How could I sleep when I had heard what I just heard? I turned in the bed over and over again. Why would he think I would do something like that? Even thinking about Ivan that way nearly had me vomit. I wanted so much to call back and tell Vladimir it was not like that but decided against it. I just lay there, staring at the rain. It was not long that I got out of bed with my fleece blanket.
The glass door was opened, stepping out into the balcony. I hopped onto the swing couch, blanket draped over me. The swing moved, hugging myself as I watched the rain not far from where I was, it’s sound so pronounced, even smelling it. The city lights shone bright as if to impress. My gut was twisting, this bad feeling just eating at me. The truth was that I did not want Vla
