The Rogue Lycan's Mate

Desire for Vengeance

Sun rays disturbed my eyes early in the morning. Aidan's firm and huge figure was already looned over me as I opened my eyes, I held my breath when he continued to leaned down, looking straight, no, through me. For a moment I looked into his beautiful hazel eyes and all I could see was desire. Then Aidan pulled away a bit, my eyes were wide open for I wanted to savour the sight in front of me. His hair looke so soft and tousled, his perfectly shaped, full lips were inches away from mine's, his pupils were dilated as if his eyes were coal-black. Then he narrowed his eyes and looked at me full of concern on his face. "What happened last night? Why did you cry?" he asked. While lying down, I shrugged and after a brief moment I pushed him to get off me. "It was nothing, I saw a nightmare that's all. Now get off me so I can go and pee in peace." I murmured last words. Closing his eyes and tilting his head to down a bit, he chuckled and then looked at my face and placed a peck on my forehead. "Go ahead then. And once you are done, we will be going out for breakfast." he smiled like little child to me. 

After headed down to kitchen, I saw Aidan was packing up some things in a basket. Out of curiosity, I moved closer to him and only inches was remained to him where I stood. Last night made me feel closer to him more. I thought, I would fall down to an abyss when I woke up from that nightmare but, he held me and I felt secure while writhing inside his arms.  With a short sigh once he saw me, he kissed me, holding me close and cradling my face in his big hands. "How are you feeling?" he rested his forehead against mine "I want to talk to you about so many things. This is why I wanted that trip. There will be only us and we will talk. I know you have so many questions bugging you. I promise I'll answer them." then his hand trailed down to my breast slowly, his forehead was still against mine. But suddenly he pulled away and cupped my face once again and then point to fridge. "What would you like to eat for breakfast, make your choice. I took some but I don't know what would you like so... Just take what you want and let's go." he clapped his hands. I giggled before his awkward smile and looked inside the basket. "This is more than enough. And you know what? I am really wondering how did you manage to find sweet rolls and danish rolls here?" I asked and with a pure curiosity. He chuckled and shrugged. "I know this place looks deserted to you but actually we have our ways to stay connected to world. We just value our privacy and of course our territory so other natives who doesn't have the wolven blood don't meddle with us." and rolled his eyes. "So, the laptop I saw in your room is working and it has a net?" my heart started to race due to thought of having a chance to escape. He didn't suspect a thing and nodded, smilling. Which was good. Very good.

While on the road, we had small talks like the lifestyles, how they manage to find fuel for their vehicles, how many werewolf was there in Aklavik and what kind of connections Aidan has. My mind was full of escape scenarios as he talked to me casually but I didn't have slightest remorse what I was thinking. After my mother's statement I was feeling betrayed and abandoned. I didn't want to me dragged by people anymore. I wanted to independent for I had enough. Everyone in my life now are just disappointments for me right now and my aching and sorrowing heart won't allow me to continue my life like that. Can't live as a captive, can't live as a abondonment. For now, I will continue role to gain some time for planning my salvation.

As we reached our destination, I got out from the jeep with a small jump and of course I slipped and sit on the muddy ground, my ass hurt as s**t. Aidan suddenly appeared before me and started to carry me with bridal style in his arms. "Do you really need to be that i***t? Why would anyone jump out of a jeep for getting out?" he berated. "Well, I am not an ugly ogre like you, my legs are short, okay? Put me down! I can very well walk myself." I retorted then hissed for my back hurt. Rolling his eyes with a irritated expression, Aidan continued to carry me and placed me on ground where I could see the mesmerizing view. "Stay where you are, I will bring the things." he pointed at me and pointed the ground. This time the one who was rolling eyes was me. Aidan went to bring our supplies and while he was away I continued to look at the view, daydreamed. The snowy hell became a snowy heaven before this view. There were so many lakes around here but this one has a diffirent color. A collor of could be seen at least hundred of shades of azure and blue. There was a tiny snowy cover on tree leaves and branches, squirels were hopping one to another. I even saw an elk, gracefully and beautifully nursing her baby. 

After watching the view, I stood up to look where Aidan was gone. He was still tinkering at the back of the jeep and looking frustrated. Staggering, I walked towards him slowly as he saw me then frowned, sighed. "Didn't I tell you to wait there?" he berated me again. A smug grin appeared on my face instead of a frown. I liked the way he was being bugged by this mess. Obviously, he wasn't really related to do things like this. "Let me handle this, I am hungry and if I let you continue, we'll starve to death." I shooed him away gently.

Aidan looked so happy and relieved while I was sitting beside him, eating and looking around. I didn't know why but a sudden urge to discover more about him bugged my head then out of a blue I scoot to his side, getting closer to him without hesitation. His eyes widened when he saw me moving towrads him and without breaking our eye contact, now we are eye to eye. I flicked Aidan's forehead. He staggered back a bit with a grunt. His face puzzled and a malicious grin appeared on my face. "You are not as tough as I thought. But now, this is not what I wanted to tell you. I have questions and you have answers. Can I start?" I tilted my head a bit to left side. Firstly he shook his head to get rid of that puzzled face and then he rubbed his forehead a few times. "Sure." he shrugged. "Can you tell me something about your childhood?" I asked and he became frozen. "Why do you want to learn about my childhood?" he asked back, frowning. I shrugged and looked directly into his eyes. Seeing my inquisitive nature, he knew, he had no choice but to answer. He sighed and looked up to sky. Sitting on the ground, he sighed once more and a wry yet sorrowful smile appeared on his face. It was the first time I saw him like that. "As you know, I am, was, the crown prince. Before being exiled to here my parents were proud of me because although I am much younger than my father, I was and still am stronger than him. But even when I was just a pup I was fierce, my beast was stronger than any other lycan. My mother told me that I was different because I was born in a full moon night as the moon Goddess blessed me. That was a lie for it wasn't a blessing but a curse." we were making eye contact but it didn't feel like he was looking at anything. I pursed my lips, frowned in question. "Why did you got exiled exactly?" I managed to asked properly, hoped for a firm answer from him. He chuckled in sorrow and anger, it send a shiver down to my spine. "I was hungry, so hungry that I started to hunt even after our regular and legal hunting sessions. My mind was always clouded with hunting when I was just a teen, always aroused, always intense and aggressive. A real beast in heat. In nights of full moon, I always went crazy with desire. Desire for flesh, both alive and bloody. And one day, things got out of my control completely. I killed two of my kin. First I killed my uncle, teared him apart into many pieces. Bloody scent in the air made me more excited and I couldn't stop, then his mate. Jenna. She was a mere werewolf. So vulnerable, so weak. I saw her trembling before me. I stopped for a moment to pull myself together but in vain. I ripped her throat only with one bite. After that, my parents shifted in their lycan forms to stop me. My father manage to give me a good slashing but it wasn't enough too. My mother called a witch to put a chant on me. As the witch started to chant my vision became blank." he shrugged but I could see the anger and resenment on his face.

 Before his words, I couldn't know what to think or how to react. "A witch?" I asked timidly then he nodded with smile. "She was no one else than my Hanna, the old lady you saw earlier. I was first sentenced to death. But Hanna saved my life, she told them that if they kill me, the moon Goddess's wrath will strike them. I don't know why whould moon goddess loved me so much or why I was special but as Hanna claimed it, they didn't dare to kill me. And from then on I was started being called as the Prince of Hated Ones or my favorite The Blasphemy For Wolven Kine." he said as if it was nothing and chuckled in disdain.

I sighed and put a forced smile on my face because all I needed to do that making him believe me, gaining his trust so he wouldn't get suspicious of me. "Things can get out of control sometimes. Which is okay. I'm relieved that you are not having any remorse for your past. But from now on, for my sake you should be more cautious. No one wants to see their mates to have problem with others, including me." I said and as seeing the widened eyes of him I knew, I've screwed. I said too much, calling him as my mate in fronth of very his eyes. Darn it. "What did you just called me?" I expected him to give me that kind of attitude towards my claim. He inhaled the cold air deeply. "Did you call me... "Mate."?" he asked, his eyes were turning yellow, glowing. Oh, damn. But I can't drop my act right now. For I have decided to get the f**k outta here and start to live myself as I desire once I have my chance. "Well, aren't you?" I asked to him and shrugged. His eyes turned the color of lava, not yellow or gold. "I've been alone for a long time but being alone never got easier for me that I can assure you. Do you have any idea how happy it made me when I finally reached out to you? And now, hearing you calling me as your mate with your own will..." he paused then gulped "Just...Just know that I am really relieved." he smiled again.  Cupping my face with one hand, he leaned to my side more and kissed my lips again. But this time, this kiss, it was different. Not passionate, not hungry, just gentle and cautious. I couldn't let my unseen guard down now. I have to learn the truth about my biological parents too. Pulling away from him was hard for my body was betraying me. Without even noticing, I got used to his body's warmth. But my broken heart reminded me what was important for me to do. I inhaled and exhaled a deep breath, looked sternly at him, his face became serious and stoic too, then I averted my eyes. He is so scary when he glare like that. "I want to know everything about the day you came for me. What happened to my parents? Who is the suspect? And...And where did they buried?" my eyes still couldn't meet with his beautiful eyes. His stone faced expression soften as tears started to fall down to my cheeks. Sighed and averted his eyes too, I sensed something important was coming to haunt me then. "When I reached to their house, they were far too gone. I only saw their cold bodies and all I could think of was you and seeing you alive. I went up to your bedroom, searched around like a beast wanted blood and believe me that I was, but all I could find your little blanket beside your crib with your scent on." his eyes darkened, "I looked out for you for years but in vain. The ones who took you away from me and killed your parents were masked your scent. But then after all this years one of my scouts had heard that a mere werewolf family has adopted a female human child 17 years ago. At first I didn't find it important but my beast started to claw my chest inside, howled in my head for days. Not just that, once I learned that your adoptive parents were in a pact with my good for nothing mother I sensed something was fishy." he paused and clenched his fists and grind his teeth, "After talking with Hanna, she chanted something, that I don't know what, when it was a full moon and as soon as she finished her sentences I transformed into my beast, started to run towards you for days without taking a break. In that petty festival or ritual, whatever, I sensed you, my chest tightened, my beast became impossible to control. They were still dragging you with them, not to protect you but for remain loyal to their queen." I saw his knuckles turned white as he clenched his fists. "Now do you understand? I am the only one who you can rely on. No one else but me." his words sinked into my heart, deeply and painfully. Realization hit me hard, slapped me right into my face. Now I am more determined to find my own way. Without no one meddling. I am not a werewolf or a lycan. Being a human in a world of beasts wasn't something I could handle. "Do you think that the culprit is a werewolf? The one who murdered my parents in cold blood." saying it out loud made my heart ache. Aidan frowned and nodded. "A human wouldn't know about you being my moon given mate. And the mask on you was perfectly created by a witch. I have my suspicions towards a few individuals but I am not sure yet." he stood up and dust off his clothes. Folding his arms and looking stoic and unimpressed he looked at me while I still was sitting on ground. He raised his eyebrows in question and in disdain. "Do you seek vengeance for your real parents?" his tone was drained from all of the emotions yet he was grinning like devil. I looked up, directly into his eyes and nodded. "Wouldn't have you done the same thing?" I asked and stood up. His facial expression remained still, while standing inches away from him making me s**t my pants out of anxiety. "I seek vengeance that you will help me to have." it wasn't a request, I ordered to him. The shock on his face remained only for a few seconds and then he chuckled in a same dark tone. "O-ho... I see. But there is a slight problem, my dearest." his smug grin again. I rolled my eyes with irritation. "Ugh, figured. Okay, you can have your way with me as you want for in exchage of your help." I don't care what he would do to me all I want to avenge my parents now then leave this lunatic to start from stracth. Once I finished my sentence, he cracked up, laughing like a complete psychopath. I frowned and glared at him with anger and wonder. "Thanks for your barter but, I can have my way with you whenever and wherever I want for you are already mine. What else could you offer me?" he smiled maliciousy. "I don't have anything to offer you but my body." I retorted. Tilting his head to left a bit, he reached out his hand to grab my hair from the nape of my neck, gently yet possessively. "That my dearest, is wrong. There something much more valuable that you can give me. Your soul." he grinned in a smuggish demanor. Inside of his eyes, tiny yellow and golden sparkles could be seen. "What now? Do you wanna kill me?" my voice trembled as I spoke but still I didn't show my fear. Grinning, he nuzzled my nape and inhaled me. "I will mark not only your body but also your pure soul. Which will make you bind me for eternity. A bond that even death doesn't have power to severe. A bond will make you feel as I feel. A bond will turn you into what I am now." he chuckled but for me it wasn't at least a bit funny. "I am waiting for moon Goddess to show herself fully in that holly night and then your body and your very soul will start to transform and you will completely be ready for us." his grin faded but the intensity in his eyes grew.