Born This Way

Chapter 15

Sunday

“Kendall, Kegs, Gabriella, we are late for church Hurry up!" Jackie said and we came down.

Kendall:

White long dress that covered her black heels

Keagan:

Black and white suit

Me:

Chino pants, blue and white plaid shirt, white sneakers

“You two look so cute ... Uhm Gabriella-"

“Don't start with me" I interrupted "if you criticize my outfit I'm staying" I said and Kendall let out a chuckle. “Mom is so judgmental though" Kendall said to me. "I didn't even want to wear these drags she forced me" she said and I laughed at her.

When we got to church, we greeted the Reverend who stood at the door giving us hymns and bibles. “This is the famous Gabriella, isn't it." he said. “Sure is" I smiled. “Your mother has been talking about you so much, how bright and. Unique you are." he said and I smirked. “See you inside" he said and I walked in. I heard my mom argue with a Lady. “Who is that?" I heard that lady say. “Sy is my kin' Lula (She is my child Lula) my mom replied.

“Nee man, kyk hoe lyk sy, soos ñ Seun (She looks like a boy) “she said.

I didn't want to hear the rest of the argument and I went and sat down near Keagan. I haven't been to church in 5 years. Church politics drive me nuts. I have my own reservations about about church hence I hardly go. I dontbthink I want to put myself in a situation where I feel uncomfortable and judged for not looking like a woman.

“I greet you all in the name of the Father Son and Holdy Spirit my brothers and sisters, today as we gather here God's presence is with us... Amen!" The Reverend said and I opened the bible.

“We read from Leviticus"

This can't be what I think is gonna happen. Pretty much the only book of the Bible I know is Leviticus when they talk about same s*x marriage and how its a sin and stuff and I know he was about to talk about that. Keagan and I exchange looks, I see him shaking his head. Kendall is looking out the window less interested shifting and trying to sit comfortably in her dress.

“I feel like it's Judgment day, already" I said to him and he almost laughed out loud.

“I doubt they would talk about that, chill bro" he said trying to console me. “I read. No man shall love another, no woman shall sleep with another woman". I looked at Keagan and he looked down. I was so uncomfortable. I looked at my mom and she was smiling looking at the Reverend.

I was so angry.

The sermon went on with him telling us how much of a sin it is to be gay. “If anyone has any testimonies, they can come up here and tell the rest of the church how The Wonderful God helped them." He said and I stood up. “Where are you going!??" Keagan asked dragging me down. “Leave me alone, time to say what I've always wanted to say I've had enough" I said to him and walking to the podium. “Sup. I mean I greet you all in the name of The Father, I'm Gabriella I'm 19, I'm Lesbian" I said and heard rude remarks.

“Yes. I'm Jackie's daughter, I know she is ashamed of me you know… After all I'm just gay, I don't wear dresses nor do I stand with boys at the corner like my Little sister does. I lost my Sister a few months ago. I was devastated I felt alone. Fazel was a great person she was one of the only people I could talk to until... Well until I told her I'm Lesbian. She went berserk and we stopped talking. When I heard she passed on I was angry and frustrated. I went down on my knees and prayed I didn't know who to turn to or who to talk to. My mother the beautiful Jackie, do you guys know how much this woman despised Her own daughters, oh yeah, I forgot to mention Fazel was also Lesbian. Surprising huh, she was married actually, to a handsome woman. Her name is Ellen. She is great! I had lunch with her the other day such a wonderful soul. Their daughter is beautiful her name is Hazel basically named after Fazel. Ellen was r***d, she begged the hijackers to r**e her instead because she loved her wife so much. Oh, and my mother thought she was straight.

So fellow Brothers and sisters, don't judge your children let them be who they want to be because you will lose them. Look at Fazel, do you even know she had a baby Jackie??! Huh? No, you were worried about what Reverend Hugh and Lula would say. Nobody is perfect that's that. Thanks for your time" I said walking out of the Church. My exit was dramatic but I couldn't take it anymore.

I walked passed my mom and she was crying uncontrollably but I kept walking.