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JOCELYN'S POV
For starters, I am in a fix this morning.
A man is on my bed, naked and so am I. He doesn't look too happy. Infact, that's an understatement.
He's glaring at me and I can see that he's boiling but it makes me really confused.
"You did this to spite me." Julian muttered and climbed out of my bed. As he went for his clothes, he pushed past me and I turned to look at him.
"You're being absolutely ridiculous, Julian. You came into my room yourself and all these happened between us because you fully consented to it. Hell, you initiated the whole thing!"
"I was drunk, Jocelyn! I was f*****g drunk. You should have known. You should have discharged me out of your room. But you didn't. I don't know why. Probably you find me attractive or you're doing it for some other reason. I have no idea."
"You weren't drunk last night, Julian. I knew you took alcohol but you knew what you were doing! Someone who's drunk would force me back on the chair and lift me up and do everything you did to me!"
By now, Julian already put on his trousers. His shirt hung off his shoulders as he buttoned up. "And you enjoyed it, huh? You enjoyed the s*x?"
"Of course, I did. I might hate you but I admit that the s*x was fire,"
Julian shook his head. "You have no shame. I thought you detested me? Why did you let me f**k you?"
"I didn't let you f**k me! Don't be a misogynistic fucktard! We f****d. We! We! We! And that's because I also consented. Do you think I'd let you do something I didn't want you to? I have dignity,"
Julian laughs. "But you hate me because I didn't give you a job in my company. You shouldn't be f*****g someone you hate, isn't that right?"
Closing my eyes, I feel like this should never have happened. I feel so disappointed in myself right now and I'm trying hard to act like I am not. Yes, I might have enjoyed the s*x last night but I think it was a very big mistake. A one time mistake I'll never repeat. But he's speaking to me like some cheap w***e who forcefully slept with him because I needed his money.
"Did I come to you?" Julian asked as he drew close to me. "Because that's the most important question right now."
"I'm on the pill," I say and fold my arms.
Julian laughs. "So you've been sleeping with other people?"
"Whoever I have s*x with is none of your business,"
"But this is my business, Jocelyn!" He yelled. I wince at how brash he sounds. "I know women like you. You seduce men like me and you cage them in with pregnancy and by God, if you're lying about being on the pill and you come a few weeks later to tell me you're pregnant, I am not giving any percentage of child support."
Whack!
Julian was startled. He hadn't seen it coming. I was fully in rage now and I wanted to keep slapping those stupid ideas from his head.
"You're such an arrogant bigot! Yes, I f****d up by sleeping with you. That's me stooping so low because I don't sleep with men who have no respect for women. A racist for that. I'm going to wallow in self-guilt for a long time. But you acting like some i***t because you think I want to have your child because of your money? You're a f*****g dumbass. Man, I was stupid for ever doing this with you. Get the f**k out of my room, bastard!"
Julian looked like he wanted to crush me. I could feel the hot breath blowing out of his nostrils, how his eyes narrowed into slits. "I'll make sure you don't work here. Mark my words! You'd roam around looking for jobs and you'd end up being a frustrated lady."
"f**k you!" I scream at him as he leaves the room. "f**k you and your arrogance!"
The door shut with a loud thud and the vibrations traveled through the wall to make the glass windows shake.
As soon as he was gone, I dropped into the bed and placed both of my hands on my head. "What have you done, Jocelyn? How could you be so stupid? How could you have let such a man sleep with you? Didn't you know the kind of person he was before letting your desires and lust blind you?"
I raise my head to look outside the window. The day is bright but my mood isn't. I know I'm going to beat myself up for weeks for this stupid mistake I made.
How in the hell did I think that bastard was going to wake up with a kiss on my forehead and a review of how the s*x last night was mind-blowing and maybe another round this morning with a kiss on the lip and a promise to return?
I sank into my bed and stared up at the ceiling. "Stupid, stupid Jocelyn. You let a man like that f**k you. You have no standards."
Knowing that if I remained in this room beating myself up, I would do nothing but wallow in regret, I stood to my feet and went to the bathroom to wash my mouth and comb my hair.
I quickly put on a casual dress and went downstairs.
On getting to the kitchen, I tried to avoid the weird stares Rosá and Tiffany were giving me.
When it was getting too much, I turned to them with both hands on my hip. "What?"
Tiffany shook her head and turned to continue whatever she was doing but Rosá didn't seem like she was ready to do anything yet.
"Leela is mad at you."
I frown. "Why? I was so tired and I wanted to rest—"
Rosá raised her hand to look at me. "That's not the case. It's something more serious and this is going to be a dent in your reputation. I'm really sorry, Jocelyn."
Just then, Adelaide entered the kitchen. "Leela wants you in her room as soon as possible."
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