I heard Eros say with a smile

"He is weird even to me too" Eros added before he slowly picked up my hand and slowly placed a kiss on it "I see you added a few touches to the house, it feels homely," Eros said and my heart beamed causing a smile to find it's way to my face, not even Zephyr noticed but Eros did, although I did it for the devil to notice.

"your palm is hitting up or am I just overthinking it," Zephyr let out

"You are overthinking it"...

Thanatos gifted jewels to Star, and she mentioned he told her that he bought them from a desperate seller, he had no choice but to buy them, and since he has no one to give he felt like giving them out to her, STAR seems to believe his excuse but those jewels look hand selected, I know exactly what I saw in those eyes anytime he looks at STAR, I won't be the one to let her know, I watched her check them out as she giggled in joy, commenting on how they matched her perfectly.

My mind couldn't help but wonder what the devil was doing, I have no excuses to go see him, I can't seem to think of one.

"Won't you go see master or are you both still fighting?" Star suddenly asked

"We are not fighting Star I answered lazily as I got up and begin to undo my garments" Star appeared to want to speak but hold back..

Sleepless I lay in bed, wallowing in my thoughts, why won't he seek me out, at least smile back when I do, he was smiling sweetly and was becoming friendly, what changed, why am I thinking about him, Do I like him, I fear the answer is......

I finally mastered the guts to confront him, I angerily walked to his chambers but as I stood by the door I went cold feet looking at the door, 'what if he is sleeping, he is probably tired from the journey, and even worst what if he doesn't want me around him' my mind fighting me against it, slowly I knocked, no response I repeated knocking, curiosity took the best of me as I slightly opened the door, pitch black, not even single candlelight was on nor was the curtains drawn to as least let the moonlight in, suddenly I found myself tiptoeing not wanting to make a sound.

"Haldir" I whispered in the darkness, no response, he probably isn't in there, turning around my head hit a hard surface, a body, his body.

"What do you want?" his voice came low as slowly a candle lit up, slowly laminated the room and my eye flicked up at the art in front of me, half-naked Haldir, his hair was all over the place signifying he was sleeping and shirtless he stood towering over me, shifting my gaze from his body my eyes caught something, an open coffin, his gaze slowly followed my eyes.

"Yes I sleep in that, it's more comfortable" he answered although I never asked

"You haven't answered my question Nimai, what do you want," he raised a question

"Your eyes" I answered still lost, stupid.

"Pardon," he asked as I realized I have to be more like myself and stop losing my morals over a man.

"I came to know what changed," I said truthfully, he gave me a questioning glare which can be transcribed as "go on"

"You suddenly changed after the font we put on in front of the elders, why? Is it because I asked you to marry me, you could have just said no, not treating me like a nobody after saying I wasn't just anyone" I said, there he went with the silent treatment, I have it, he walked past me as he opened his balcony letting in a lot of moon light,

"You are ignoring me like always like I don't exist or should I say like a curse which should be loathed"

"what was that you just said?" he said turning around to look at me, finally he was giving the reaction I wanted

"you ignoring me of course,"

"No, what did you say after that?" he asked

"Does that matter, you are trying to ignore the topic"

"Nimai, you wanted this too, you are the one that changed," he said leaving me speechless

"What" I finally managed to ask him

"What are you doing in my room, I am a creature that caused you pain," he said

"what if I don't want to remain in the past again, I thought we became friends,"

"Friends," he asked with an expression, hard to read.

"yes friends Haldir, you asked me to be your woman, and don't back it up with being an act, act or whatever you wouldn't have asked me for such favor if you didn't think that there was a possibility of us being friends, lie and say you didn't think of that, why are you giving me mixed feelings, this moment, you are flashing sweet smiles the next you give me cold stares and ignore me then you left me all alone here for three nights upon arrival I left my bed to come to welcome you and you ignored me, you didn't even acknowledge the few changes in your own house" I ranted collecting my breath to continue I was pulled into a hug, from fighting to be freed from his hug to staying still.

"Why are you crying Nimai?" he asked me, only then did I realize, I was really crying why,

"Could it be that you missed me?" he asked again, I remained quiet not because I wanted to pay him back but because am confused, his hug felt different from Zephyr maybe because he was shirtless but it felt different and nerve relaxing, a wave of dizziness and as well tiredness as I held him tightly for support, 'I can't afford to pass out now'

"Are you okay?" his voice came, as we detached from the hug

"Am fine, you still haven't explained your reason" I said

"Why are you burning up, are you sick?" he asked with a concerned tone

"Am not sick, am just tired" I said as I felt my legs up from the ground, Haldir lifted me from the ground, but before I could react I was laying on his bed

"What are you doing," I asked a bit embarrassed

"How long have you been like this?" he asked me involving my question

"I don't know, four nights now" I answered him

"why didn't you let me know before I traveled"

"I don't know, maybe because you suddenly felt like leaving me here alone" I answered with sarcasm

"I had something important to take care of Nimai," he said before getting up and I stood up immediately "where are you going now?" I asked

"To fetch your aid," he said with a stoic face "And lay back down" he warned before walking away, my face beamed as I sniffed the fabric of his bed, as the familiar scent filled my nostrils so did the dizziness in my head triple, I should fight against this sickness, I can feel myself slipping out of consciousness but I do not want that, I might wake up to the version of Haldir that I do not want, I kept my eyes opened till slowly I couldn't anymore...