Ripped Apart

Felt Something New

Mark's POV:

"We're just looking and looking at each other. And I can feel something new between us, something even more intimate than anything we've done. Eye to eye. It's the most powerful connection in the world"   

I never knew those simple lines that i love to read again and again will become reality for me one day and for this moment people who says fairy tales can't be reality i want them to know i met my fairy tale moment in real world so yes fairy tale exists.

I was sitting in a corner with my best friend (my book) away from hatred looks, disgusted thoughts when someone approach me as i move my eyes to her my world stops

For a moment i feel like the world around me stops rotating and the people around me not existing any more no sound no nothing I can see , hear or feel after i saw her deep blue eyes.

She was standing in front of me staring in my eyes probably waiting for me to respond my response i lost my breath my eyes don't want to move from those eyes and the innocent face the words don't exist anymore in my thoughts to say something I am skipping my heart beats and she wants me to respond. I was confuse astonished all at the moment so i can't manage to say anyone before i hear her angelic cheerful voice.

Alice: Hey, I am Alice, you???

I was confused so i asked her the most stupid question anyone can ask.

Mark: I asked???

i never talked to any girl before many approach to me  before some of them approaches me because of my power some for money or some may be for genuine reasons but I end up scarring them away I don't like talking to them 

But she is different i don't want her to go i want her with me their is a connection between us i want to keep her guard from all the bad and this might be the reason i don't want her to involve with me but destiny decides what will happen we are just puppets dancing on the tune of destiny all of a sudden she asked.

Alice: I want to talk... can you give me only 2 mins???

I want to give her whole of my life  but my life is dangerous I am a danger and all i want is to protect her so i denied her.

Mark: No!!!

after responding like this i  halfheartedly return to the book and phrase i was reading 

but a question flip my universe again 

Alice: I LIKE YOU!!!!  are you single?? can i hit on you..

I was shocked at her question normally i will be very angry if its someone else but she is kind a different i was not angry not even annoyed but she seems little hesitant and I can't manage to say something. She was staring in my eyes as if searching for an answer I want to say yes as loud as i can but i can't do it and i don't want to break her heart by saying no so i keep my words to me and returned my attention to my book although i am not in the mood to keep reading it but still if i catch her eyes one more I won't control my feelings and this will be danger for her and i will never put her in danger for my sake.

I was trying to ignore her which alone is taking all my effort and she is herself seems like a stubborn child who needs his favorite toy at any cost so she don't want to let go of me

and says to me

 Alice: You didn't say anything so let me take it as a Yes. And for now i have to go but i will be with you whenever you be free and i promise i will not annoy you..

I want to tell her that I also want to be with her but my fears traps my words. She came and move my heart and now i am watching her moving out of my sight taking my heart with her and I am bound to not stop her but this is something new for me i want her to be with me all the time never leave my sight.I want to tell her all the goods and bad of me all my feelings even i want her to comfort me when I am sad i don't know why I was never close to anyone after my mother's death i took care of my brothers. I love them but i never share any of my sad feelings with them my father he is the loan shark of mafia everyone scared of him he kills people he never care about any of our feelings he only cares about his business he wants me to be like him strong arrogant killer scary so no one can have his place and if someone replaces him it should be his sons so he will have the power for which he is destroying his sons live

I have two younger brothers Marcus and Martin 

Marcus is two years younger then me he is sensible caring responsible while martin is almost 6 years younger than me he is a pure child naughty but caring and loving they are my life. it was only because of them I live with my father because if its not me he will drag Marcus and after a while Martin in to his dirty games but i will rather sacrifice myself then letting my father ruin my brothers life.

Marcus is younger then me but he understands everything he keeps me cheerful try to lighten my mood when i am angry or sad and take cares me so do I we are each others support. He always tells me live my life to enjoy make friends he afraid of father but sometimes he stands up for me before him. 

And we both don't let father lay a hand on Martin its not like my father is an abusive freak but there is nothing more important for him then his reputation business not ever us he loves us in his own way but sometimes love is also dangerous 

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“An eye contact is way more intimidating than words.”