Figuring out the details
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Lee p.o.v.
I break the silence again and possibly ruin the moment “ So Jordan had asked if I’d be okay with you staying in the guesthouse with me while your here . I told him I didn’t mind if you don’t mind. He uh, well he’s seeing someone and I think it’s pretty serious. He’s asked us to join them for dinner up at the main house tonight. “
There’s so much more I want to ask but I just can’t. Hopefully she will make the decision to stay on her own.
I don’t want to pressure her into anything, I’d like nothing more than to spend this next month held up in this space with her . Doing nothing but showing her how a woman should be treated by her man. That is if she wants me.
Sophia p.o.v.
It’s like Lee is reading my mind I like it yet find it intimidating at the same time.
How should I answer that I want to say “oh god yes I would love nothing more than to spend my remaining time here with you doing more of what we did this morning. “
But that’s too much to put on the guy let alone myself. So I try to keep my cool when I say “ No, that’s not a problem at all it’s a big place .There is another bedroom I can sleep in so no big deal.”
I really want to say is how much I want to wake up next to him again.
This is harder than I thought, do I just put myself out there or let him put himself out there. I’ve only ever been with Oliver so I have no clue how any of this works. I’m a big girl I’m 23 for god’s sake I can just ask a man if he wants to be with me or not right?
No need for games right ? Just be straight forward with him and tell him what I want, or not ? Trying to summon up my courage I pull out of his embrace and grab the bottle of wine I picked up at the store. I felt bad I drank the last one Jordan had here. I grab 2 glasses and pour some wine into each.
After I hand a glass to Lee I take mine and drain it in one gulp. Here goes nothing it’s now it never.
I grab Lee’s glass from him and look him directly in the face and just let the words land where they may .
“ Look Lee, I have no clue what I’m doing here. I just lost my dream job I lost the only relationship I’ve ever known. I’m crashing in my brothers guesthouse because I don’t want to be in my apartment anymore. I never intended for what happened today to happen. That being said I’m sure as hell glad it did.
I don’t know what my plans are , if I’m going to stay here in Ewing or if I’m going back to Ringgold to find a new job. All I do know is right now I want to be selfish. And that means making choices that make me happy . I chose the college I did for my parents and Oliver. I went along with everything Oliver wanted to do. I was riding in the backseat of my life for years. I don’t want to do that anymore.
That being said I want to spend my time here with you. I want us to do a lot more of what we did this morning . On top of getting to know the real you and not the Jordan’s best friend you. Just take it one day at a time and see where it leads. And with that I don’t want to sleep in another bedroom. I truly enjoyed waking up next to you.”
Sophia starts to get a lump in her throat. She’s never been that brave before. Soft sobs start when she tries to finish her speech.
“Okay that’s it I’ve said my peace, if you don’t feel the same then I can just…”
Lee p.o.v.
I can’t take anymore of her talking , it’s cute how she had to down a glass of wine to get the courage to say what she’s saying but if I don’t stop her now she will go into full crying mood.
I reach to place my hand on her face and push her hair behind her ear. I then grab her hand gentle with my broken arm and do as she did to me in the main house. I lead her to the bedroom.
I gentle push her back onto the bed and climb over top of her and kiss her crying eyes. As she slowly adjust herself against the pillows on the backboard I continue to follow her.
As I’m over top of her with both of my knees on either side of her legs I lean down close to her face like I’m about to kiss her and tell her
“ I want the same thing you want. I’m new to this too, I’m not a relationship guy. I don’t know what in the hell I’m doing. All I do know is like you this morning meant a lot to me too. Nothing would make me happier than to spend the next month of my recover here in this bedroom with you.
I don’t know what’s next for me, if I’m going back to Tennessee or not . Or if I want to go back to my life the way it was before you and the way you make me feel. All I do know is I want to live in the moment.
And the moment is telling me that we have 3 hours before dinner with Jordan . If you so desire I would like to take those 3 hours getting lost in you . “
Sophia p.o.v.
I couldn’t speak, he had me at a loss for words. I just nodded my head and let him lose himself in me. Giving me exactly what I wanted and needed.
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