The Rogue Lycan's Mate

The House Became A Nest

The car began to shake as it entered a rough road. With the effect of this shaking, I woke up completely from my sleep and started to look around. Aidan crossed his arms, looked out the window on his side annoyed. I approached him to ask where we had come from and how far we had to go. I touched his arm gently, and as soon as I touched him, he startled as if he had come out of a trance. I was startled by his suden move too. Then he looked towards where I touched him and started to smile. I took my hand off his arm and rolled my eyes. God! Everything this man does is getting on my nerves. "Where are we?" I asked. He stretched first and then patted my head. "Aklavik." he said and smiled widely. "We finally got there without dying." I replied. He chuckled and reached over to put me on his lap and pulled me towards him. Although I don't want to sit on his lap, I'm not in a position to handle his strength. After a mere and pathetic struggle that I had with him, he overpowered me with ease and placed me. On his lap, I continued to struggle a bit too but once he showed me the view, I halted. The wild animals, deers, coyotes, foxes and many other were running around. Birds were flying high above us in groups. Bears were trying to catch and eat fishes in a nearly frozen stream. And a pack of wolves were passing by. "This is our home. My snowy heaven." he said with a smile. I can't lie. I am mesmerized by this view now. 

After the icy and broken road ended, we entered a more muddy road into the woods. We slowed down a bit on the muddy road. Thanks to this, I could see other figures among the trees. Lots of people looking with curious and happy eyes. But I soon saw that they had all turned into wolves. They started running after the car. "Looks like our people has missed you my king." Osta said to Aidan. Aidan looked out the window with a sincere smile and then sighed happily. It was weird. This man, who had looked nervous and angry the whole way, looked like a completely different person now. A little further on, I saw a huge house made of wood and stone. Around this large building were smaller houses surrounded it and that smaller houses connected to them one another with narrow roads. There were children, elderly, and people of many ages all around, all looking in Aidan's direction and smiling. Unable to express my surprise, I continued to stare out the window from Aidan's lap. As soon as we got out of the car, they all bowed respectfully before Aidan. But there was no compulsion in this gesture. The little children jumped on Osta and Aidan with excitement. I was still in shock. Then a woman, all wrinkled from old age, began to slowly come towards us from the back of the crowd. What I would see next would never cross my mind. Aidan bowed respectfully before this woman. Along with the other werewolves.

The old woman patted Aidan's shoulder. And she turns to me and smiles, "So you found her at last." she said. Aidan nodded and smiled. Then the old woman started to approach me. I had never received any negative energy from this old woman, on the contrary, her smile made me feel warm. Then she gently caressed my face and put her hand on my shoulder without breaking her smile. "Her spirit is strong. She is indeed your moon-given one. Our mother, moon goddess has a plan for you. But she hasn't spoken to me about it. So you have to solve it by yourself." she said. What the hell is that mean? 

After spending some time greeting the other werewolves, Aidan grabbed my arm and started to lead me towards the big house. Everyone started to mind their own business, but the fear that I thought had disappeared inside me was growing once again. When we entered the house, the furniture and the atmosphere of the house were quite cozy. We started going upstairs with Aidan. After opening the door of a huge room, I saw the king-sized bed in the room. There was a fireplace on the side of the bed and a big armchair in front of it. On the side of the armchair is a coffee table and a half-drunken red wine bottle on it. The walls of the room were of stone, and the ceiling was made of large logs of wood. But what caught my attention in this room was that there was a laptop on a desk. This room with its large windows had its own large bathroom, and to the side of this bathroom was a walk-in closet attached to the room. As I continued to gawk at the room, Aidan began to take off his clothes. Standing in front of me again completely naked, again, Aidan pointed to the bathroom. "We will take a shower. Together." he said. Before I could even say no, Aidan started to take off my clothes. "No! Stop! I don't want to!" I screamed but in vain. His eyes were starting to glow yellow again and his canines were growing as he hurriedly took off my clothes. Is he gonna r**e me?! 

"Please. Stop. I'm not ready." I plead. Usually my pleadings hadn't worked against him, but at this point I had nothing else to do. That's why I begged. And surprisingly he stopped. I was only wearing my panties. My breasts were naked. He didn't say anything. He just backed away with eyes full of defeat, sadness, and anger at the same time. I took a few steps back towards the back of the bed, trying to cover the bareness of my chest with my arms. "It doesn't matter. You're here now. You're mine and you're with me." he said and smiled. Then he slowly walked towards me. "Forgive my excitement. I will be more gentle and kind to you from now on." he sighed as he finished his sentence. "I don't know about you and you don't know either. But we are going to spend the rest of our lives together. And yet, my mere existence makes you tremble. This is not what I want." he said with a grief and apologetic eyes. I understand that he is trying to reconcile but, I still have my uneasy thoughts inside my head, circling around it and making me hesitate to trust this beast. "Do you know what your problem is? You are always thinking about yourself. I want this, I want that. This is not how it should be." I've found power to berate because he was looking so vulnerable. "What do you expect me to do, huh? From the first time I've found you and still, all you are thinking about is others. Not me. But from the day you've born all I was able to think was you. I've waited for you to grow, I've waited for you to be ready for me, not just that, I grieved for you. I wanted to come and claim you the day you were born. But I didn't. I couldn't. Because the day you were born I've found your parents, your real parents, they were dead and someone had already masked your scent and took you away from me. My beast had gone crazy. I thought they'd killed you too." I didn't let him finish his sentence. "What did you just say?" I asked, my voice was drained from all emotions. "You've found them dead. And someone kidnap me when I was just a baby." I said, but actually, I asked and demand an answer. Because what I knew was much more different what I was hearing. My mother told me that I was abandoned by my former parents. And for years I suffered at the thought of that. Knowing that you are an abondenment was never easy for me. And now, this man, Aidan, claims that he found my real parents dead. He sighed deeply before talk. "I was there to claim you, yes, but I was suppose to bring you with me here, to Aklavik and secure you until you were ready because being born as my mate was severely dangerous for you. You were defenseless, vulnerable as a baby. And still. Someone doesn't want me to have you because he or she knows that I would be invincible once I found my moon-given one." he explained. I was started to drown in thoughts. My mind and my vision started to blank. A vague sound ringed in my ear, it was a scream. I held and covered my ears as I started to hear it but couldn't stop it. I fell on my knees and still covering my ears then I either hear or see no more.

As I wake up, I felt a presence at my back, warm and comforting. Sun rays touched my eyes and I tried to cover my eyes for it was way too much disturbing. When I turned my back, I saw Aidan sleeping beside me. His half face was buried in pillow, his eyes were swollen and his hair was a pure mess. I looked down to his ass and thaks to god it was covered by his boxer. But still I could see that his ass was sexier than mine. Way sexier. I tried to lift his heavy arm off me so that I could move. I placed his hand beside him and get up slowly and quietly. He was looking so innocent while he was sleeping. The weather looks sunny but I can still tell that it is freezing outside. I look out from window to beautiful view in front of me but then I remembered the things he said yesterday. Probably yesterday. My real parents didn't abandon me. They were killed. Murdered. And someone kidnap me and masked my scent? As I continued to look out from window I covered my mouth to not to make a voice because I started to cry. My tears started to fall down to ground and my mind became blank once more. What should I think or how should I act before all of this? I took a deep breath and turned to look at Aidan once more. He was still sleeping soundly and seeing him at this ease I couldn't help but feel the warmth inside me. I went to bathroom to take a shower or at least for washing my face. The bathroom is much more bigger than I expected. It has separate bathtub and shower. And well, it has so many shelves too. On this shelves, many shampoos and body lotions placed. I decided to take a bath not a shower because back in my family's house we only had a small shower tub. A bath could be nice for once at least. Water started to fill the tub and I took my clothes off. Wait. These clothes aren't the same clothes on me yesterday. Did that bastard changed me?! I was about to throw a tantrum but I didn't want to wake him up so I could take my bath in peace. Without prying eyes. Or should I say starving eyes? Perverted smile? When hot water touched my bare skin I felt that my joints were aching all the time. The tension, the grief and now the shock must have made my muscles tensed. God, how I needed this. 

After a peaceful bath time session I started to dress in bathroom cause I don't want to present a show for that freak. Actually, I am very confused about how he thinks about me. I am not a beautiful girl. My hair is dull, my legs are short, my chest is as flat as a pancake and my ass is, well, I don't even have a proper ass. And looking at him make me realize the gap between us. He is playing in another league. Doesn't it really matter for him that I am just a ugly girl with no skill and speciality? Is his all affection towards me just for mate bond he keeps mentioning? What kind of a bond make you feel affection for someone you don't know? While this thoughts circling inside my head I saw that he has awoken and looking around and walking nervously.

I kept watching him from small gap of the bathroom door and not more than a second he halted where he walk and suddenly turned his face towards me. His face lit up when saw me looking at him and in a blink of an eye he stood before the door. f**k, it startled me because his movement was fast. He just saw me looking at him and the door open but still he didn't make any move to open it more. Instead he knocked the door politely. "Are you okay?" he asked, his voice low and full of concern. I sighed and opened the door completely, I wasn't completely dressed but I had my underwear on. Then looked at his face with a sassy expression as I frowned. "By the blood of my ancestors!" he cussed and covered his nose and mouth with his hand. I was confused cause I couldn't understand the reason why he acted like that all of a sudden. "What? Am I looking like a two legged pangolin now?" my voice full of sarcasm. He tilted his head to right a bit then shook his head. "I-I have to go." he talk hastily while walking back and turned into his lycan form, halfly again(?) , then jump out of the window. All I could do and say was a big fat "Huh?". What the hell is wrong with that freak now?

I couldn't care less about his actions anymore for some other important things are bugging my mind. I put on a cozy gown on me and after drying my hair I went to downstairs, hoped to find something to eat. The kitchen was big and there were so many ingredients to cook something edible. "We hunt, don't cook."  he said. Blah. Why would someone who doesn't cook has so many ingredients then? I looked at the fridge, counters, shelves and took what I want and start cooking. I am not an expert but I can cook. While I was cooking the old woman before came inside and walk to me. I smiled at her because she was looking kind and I've always been respectful towards my elder. That is how my mother raised me. Mom. 

When a slightest thought of my family occurs in my mind I started to cry. I couldn't help myself and again my tears started to fall down from my cheeks slowly. The old woman came closer and caressed my cheeks to wipe away my tears with care. I was still sobbing and sniffing and finally I managed to stop my tears. She patted my shoulder and looked right into my eyes. "Your heart is longing for your family and you are confused, I know. But my child, know that you are where you meant to be. He will always love you unconditionally." she said. Her words supposed to bring me comfort maybe but I couldn't feel nothing but uneasiness. "It doesn't feel right. I don't feel anything towards him. It looks like this mate bond is working one-sided." I replied. And I meant every word. Yes, Aidan is very attractive, good looking or whatever but nothing more. At least for me. This is not enough. And I won't open my legs for him only because this mate bond he has. I don't recognize him as my mate or lover or even as my friend. He is no one but a captor for me. And no one can fall in love with their captor. As long as they don't have stockholm syndrome. And I definetly don't have it.  The answer I gave upset the old woman. Her face took on a sad expression and she was looking at me with eyes full of sorrow. She sighed and patted my shoulder once more then smiled sincerely again.

After she left, I ate something and decided to go out, taking a walk. Fortunately, my shoes was still there. Taking small step at outside, I walked down to the road and people greeted me. A bunch of child come next to me started to sniff me. I was feeling nervous but didn't react at all cause I could tell that they meant no harm to me. As my nervousness fade away with their playful laughter, I found myself playing tag with them. We chased after one another for a time and I should say that I've never felt this carefree in my entire life. And playing with them gave me the same sensation playing my brothers when we were little kids. When playing time came to an end I started to walk into the woods. Weather was sunny and cold but not freezing. The soil was muddy due to melted snow and it was hard to walk a bit. But the air was fresh and cold mild wind made me feel free. I could hear some growlings and cracking sounds so I started to search around, look around for finding the source. Then I saw some wolves playing and wrestling with each other. They saw me and in instant they halted and looked where I stood. My heart started to pound loudly because I thought they would attack me but no. They just gawked at me then continue to play with each other. I was relieved and envied them. They looked like having too much fun and happy. But me on the other hand, the gloomy mere human, was only capable to wonder and wander around.Yes, I can't lie to myself about how I wonder their world. His world. My adoptive family members were werewolves too but I never felt odd while living with them in a city. But here, in this snowy heaven(?), things were much more different. Even though he dragged me here with him I still wondered about his way of life. But I am still feeling as a captive here so this thought is preventing me to have positive emotions for him. My mom always said that the only way for a human to resolve her promblems with other living creature is conversation. For her it doesn't matter if you converse with an animal or a human as long as they have a soul inside them. For her watering a tree is conversation with it. I guess I will never be like her. Thinking about her, made me think about what Aidan said ealier too. My biological parents were killed and I was kidnapped. And did he really come to rescue me or come to change my fate at that day? I don't know what it is but I'm sure something that I need to talk with him. I've made up my mind. Now it is time to go back to house and wait for him to come back. Why did he leave like this at the first place anyway? What am I asking? What he did all in two whole days were reasonable?

The cold mild wind started to burn my cheeks as I was walking to home. I sneezed a few times because my nose started to run. Before I sneezed for a one last time I felt an presence behind me. Growling and loud breathing and I don't know how but I knew, no, I felt it was coming from Aidan. I've felt Aidan before turning my face to him. He wasn't in his lycan form anymore and now all I see is a pair of beautiful hazel eyes looking at me with affection. "I am sorry, I didn't mean to run away like this. I don't want you to misunderstand my reaction back there." he said while scratching his head. There was an awkward silence first but then I sighed in defeat and exhaust and pull myself together then I felt the rage in me growing. "Believe me, If I wanted to misunderstand something, it would be the last thing that I gave a s**t about. I am a captive here, you know. I don't expect you to be gentle or polite towards me. I'm just waiting for my trial. The things you said and the way you act, they're all wrong and flawed. You don't even leave me alone here for me to make up my mind. And now, don't act like you give a s**t about me. You only care about yourself. You are the one who is feeling this bullshit of a mate bond. I don't feel anything for you. And yet, you are keeping me here against my will." I snapped at him. After hearing my words, I expected him to get furious or throw a tantrum. But instead he just glared at me, narrowed his eyes and pout his lips then he tilt his head up to look at the sky. For minutes he didn't say a word either do I. Looking at him while he looking at sky tightened my chest. I felt kind of dizy. For I felt remorse. But why? Do I really care about what I made him to feel or is what he feels effects me that much?

After staring at sky he tilt his head down and without showing any emotion he looked at me once more. "After full moon phase, you will understand." his voice hoarse. "What about full moon? I don't want any cryptic talking. Be open with me." I clenched my fist and frowned. But only a sarcastic "Hmph." came out from his mouth and then all of a sudden his big grip was covered my chin once again. We were face to face, eye to eye and his eyes were glowing like sunset again. Red, yellow, orange, gold, brown, black. All of them at the same time. What kind of a beautiful sight was that? For a few minutes these colors ran inside his orbs then they came back to their original color. "Do you remember what I told you earlier?" his grip tightened even more "That I would have so much fun with you." he leaned closer, his lips almost touched mine, "Now this is what I'll do." he grab me from my waist and put me on his left shoulder. I struggled but in vain. As he carried me back to the house till we reached the bedroom he folded his left arm around my waist like a snake chocking its prey .