It Was Ours

Text Message

5 years ago.

"Stop being stupid maddie. Ghad, for how long will you keep having that crush to him?"

We're in my room and this gal who speak is my best friend. And yeah, hi. I'm Maddie and im maddie in love with my crush. Wooah that was smooth!

I sat on my study table while scrolling on i********: and she is on my bed doing some papers she's so humane hihe. Anyways, so i saw a just now posted ig picture of my crush Kai and I shout so so loud and she was disturbed so she ask that meany question.

ack, I blamed the butterflies!

"till death?" I joked. But It was partly truth, tho.

"You're insane" she look at me like as if I'm hopeless.

"I know" I smirk while raising my one brow and she rolled her eyes. I laugh by her expression.

That's Tracy, my bestfriend's name. She's hm, how will I describe her? Many people judge her as a b***h? Because of a dumb reason. Myghad this ppl. You know what it is? Its because of her name! Because her name sounded like a b***h and a mean girl but she's too far from that. She's pure and nice I just love her. We've been together since we're 5 I guess?

"are we like friends since we're 5 right? " I ask her for confirmation.

"yeah, why?" she's confused.

"nothing " I smiled and she just shrug and continued what she was doing. Oops she's already done with her paper works. She's now watching Dora. Its Dora y'all. Where's the map~ where's the map~. yeah.

I know guys, I know. She's weird but that weird girl knows me better than my parents well its undeniably obvious since she's the only one who knows my struggle! So she knows me more coz I'm more open to her than my parents.

Okay, don't get me wrong. I do love my parents but I'm not like the kid who is more open to their parents and I know plenty are like this too.

"Babe, you think now is the right time for me to dm him? what do you think?" I lip my bite while crossing my fingers and she just laugh at me.

"Ghad maddie! You already ask me that several times! Now it feels like deja vu. You know what's my answer"

I pouted as I heard her response. She's right. Tracy is not opposing my crush to Kai it's just that, it's been 4 years? and I have no courage to confess nor chat him. I am that coward. So I understand Tracy. She keeps on pushing me coz nothing excites her more than me having a boyfriend but I keep running away. That's why she's been tired.

When I'm alone it also pains me knowing that I wasted a lot of years. You know, he's my crush. My family knows him, Tracy knows him, My other friends know him but! He doesn't even know that I exist. He doesn't know my existence.

That is why for Tracy, she finds it crazy and impossible for me to keep having a crush on Kai even though he doesn't know me.

Its not a biggie thou. As long as I see him, as long as he accept my friend request and i********: request, its so heaven.

I think my heart would really explode if he will start talking to me. Conversation. How I wish we can talk like just only the two of us.

"Mads, what's your thought?" my gaze swiftly goes to Tracy when she called me.

"Its nothing babe. go on, continue what you're watching."

"Are you like having a thought about him? just now?" she curiously ask and I just smiled at her.

"Poor maddy" she look at me with pity. It's a joke but I still give her a dark stare and she laugh and turn her back at me to watch her beloved Dora.

"tss"

I was about to get a book and read when tracy speak.

"You know mads, there's nothing wrong in being honest with your feelings. What are you scared of? rejections? you will never know unless you try. Rejection is not the worst part is, its regret babe. Ponder that, okay?"

I give her a small smilwle " Okay, thanks Tracy. '

I am now holding a book but I can't focus reading. Tracy's word keep on echoing in my mind.

She's right. Its better being rejected that feeling regrets later on.

Am I ready with this?

"Yes you are mads." I jump on my chair when Tracy suddenly show up and tap my shoulder. I covered my mouth. Did I said it out lo--

"No, you don't said it out loud. I just thought your thinking if you're ready"

"Oh my god tracy! yes I am!"

"You are?" she was shock too and that made us laugh. is this telepathy?

"Try it mads. whatever the result, I'm here. I can give you lots lots of boys."

"Psh, lot of boys. you have none experience in dating."

She was taken aback. "of I forgot" and we laugh again.

Yes, we are both single. The difference is, I have a crush but she have none. Like, no interest in boys.

"I'm going home. Adi is coming"

"Adii??? ohmy he's coming?

"Yes he is" she smiled. She must have missed her brother. And I missed him too! Adi is like a brother to me too.

I accompanied her to the gate and we bid our goodbyes.

I was about to close the gate when my phone suddenly vibrate. Its a text message. My phone almost fall and my heart is beating so fast as I read the message.

From : Forever01

[ Dizon is having a youth vibe this Saturday. Kai is coming too. Be ready, love. Love you! ]

Ka-kai is coming?

Be ready?

Is she telling me to confess my feelings in 2 days from now??

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