The Rogue Lycan's Mate

White Dove

After helping the waitress, I went back to room. My hands were trembling out of excitement because I had the numbers. Now all I need to get the money then escape. I hope, I won't draw any attention.  But not too long once I reached the door, I saw Aidan, leaning his back against the door and waiting for me to come. Rolling my eyes at first, I glare at him lazily. "It is scary when you tower over the door like that, you brute." I said then crossed my arms, narrowed my eyes. He just shrugged off and smile. "Can't help it. I am a scary person." he chuckled then take a few step towards me. "We have to leave Québec, tonight." he said exhaustedly. "But, why?" anxiety took over me. This could ruin everything. "My father's minions are tracking us. And unfortunately for us, I am getting weaker." he was in pain I could see it. "Why are you feeling weaker though?" I asked. He sighed and corner of his lip being bent down, frowned. Glaring at me with his beautiful hazel eyes, he kept his silience for few minutes. "It is beacuse of you." his voice was cold and lifeless. I was confused so I asked. "What is it has to do with me?" I retorted. "My wolf is getting weaker because our mate's presence is near but still doesn't bear our mark. You are so close to me yet so distant. Look, it is complicated but it can't go on like this for me anymore. I have to find a secure place to complete our mating process without anyone to disturb us." his voice was still weak. I won't lie. Seeing that enormous beast as vulnerable as like this is making my heart ache. But actually, I should be relieved. His situation can make things easier for me. But still... I am not feeling relieved. More opposite, I am feeling bothered. 

No! I can't let my conscience to best my only change for gaining back my freedom. So, I need to leave. Tonight.

While Aidan sleeping soundly beside me, I carefully get out from bed, without moving the duvet which is on Aidan. I had packed some of my things a bit earlier today so I was ready. The biggest problem was those bulky lycans who were standing in front of our door. But I had something in my mind. First, my scent need to be covered. I walked on my tiptoes to bathroom, brushed dried wolfsbane all over my body. Normally, Aidan could've scented it but now, he is weak. After covering my scent with dried wolfsbane and some deodorant, I slowly yanked the door. Once checking out on Aidan for the last time, I stepped outside. The lycans by the door looked at me puzzled and one of them cut my way. "Everything alright, Miss?" he asked. Ugh, those bulky, intimidating bastards. "Of course everything is alright. My mate wanted me to fetch something...private. This is why I had a bag with me. And not just that. He is a bit aggressive because of our....phase. So I do reccomed you to stay put and wait for me." I claimed and they didn't dare to question me.

I still couldn't believe that I actually managed to fool those fools! "Good work, girl!" I said to myself within my head. Once I reached the lobby, I called a cab. Waiting for that frickin taxi was eating my life second by second. A cab finally stoped before me and I jumped in it without delay. How can someone feel relieved and uneasy at the same time?! That is me. I am feeling like a confused sh*t. As I watched the buildings, trees and people blur past, all I could think of was only one person. This is annoying the sh*t out of me!

Aidan's POV:

As I was trying to move inside of bed, my men burst into my room. "What the hell? You don't know how to knock or what?" I berated them. I was still feeling feeble, it was the first time for me to feel such a weak connection with my beast. "S-sir!" one of them tried to speak with me. But the more I felt awake, the more I started to scent wolfsbane and fading scent of my mate, it throbed my heart. "Where, is, she?!" I growled and my beast started to speak through me. 

He was feeling weak too. But the thought of Muiri being away from us, flared him. "S-sir, she said she was going to fetch something private for you so we didn't followed her." that i***t started to tremble. "Where is Alva?" I asked calmly but actually I was at the verge of my sanity.

By the time I opened my eyes with a pleasant hope to see her cute face, disheveled hair of her while she lying beside me peacefully, all I could see was cold, white sheets with a fading scent of her on. She had already left to escape from me. If I listened to my inner self and plead with Muiri to stay by my side for eternity, would that change her mind? Did I made a mistake to let my pride to best me, best us? All I could feel was desperation. What kind of a man I've become after Muiri get into my life? Soft, weak and now an abandonment. 

"I swear, I will find you. And once I found you, I will tear your sweet neck as I mark you! I will tore your limbs off, leash you to my bed and have you whenever I please!" my beast roared through my head. Once Alva came in, I pounced on her. I grabbed her by neck and squeezed it until she became blue. "How could you?!" I roared. Sullivan jumped between us to stop me. I could've killed Alva if I continued to choke her a bit more. Sometimes I forgot that she is not an werewolf but a mere witch. "Are you out of your mind, Aidan? This is Alva! Pull yourself together!" Sullivan berated me. Sullivan wasn't a mere servant of mine, he was my childhood friend and the only one who remained loyal to me among other powerful lycan families. "Find her, Sullivan." I ordered with a firm tone. Then peek at Alva. She was throwing daggers with her glare while sitting on the ground stroking her neck. "I am sorry." I managed to apologize to her and averted my eyes from her direction for I felt ashamed of what I did to her. Alva stood up while holding her throat and walk towards me angrily. "You-will-pay-for-it, you oaf! Once after we find Muiri." she snapped and leave the room. I dismissed all other lycans for I need to be alone now. My beast tried to come out and start to search for Muiri but I can't let that happen. We are in a crowded city and not just that, if I let him to take control, he could harm Muiri.

I once longed for unconditional love. I've always thought that once I found my moon given, I would achive it. But Muiri being a human, made everything upside down. She doesn't feel our bond, she doesn't share my feelings for her. Now that unconditional love I longed, turned into a one-sided agonizing affection. I still remember the day I saw Muiri for the first time, days ago. How I hoped for her gaze to change while she was looking at me. But the look in her eyes remained same. She despised me. But, I didn't mind. Even if Muiri hated me and repulsed by me, I was okay as long as she was close. What a desperate bastard I am. To me, looking at her making me feel eased, calmed. To me, Muiri was like the moon goddess herself. Her every gesture, smile and expression was sincere and gracefully radiant. She was the only creature that I ever admire in my entire life. While touching her I felt like touching stars, while hearing her sweet voice I was having thoughts about nightingales, chirping, singing through day. Since we shared a few intimate moments with each other, it was only natural that we felt a bond between us. But to my surprise, I am the only one who was feeling that bond. No, probably even earlier than those moments, I fell for her. I fell for not our bond but for her. The first time that I inhaled her true scent in my lungs, I thought of heavens, I felt like floating through air. But now, I was under assault by afflictive emotions. Anger, fear, panic and the worst... Desperation. It's not the desperation of the fear of not finding her. The desperation of not being able to change her feelings for me.

She has never seen the serenity I had while me holding her between my arms, disheveled and imperfect. Because the most important thing that made her a flawless being in my eyes was her imperfect, real and sincere nature. I fell for her flaws. She's never seen. I can't blame her for this though. 

From being an infant till today, I've always been torn between my humanity and the beast inside. Two voices inside my head, two sides and two personalities. They were always fighting and my soul was their sole battlefield. The thing is, Muiri is like a white dove. She brought me peace. She made that battlefield turn into a enchanted forest. Yes, she was right. I could've rejected her but I couldn't dare. A moon given mate is someone very special and unique for us, lycans. And that hell of a hope for being loved unconditionally stopped me as I tried to set her free every time. I was and still is being selfish for I am a desperate, selfish bastard. She was like a little swallow wants to fly away from me and I was only the person who caging her without mercy.  And I have always knew the culprit who killed her real parents but I couldn't bring myself to tell her. She was already hating me and it could make her hate me even more. Longing for love make a man miserable. Especially a man such as myself, a monster like me. But, look what you have done, Aidan. Either way she found a way to slip between your palms. She set herself free but I am still chasing her to devour her like a mad dog. 

While engrossed with my ominous thoughts, someone knocked the door. I scent Sullivan. "Can I come in?" he asked and his voice was very low and trembling. Letting out a low sigh, I continued to look out from window, watching the city. "Come in." I answered. Sullivan took catious steps towards me and hesitant to get closer. I could smell his anxiety. "Okay, I won't beat around the bush anymore. Why didn't you mark her immadiately? Why did you wait for full moon?" Sullivan asked me. I turned my gaze towards him and kept my stoic face. "Her soul was strong but her body was feeble. She wasn't ready for me to mark her." I answered and turned my gaze on city view one more time. "What kind of a bullshit is that, man?" he shook his head with a puzzled face. "She is a human." I stated. Probably because of her unique scent, Sullivan or other lycans couldn't understand what she is. "What the fu.." I cut Sullivan, "I know this is not making sense even a bit but yes, I mated with a human. Moon goddess is pulling pranks on me since the time I was a f*****g whelp!" I clenched my fists and grint my chin. Sullivan patted my shoulder. "She always knows the best. Don't worry. We'll find your mate, safe and sound." he smiled heartwarmingly. But my beast got angry. "Oh, I'll find her safe and sound but only for me to snapped her legs by myself." I growled and bared my canines. Sullivan didn't stagger before me for we were alone and there was no need for him to show submisson. "Pull yourself together and calm your beast down. She is young and a mere human. It is very normal for her to act stupid and defiant like that." Sullivan punched my arm. I knew, he was right. But sometimes I can't contain brutal instincts of my beast. The day we scented Muiri, her real smell without a mask on, I was at the verge of harming her severly so I ran away from her. Because every second in that room, my mind started to get blanked and all I could see was red. And after that day, it was sometimes impossible to contain my wolf.

"Hey you two. I have some information about Muiri." Alva burst in. As I heard Alva's claim, I dashed towards her. "What did you find?" I asked with a warning tone. Alva rolled her eyes to me and this made my blood boil. I grabbed her arms and squeezed them. I can feel my eyes turning that horrifying yellowish color again for my senses was getting heightened. "Whoa there, you brute!" she said sassily but I could hear how her heart was hammering inside of her chest out of fear. "Don't test my patience, Alva." I threated her. "I found the cab driver who gave a ride to her. He is waiting at lobby." as Alva finished, I dashed. I was still wearing my sleepwear but I couldn't care less.

When I reached lobby, I saw a man sitting on a armchair nervously. I walked towards him hurriedly and as he saw me to coming towards him, he stood up. I grabbed him by throat and lift him to face me. "Where did you take her?" I lowly growled at him. But he couldn't manage to answer for he was turning blue. I wanted to stop but I couldn't. Moreover my eyes started to turn yellow and my raven fur became more evident on my face and arms and an urge started to cloud my sanity, tearing his throat out. The driver became terrified but thanks to Sullivan again, I manage to stop. "Everyone. We are closing the lobby due to a management problem. Our guests please retreat to your room and the our employees are dissmissed for now. Please accompany our guests." Sullivan tried to clean up my mess. Once there are only me, Sullivan, Alva and that driver, Sullivan tried to make me sit and calm down. 

The driver's heartbeat was rapid and untable. And this was making me nervous much more. "Start to talk." I said firmly then clenched my chin. "I-I... I didn't know she was someone important so I... didn't...pay attention. I..." as he was babbling the words, my anger burst out. Just as I moved to tear him apart, Alva stood before me and looked at me stoic. "Calm down, Aidan. We need him." she stated. Every one of individual remained in lobby could feel the tension was rising and I was hardly containing myself. As if it wasn't enough that my mate was far from me, I was listening a babbling i***t. "I remembered young and aloof of a girl. I took her to Trois-Rivières." he said. "Trois-Rivières? It is not that far from here. " Alva said but I knew the time my eyes and Sullivan's met, we both understood the severe problem we had in. Or to be more pricise, the severe situation she would be in. Some of my father's minions have a base there. A base full of lycans not mere werewolves. This alone, made my anxiety grew more and I knew at that time that I could no longer delay my departure. Because I know it in my bones, once they identify her, they will kidnap her or worse. They would kill her even. Being my mate wasn't her fault but, not being able to contain my mate and being couldn't protect her was all my fault. And my failing power could become Muiri's demise. I cannot allow that. "Prepare my drive, we are leaving this instant." I ordered Sullivan and other lycans who were ready to attack the cab driver. While I was dashing to my room to pack some of my things, in a moment, my knee wobbled and my heart stinged. I don't know what the hell was going on but I prayed to Moon for nothing to do with Muiri.