The Rejected One

Saying Goodbye

Neveah's POV

I was disappointed when my week with Julian was up. We had spent most of it in my room cuddling when we weren't at school. I knew that I was going to miss him so much but I knew that when he came back he would be a better future alpha. I was just gonna miss him so much and my wolf was wining in my head about not being without our mate and I spent a lot of time soothing her.

During this week we watched a lot of Disney movies and Marvel movies. I was quickly fascinated by the creativity of all of these movies. They gave me a sense of hope that everything was going to be all right. The threat of war made me worried about Julian leaving but the goddess gave me a deadline for the war so I would be prepared for it.

We were standing in front of the Webster house waiting for his ride to pick him up. I had tears in my eyes as I felt like my heart would break. I knew that five months was a long time and that I was going to miss him. I knew that when he got back he was going to be different and I was scared.

Julian wrapped his arms around my body sending chills down my spine. He must have felt my emotions through the bond again as he had throughout the week. I was going to become luna in six months so I needed to work extra hard. I just needed to have the strength to let Julian go so I could get stronger on my own.

"Baby I know that you're sad about me leaving But I left something in your room for when you miss me. Know that I am here for you even if I can't physically touch you." He said smoothing my hair out with his fingers. He did this all week when I felt like crying and it always comforted me when he did it.

"I know it just that I'm gonna miss you while you're gone and Nexus is sad that you won't be there when we wake up in the morning," I said with tears in my eyes as I heard the sound of a car coming up the driveway.

"I know baby but now that we have marked each other our wolves can talk to each other even though I will be out of state. I will see you when I get back and when I do I am taking you out on a date."He said as Nexus and I now had something to look forward to once he was back.

"Okay. but please don't be mad if you get back and I am stronger. I want to make you proud and I want to prove I can be the best luna out there." I said in the most determined voice I could manage.

"I know you will. You wound me by thinking I will be mad at you for working on yourself." He said with a look of disposition.

The car arrived just as we finished saying goodbye. As Julian's stuff got loaded into the care he gave me one more long hug and kissed me passionately. I clung to him like he was my last breath because I really didn't want him to go. He got in the car and it drove away taking my heart with it.

I felt like my lungs were caving in as my breath quickened. I felt all of my senses go on overdrive as tears streamed down my eyes. He had only been gone a second and I already missed him. I felt three pairs of are wrap around me as I tried to blink away the black dots that coated my vision. I didn't know what was happening to me and I was starting to get scared.

"Calm down baby you will be alright. you hear me your all right. I am still here with you even when I'm not.." Julian said in my head his spirit calming me from the inside.

"How can I when I miss you already? My heart is breaking." I said feeling sad that he was gone.

"How about this I can ask the dad and my trainer if you can come and visit me every two weeks so that way our distance won't be so so bad," he said through our mind like and my wolf stopped weeping and replied.

"Yes. Yes. Yes oh god yes. Please." She said as she jumped around with joy. She like the idea more than being away from Julian for more than two weeks. 

"Okay, Nexus my little minx now will help our mate and your human calm down. She is having a panic attack and We don't want her to die now do we?" Jasper said as a new feeling of calm swept over me.

What I found funny was that I wasn't sad anymore. My wolf must have made me sad and wanted to elevate my emotion. She must have made me have a panic attack because of the fear of distance. but now she was happy with contempt.

I looked up and saw Isabella, Makenna, and Layla around me comforting me. I wrapped my arms around them and we all shared in a group hug. I felt nothing but warmth and acceptance and newfound courage to be more independent. 

"Hey, Neveah do you want to come to swim with us at the pool?" Isabella asked in a comforting voice that I know came from her mom. I had a feeling she was a future luna but I couldn't tell her that.

"It might help you feel better," Makenna said with a determination that sounded like she was bribing me.

"And we can have a girl's night tonight so you don't feel alone. would you like that?" Layla said with a bright smile on her face. I thought it over for a bit before giving them my answer.

"sure let do it," I said mirroring Layla's smile. I needed to learn not to depend on Julian for emotional support.

We made our way back into the house and I walked upstairs into my room. I chose a yellow bikini with ruffles and strings. I didn't know how the girls convinced me to wear one but I guess, It was their way of helping me get out of my comfort zone.

I looked sexy in it but my insecurities were starting to get a hold of me but, I shook them off as fast as they came. I went downstairs with my white bathing suit cover-up and white flip flops.  I made my way to the back yard where the girls were already waiting.

" Good, you're here. Now we can get this party started." Isabella said as the music started in the background. They all undressed out of their bathing suit covers and jumped into the pool. They swam and splashed around while I watched them. They stopped when they realized that I wasn't in the water with them.

" Aren't you gonna come in and swim with us?" Makenna asked as I looked at them with a nervous look.

" I don't know how to swim," I confessed casting my eyes down to the floor in shame. I had not learned how to swim because I wasn't allowed to. 

"I wasn't allowed to learn how to swim," I said hunching my shoulders in shyness.

"OMG we need to teach you but, for now, you can stay in the shallow end," Isabella said as I started to take off my bathing suit cover and slowly removed my flip flops.

I took my time to get into the water as the feeling of it was quite foreign to me. I dipped my toe in the check the temperature and when I realized that it was luck warm I put my whole leg in it. My other leg followed as I walked farther into the pool. I went until I was breast-deep before I decided I was deep enough. 

I loved the feeling of my body being submerged in water and I felt a celestial pull. I tried hardtop ignore it but it was really hard. Maybe it was connected to the powers I was going to get in ten months. So I decided to let it in, to show me what it needed to show me. Maybe it was the moon goddess trying to get my attention. So I Gave that feeling the Attention it needed and What it showed me confirmed my suspicions.